X Dynasty~The Daylily of Passion

TIMESKIP

---(2 months later)---

Nana's POV

Time flies fast. It's now the day, the day that I don't ever wish to come. I don't want to get married, I am still waiting for Kai to save me in this hell. I'm still waiting for my knight to save me from this prison called my village.

But it's now the day, I can't scape to it anymore.

I don't know what should I feel--to feel betrayed and disappointed that Kai didn't come to see me for two months, or to feel loss that I couldn't simply fight for my love.

So here I am, being surrounded by busy maids. They are getting me ready for the ceremony later this day.

Kai's POV

After planning and building up my composure again for two months, I've decided. I am going to save her and live freely here together with me forever.

My parents already knew what was happening, so they let me go and do what am I supoosed to do a long time ago.

I trudge my feet into their house. I'll do everything to set her free from that stupid marriage thing and be the woman she wants.

As time pass by, I am already at the big gates in their little village.

Meanwhile, the gates opened. I saw a carriage coming out from their gates.

I decided to use my peripheral vision to see who's in the carriage.

I saw a girl , dressed in a red kimono together with a golden hanfu with elegant embroideries.

She is also wearing a short red veil...

She is wearing such an elegant dress.

Based on our tradition, she is getting married that's why she is wearing that kind of cloth.

I hope that my brunette lover and I could married like that too, it will be a happy ending for us.

As I continue to observe her, I notice something that I wish I never noticed.

The hairpin that they used to hold all of her hair up was showing, and it was a golden hairpin with the style that caught up my attention.

The hairpin looked like the tiny pink flowers of the bonsai plant that grows on the mountainside. In short, it is the flower of Satsuki Azalea, the flowers we both used to admire during the late spring.

Wait, a golden Satsuki Azalea-styled hairpin?!

'I-It was the s-same a-as the hairpin I-I gave to her on our t-th-third date. Don't tell me she's...'

I cried in silence, I know who's the girl in the carriage now. She's my lover, Nana...Getting married to another man.

That hairpin remains in my mind. That sight of hairpin on her repeatedly hurt me.

No way, she's getting married now...

'How pathetic....I couldn't save her...I'm too late for that...'

The empty feeling of the moment I cast away this earthly life, is just like the sorrow of our unavoidable parting.

I couldn't do anything. I feel so empty. I feel so useless.

'It's all my fault...'

It's all my fault that her hands are tied to a prince.

It's the fear like I felt in the past

I thought I fear the most when you depart at me during the wars. But now, I fear this moment. You are now getting married...And we can't see each other anymore.

I thought I knew I shouldn't try to remember.

I lose her in the middle of our love story.

Now that story is just a part of our memories...

And that story will never continue, no matter how many years will pass...

Within our opened hearts, in our hidden destiny,

I couldn't continue to live like this.

The world is too cruel for us...

She used to be my lover that I cherish so much..But now she will be the princess that I will respect and will never touch or even hug.

Maybe we are not destined for each other...

Our expressions of happiness will be just piled up in our love—nothing more, nothing less.

But as I continue to go back in the past, there were undeniable love between us.

The "I love you, I like you" things and the cuddles.

These words make my chest hurt

I miss those moments and those moments make my chest hurt. Those moments will only live in our memories starting now...

Nana's POV

The ceremony took so long than I expect.

I sigh, I am now a married woman.

I can't go and meet Kai anymore.

That's because I learned that they have a rule here in a palace that when a married woman will have an affair with another man, they will be sentenced to death.

I don't want Kai to be sentenced to death just because of me, so I better keep him hidden from the emperor whenever I/he plans to meet him/me.

In the loneliness of this late night, a sight came to my mind

I couldn't help but feel lonely in the middle of the night.

Yes, I do have prince Ruka sleeping beside me but I still feel lonely and empty at the same time because the man that's sleeping beside me is not the man that I love dearly for years.

Kai is not here, the warmth he gave to me in those times were irreplaceable.

I still remember the time that we sneak out in the middle of the night for us to have a date.

During those times, I can see his red cheeks in the moonlight whenever I embarass him or either me being affectionate towards him.

Hearing his delicate voice uttering I like yous and I love yous in the middle of the quiet chilly night.

Even though you live while carrying pain in your heart,I couldn't do anything but hurt you.

I miss him so much...

For sure, he is the same as me now.

Living in this less fortunate life with pain, carrying this pain everyday.

But we couldn't do anything at it. The world and our fate were just too cruel for us.

We couldn't do anything but to hurt each other.

TIMESKIP

---(1 week later)---

It's now one week since I got married to prince Ruka, I am called princess Nana Touyama now. But the feelings are always the same, nothing change even for a little.

I should stop myself, this overflowing love of mine for Kai still remains overflowing in me.

But the longer I keep this overflowing love, the more it hurts.

Over the time, it turns into a blade...

Should I let go of this blade? Or stay still?

I don't know...

It hurts so much when I stay still...

But it will hurt more if I will just give up even if there was still a little hope remaining....

Forget love, there's only passion

I can no longer tell if I am my own person.

Thinking too much, I only understand the passion I feel for him.

Thinking too much...Passion...Only passion...There's no word such as love for me....

Thinking these kind of things...Am I going crazy..?

'Why?'

That's the only thing that I am thinking right now.

Not aware of my surroundings, not aware of the word "love".

'They are laughing at me, telling that I am pathetic.'

'How dare I can win in the battlefield but can't defend this love of ours...'

I need to compose my self now....And fight the challenges of our life.

Kai's POV

This would have happened eventually,

Over a week, it still hurts. Like a blade that can make you bleed at any time...

I realized somewhere along the way...

I don't know if I am thinking right, where nothing left..

Or I'll leave the past where the right things in my life happened...

as we begin to part ways.

I just can't....live properly without her...

Even if we keep living like this,

don't you say that we can't be happy, We'll be alright.

Even the sadness of that day, we have to continue living our life.

With or without each other, that precious memory of ours will still remain precious.

But I have decided, I will leave the past and rewrite our story.

One life and one more life come, one after the other, in this season.

Let's leave our past, leave the bad memories behind and rewrite our story to another pages of book of our life.

The love will remain love, precious memories will remain precious memories, passion will remain passion, let's rewrite it together!