1: [EXTRA] [Wang Wei's Point Of View] [Part 2]

His presence was like a sun in the endless darkness of my life. His warm smile...and cute gesture was making my body heated. As his small figure left, my eyes never left him.

That's the last time I ever saw him.

When I returned home, my personality completely changed. I did not crave for my father's attention anymore, I distance myself from anyone. I became grumpy and arrogant. My father won't care about me anyway.

In school, I used my father's influence and became the huge bully that anyone avoided. I found peace in their suffering. Hah. All people was equal, then why I am the only one to suffer? Might as well do something that can cause their breakdown.

"So who the hell told you to smile?!" I kicked a junior kid and my other friends let out a laughed.

The kid whimpered and sobbed silently. Seeing him like this, my usual prominent smile widened. Just like that. Don't smile anymore and just became a sad creature.

"When I see you smile again, I will kill you." I threatened and kicked him once more.

The kid nodded and continuously stifled his loud cries. The other students did not pay attention to my actions. Silly. Other's will only help you if you are worth to them, but with me bullying anyone, no one dare to protest. Even the teacher can't argue with me.

I brushed my hair up and let out a sexy chuckled. Growing up, my height was taller than my age. My body was lean but muscular. I was not wearing school uniform since I find it disgusting.

After I bullied the kid, the next day his usual lovely smile was changed into a frightened look. Others avoided him anymore. Seeing him suffered, my mood lightened.

"Young master, what if your father will perceive about this?"my friend Zhou Wenjing asked me.

I frowned, and my eyes darkened a little, "It won't matter. He doesn't care anyway."

Seeing my mood changed, my other friends did not query anymore. Besides, that bastard father won't care about what I do on school anyway. So why worry? I chuckled again.

Just like my usual life cycle, when I got home my father will always bring several beauties to accompany him. I sneered and frowned as their disgusting moaned and groaned echoed the whole quite hall.

"How have you been?" Suddenly he asked me when I am eating in the dining.

I coldly look at him and my eyes shifted on the boy beside him, I pursed my lips. "Gladly, I am still alive."

He did not mind my sarcastic voice and sat on the other table. The boy beside him shyly sat on his lap. Few ambiguous marks was visible in his body. I don't need to think what they do yesterday. I feel an urge to vomit.

"I really thought you will follow that old woman in her hometown. Luckily, you didn't. She just died yesterday."he told me with a mocking smirk on his face.

I really want to punch that annoying face of his. But hearing his sentences, my body trembled. In my memory, I always remember the good will of Nanny Li. Although I don't remember her face anymore, my heart still throb in pain. My hands clenched on the table. But I knew, he will just feel happy with my miserable state.

I forced myself to smile, "I see."

Perceiving that my mood doesn't change. He scowled and ignored me. He happily ate with the boy on his arms, completely acted like I don't exist. After I finished eating my meal, I hurriedly went to my room. I don't want to go to school this day.

Because....just like any other kid. I want also to take a break.

A break from this miserable life.

My childhood was not good for anyone, despite the fact that I can get whatever I want. None of this matter to me. And Nanny Li, who's the only one to make me feel warm and special, was finally gone....completely gone. I can feel my eyes was red in anger. Damn it.

For a week, I isolated myself in my room. My friends were worried about me, but I don't care about those fake cares. They only respected me because they can't afford to defy me. But none of this concern anymore, I am now responsible for their miserable fate. I can make them happy, and I can also make them suffer. So what if I became a bad person in other's perspective? This way, I can feel superior.

"Let's see the freshman this year." My friend suggested. Other's also agreed with him.

I sucked the filter of the cigarettes and exhaled a mouthful smoke. They are all waiting for my approval and did not dare to resist my will. Seeing them like this, my mood was filled with contentment. Just I always like. I am the rule in this school.

"Let's see then..." I replied and they let out happy noises.

We went to the freshman building. Some students avoided us or urgently ran towards the different direction. But some also cast admired gaze and gape on our spot. But, those strange eyes just made me feel disgusted.

I grew up without being attractive by neither men nor women. In my age, others already lost their virginity. And I also saw my friends fooling around with beauties. But in my heart, I don't feel like I will be used to it. It feels like, I was waiting for someone that I don't know if it does exist or what.

Just as my mind drifted, a familiar sensation made my heart tremble in excitement. My dark eyes shook violently.

Dressed in a school uniform was a youth, he was alone and reading a book in one of the benches of school. The outlined of his shoulder strained against the fabric, making him appear tall and lean. His glasses made him look mature but sexy, and his strands of hair covered half of his forehead. His eyes were down and when it slowly lifted.

A familiar ocean eyes met mine.

I stunned. Some of my friends noticed my unusual behavior and also stopped. I cleared my throat and seems like coming back to my senses.

"Are you okay, boss?"Zhou Wenjing asked, seemingly concerned.

I nodded and when my eyes returned to the youth, he was gone. My heart immediately panic. It was just an illusion?! No! It was really Su Bein!

Despite the fact that my chest felt strong nervousness, my excitement also outshine the other. I used my father's connection and finally obtained and clarify that the youth was not an illusion.

He was an orphan and he has only gotten to this school by his academic performance. He was a model student. No bad record and excellently top the scoring board of the freshman.

Perceiving how excellent he was, I can't help but to compare my studies to him. In my record, I always got the lowest score on the test and my reputation was definitely considered the worst. I panic automatically. How can Su Bein see me like this?! I can't approach him by looking like this.

That's the beginning of my sudden change. I start attending school and did not escape classes anymore. I started climbing from the bottom of the classes to being in the top ten.

My teacher was bewildered. But seeing me motivated by unknown and stopped harassing other students, he was also happy. My friends also noticed my behavior and was also confused. But my mind was completely occupied by a thought of standing beside Su Bein...holding him in my arms. Without any worries about the world.

But still, I did not dare to approach him. I was only looking from a far, waiting for the right moment that I will be good enough for him. Of course, I also threatened all the possible threat that will steal Su Bein from me.

I am like a pervert stalker. But I can't stop myself from looking like this.

And finally, the day has come. I was not rumor that I am bully anymore. My grades were good. So good that even the teachers was shocked. But I was happy. I think, I am now suitable to stand beside him.

I look in a mirror nervously. I combed my hair attentively and design it like a proper student. Not only that, but I also wore my school uniform and when my reflection appeared before me, I was confused. It feels like, I am completely like a different person. But I don't dare to care anymore. Su Bein likes proper student. I smiled.

In break time, I waited first in the usual spot of Su Bein. I was nervous and tense, some other students cast strange gaze at me. In innuendos of the student, Su Bein's character was cold and distance. Although, he was a beauty, no one wants to sit beside him. And now seeing me, sitting in his accustomed table. They will really look mystify.

But I didn't bother in them anymore. I was sweating tensely and waited for his arrival.

And my expectations did not fail me. He was walking towards my direction, his eyes was also confused for a while and turned back to his regular cold and aloof gaze. He stared at me and then look back. I bite my lips unconsciously.

He sat beside me and opened the book. He was acting like he did not see me. My hands tremble below the table.

Does he feel uncomfortable to me? It doesn't seem like it.

I coughed and cleared my throat, "S-Su Bein right?" I started. My cheeks heated. Damn it.

He lifted his chin and rose his eyebrow, apparently waiting for me to continue speaking.

"I like you. Can you go out with me?"

He paused. Other students also hearing this look at us with shocked eyes. My ears and cheeks reddened and waited for him to answer. But there were no other changes in his eyes.

"Sorry. But I think you've mistaken me for someone else."he replied, making my fantasy crashed in pieces.

I panic when he started packing his things, "No! No! I really like you. Please go out with me!"

He turned his eyes, "I think. You are not good enough for me. Find someone else."after that he left.

I was frozen in this place for a couple of moments before processing his rejection.

Did I just get dumped?

And not good enough?

Not good enough. Good enough. I was so sick hearing that words but coming from Su Bein's mouth....it was a thousand times more painful.

I came back to my usual self and became even worst. Even a tiny bit of action makes me irritated. I was so mad thinking about those happy future and then...it just straight away crashed with a simple words.

But thinking days and night...maybe Su Bein don't remember me? Yes. That's why he instantly rejected me because he doesn't remember me! I was happy once again about this thought. But then...

"Hello Uncle Song?" I answered.

The other line slightly paused, "Wang Wei, are you living well with your dad?"

I gritted my teeth for a while, "Yeah. Why do you ask?"

"I will only say this one time. Your dad will steal your inheritance from your mother. You need to stop fooling around now."

"What do you mean?"

"Become responsible! Don't you know that your reputation has reach here? You are the only one that can inherit your mother's company. So stop fooling around and be serious!"

My mind was mixed. I know that my father was always interested in my mother's company, that's why he keeps me in this trash house. But perceiving that he will truly steal it, my heart can't control this fury.

If I became responsible enough then will Su Bein like me?

My eyes darkened.

I started learning business tricks and any other stuff related to business. But to make my father's guard lower, I still acted foolishly and gather evidence in secret. I did not dare to get close to Su Bein anymore until I reached college.

Unfortunately, news from the spy I hired to follow Su Bein made me go insane.

He was working in a damn bar!

Damn it. My mind was filled with anger as I imagined him doing some stuff related to his work.

I can't control myself and went to the bar that he was working. And my instinct did not fail me. What the hell?!

My eyes darkened when I saw him in front of the counter, flustered and his eyes was misty. He chuckled absentmindedly. My dark eyes flashed in anger. I followed him to the bathroom.

As my figure entered, I was greeted by a soft kiss. It was hot and inexperienced. A little childish, but it was sweet....and give my heart a strong ecstasy. My cold eyes, manisfy.

So is this his real nature?! Throwing in any other man's arms?!

I pushed him a little and hold his thin waist. His eyes were filled with vapor and stared at me with a soft whimper and moaned.

"C-Can you help me?... I feel so uncomfortable."he pleaded.

I only felt huge fury fusing in my heart, I coldly look at him, "Is this your work?" I asked in a chilly voice.

He did not answer my question, instead he leaned his body into mine and crave for my lips. My crotch hardened a little. Damn it. I carried him in my shoulder and used to the backdoor to exit.

He was still moaning and sobbing while being carried in my shoulder. I don't care about his weak plead anymore as my mind was full of anger...and certain lust.

Damn it.

"Stop in the nearest hotel." I commanded our driver. He did not ask any question and started the engine.

I pulled him out of the car and went inside the hotel. I rented a private room. It was night. And most people went in to this to hook up or to have sex. And people don't find my behavior abnormal. As I entered the hotel room, I pushed him in the bathroom. His face was flushed and tears drip to the corner of his eyes. I splashed water on him and his eyes widened in surprise.

I smirked, "Sober up?"

He shook his head and his hands went inside his wet pants. My eyes darkened. I pulled his hands and held it firmly. My eyes were throwing dagger.

"What are you doing?"

"S-So uncomfortable....so hot.... I want to...."he choked and stared at me absentmindedly.

"Are you fucking drunk?!" I shouted.

He shook his head and his eyes lowered, his long eyelashes tremble. "J-Just help me...ugh..."

"Damn it."

I cursed and pulled him into a soft kiss.

I was hoping I can finally claim him, but just like any other fantasy, I did not.

"You made me think that you are different from your father. No. In fact, you are worse than your father!" His words were like a sharp that keep piercing in my heart. My heart that it was already wounded....and broken.

My eyes widened. Panic aroused on me as I hugged his bare legs, pleading and hoping to correct my mistake.

"No... No... I'm sorry okay? If you want, I will kill my father. Just don't hate me, okay?"

Please...baby...surrender to me and let me love you my way....

But just like I expected, I still got rejected.

I got rejected once more.

I was determined to drag down my father. Likewise, I gather all the evidence of his crime and deeds. And convince all the family of the victims to file a case against him.

I overworked myself just to let my heart rest. But I will always find a way to observe the condition of the youth. And... I still failed to control myself.

He was like an addiction to my body, and just like his simple smile...his sweet voice and his ocean eyes made me lost my insanity.

I pleaded one more time. And this time, he did not push me. I use all means to please him...and hopefully he did not reject me anymore. He was not uncomfortable like he was in the past. I knew that he did not accept my feelings yet...but it will be a matter of time.

Sadly, my expectations failed me again.

He committed suicide the day my father went to jail.

Is the world playing against me?! Why....why would this happened to me. H-He was almost...he almost accepted me. Then....maybe I was really destined to suffer.

I stared at his face inside the coffin. My eyes heated and my throat choked. I did not dare to touched his lifeless body. He was still beautiful as ever. Only....there was no one living inside this body.

"Su Bein." I called, maybe expecting an answer.

Suddenly, a warm air caress my face. I closed my eyes for a brief moment.

"It was you, right?" My voice lit up. But my heart uncontrollably clenched. I touched the glass and smiled foolishly.

"Remember this. I will only love you, and you are mine, this lifetime and the next."I shouted. Tears keep brimming on my cheeks.

"My Su Bein..."

Unexpectedly, the world started to crumble.