Chapter 9

He raised his head slowly and looked over at me. "I'm so sorry baby, I'm sorry I'm late, it's a long story" he said and I looked at him curiously. Of course it's another lie.

"Oh yeah? Wow, then come and sit down and tell me all about it." I told him and he stalks over to me.

He got in front of me with his head down,

I place a finger under his chin and lifted his face slowly to look at me. His lips were so inviting but if I think of what I saw in that office it makes me wanna haul.

"Tell me baby, what happened to you, why do you look so disrupt? I want the truth Elijah, you can tell me anything, anything at all and I'll forgive You because I love you baby" I tried not to cry. I really did.

I just want him to come clean and tell me it was a mistake, tell me that, that guy or whoever he was seduced him or maybe he was in a tight spot. Anything at all and I promised I'll forgive him for anything and I meant it. If only he tells me the truth.

"I'll believe the lie you tell me Elijah, anything"  I pleaded with a rusty voice.

Funny cause he cheated and I'm pleading for the truth, how ironic? I guess that's what love does to the soul. It makes you a fool.

He looked like he was contemplating.

"It's just work has being hectic and the company is going through some crises. I'm sorry about tonight baby, I promise I'll make it up to you." He said and I scoffed. I couldn't keep this facade anymore. I was breaking. My hope of working this out was thrown out of the door.

"Coward!"  Scoffed, making him frown.

"I was hoping you'll explain to me why you were balls deep inside another guy today on our anniversary but I guess I was wrong. You are a coward Elijah". I say to him and his eyes widen with shock and fear.

"Baby I can explain! Please lemme explain Noah, it meant nothing!" He rushed out quickly and I just gave him a blank stare.

"I didn't know there was something to explain when caught red handed cheating my love?" His eyes widen and he cringed at my tone.

"Please Noah it meant nothing!"

"Of course it didn't! But from what I saw? You seem to be enjoying yourself just fine with all the groaning and moaning"

"Noah I-"

"Oh you feel so good baby, fuck I missed that ass, oh Alec" I mimicked what I heard to him with so much disgust as I spat out those words like venom and he just stood there frozen with wide eyes, and jaw dropping as he stared at me with fear.

"That's right, I saw ya. I caught you red handed" he couldn't speak he just stared with shock. Thrown into complete speechlessness.

I rolled my eyes as I walked out on him and headed straight to the bedroom.  I've heard enough. 

I'm tired of everything, the lies, the cheating, the betrayal. Everything. I tried to be perfect for him but he didn't want it, I'm tired. The bedroom had been decorated with a romantic setting and that pissed me off the more. I was boiling I wanted to punch something.

I was hoping to make love to my husband on that bed. Have him make love to me. I wanted everything to be perfect but I guess he made his choice. He chose that guy over me his very own husband! And he had the nerve to try and lie to me.

Seriously?

What did I ever do to him. I was what he wanted me to be. I'd lie for him, kill for him. I betrayed everything I ever believed in for him. My parents hated the idea of me being gay, I threw them out of my life and stopped visiting them in France for him. I left my fiancé at the alter just to be with him and he does this to me! Upon all my sacrifices. I guess I wasn't enough and I accept that now.

I took a cold shower to calm my nerves cause it always works.

I got into my pjs and laid down, I shut my eyes tightly but sleep doesn't want me now.

I just need a drink.

I stood from the bed and made my way downstairs to our mini bar for something strong.

What I saw when I got there made my heart ache the more. I just couldn't help it, I couldn't stand seeing him like that. I just couldn't stand seeing tears in his eyes, it was just something I wasn't used to seeing. I wrapped my arms around him as he cried his heart out.

"I'm so sorry Noah, I didn't mean for this to happen, I'm so sorry please forgive me it won't happen again I promise. Please don't leave me I beg you" he said between sobs. It hurt a lot seeing him like this. Even seeing what I saw earlier didn't hurt this much it made my eyes blur with pricks of tears.

I just held on to him tightly cradling him. Rocking him back and forth. I couldn't talk, everything hurts so bad. My heart feels like it's being ripped out of my chest.

He brought a shaky hands to my face and touched my cheek, he leaned into my face slightly, for a second I thought he was going to kiss me, but instead he kissed my tears away and that was the last straw for me to break down completely.

"I'm so sorry my love, I don't know what came over me, please don't leave me. I need you Noah, I need you to keep me sane. If you leave I might not survive, please don't divorce me."  He said between sobs and hiccups.

If only he had thought of that before.

I didn't talk, I couldn't talk, I just closed my eyes and the tears fell the more..

What is wrong with me. I never ever cry. But my heart was just hurting so much just from seeing him like this.

We stayed like that for what seemed like forever. We stopped with that pathetic act

I sat him down on one of the bar stools and took one for myself. I just wanted to know why and how long this had been going on. For all I knew it could've been from the day we started dating. I just questioned everything now. Everything that stood for our relationship, I felt was a lie.

I couldn't look at him and neither could he.

I found the island interesting to look at than looking at him. Looking at him made me feel so betrayed. All I saw when I looked at him was how he was groaning when he was thrusting into that guy! The way he said his name. It made me question all pleasure he felt when we made love. Was he fucking it?

I groaned frustratedly. Fuck love hurts so bad.

"How long?" I asked glaring hard into space. Something told me I wouldn't like the answer.

"Noah I-" he stuttered over his words. He's about to lie again.

"How the fùck long have you been sleeping around and with how many people?" I seethed.

"It's just one person Noah please I'm sorry don't leave me please ."

I slammed my hand on the stall hard making him jump up! I've never being like this with him. But I was so fùcking livid that someone felt that sexy body of his.

"Stop avoiding the question and give me a fùcking answer before I loose my cool, how the fùck long have you been doing this to us" I hissed.

"1 year" he whispered quietly but I heard him. And eyes widened automatically, I blinked rapidly. I just couldn't believe my ears.

"You've been doing this for a year Elijah?" my body shook violently, I was not expecting that at all.

"While I was in bed waiting for my husband to come and hold me into his warmth, he was out fùcking some slut?!" I yelled out, that had my heart breaking all over again.

He didn't say one time! One year?

"No baby it's not like that, I just gave in 6 months ago. It's a long story baby lemme explain please Noah" he pleaded but I can't listen to this Anymore I just hurt too much.

"6 months, one year, same fucking shit"  I snapped.

I stood up abruptly and so did he.

"wow,this actually changes things" I drawled slowly, who knew the feeling of betrayal could be this energy draining.

He stood there with eyes wide and jaw dropping to the floor in shock. He was shaking violently. But I was too drained to care right now.

"Nooooo!, Noah please don't do this, don't divorce me please, please,please!" He dropped to his knees pleading while crying hard!

I wasn't gonna divorce him. I loved him too much even after everything. But I'm not gonna let him think he can get away with this for free.

"Oh but you expect me to be okay sharing my husband with some slut right?

Wow Elijah you are really selfish ass man" I scoffed in amusement shaking my fùcking head.

"It wasn't intentional Noah, it wasn't planned, please baby don't do this" 

"I can't do this right now, I'm too tired and drained at the same time. I can't believe you did this for a whole year Elijah! Seriously?"

With that I turned and left.