Shutting down the power

*Yoongi pov

"But then id have exactly the same problem but with Shay instead" she points out sadly.

"Well, I know a man who is looking for a project manager for a large regeneration project in Daegu. Guaranteed at least 3 years of work. Sympathetic restoration and remodelling of an abandoned hospital and it's outbuildings into apartments, building a school, Doctors Surgery and some shops" I wink, pointing into my own chest, then continue, "If that project is successful I plan to extend it to all low income areas all over South Korea. There could be work for many years to come........ IF..... let's say, you knew someone who might have the relevant qualifications that is!"

"Are you offering me a job Yoongs" Shay asks excitedly, using the new nickname he has bestowed upon Yoongi in the last couple of weeks.

Shay looks at Pippi and raises his eyebrows at her questioningly. "Fancy a few years abroad Pips?"

"You could both stay with me when Namjoon finds me somewhere so we all have some support! It'll be awesome! Please Pippi, Shay...... come with us!" Bo begs, her hands clasped together in hope

"Fuck it, why not" Pippi shrugs. "Gotta try new things in life or you get stale" she says nonchalantly

I turn to Kenzie

"So what do you say Kenzie? Are you coming with us too now?" I ask rhetorically with a grin

"Well, erm.... tomorrow is not much notice. I'd have things to organise, I'd need some time...." she stutters

I wasn't expecting that! I thought she would be ecstatic but her manner is pretty cool. Everyone else at the table has gone silent and is staring right at me, waiting for my response. What the hell does this mean then? I'm not worth the risk? She doesn't love me? I am fucking confused!

I stare blankly for a few seconds and then stand up and leave the table, pushing through the crowded bar area to the main exit doors, and I leave. I begin walking. Excellent!! It is pitch black, freezing cold and fucking raining!!! I start to jog along the small dirt road, increasing my speed to a run. I'm sure I hear my name being called but I need to let off some steam. I run for only a few seconds before my lungs are burning and I collapse into the mud face first. I have no desire to get up. I feel utterly dejected, worthless and hurt. I turn onto my back with the last bit of energy I have. My body is giving up, muscles refuse to move, eyes unfocused, my brain shutting down the power! I inhale the deepest breath that I can and I scream!! I shout, I swear and I scream some more, although the sound is quickly becoming very strangled and is intermittently broken by heavy guttural sobs.

Headlights approach and a car pulls up alongside me. Two hazy figures climb out, only their silhouettes evident as they pass in-front of the intense brightness of the light source, but i still recognise Namjoons impressive stature. Namjoon comes directly to me and lifts me into a sitting position while Shay grabs a blanket from the boot of his car to wrap me in. They lift me easily and place me into the back of the car. Namjoon gets in beside me and I fall into his lap and bawl, covering his gorgeous suit in mud. He doesn't flinch and just strokes my head until we get back to Kenzies.