Nurture over nature

*Yoongi pov

I feel like I've won the lottery and had my ticket stolen. Overjoyed one moment, desolate immediately afterwards.

It hadn't even entered my mind that that bastard could be the father. How cruel that would be. Ironic really, he's dead but still causing fucking trouble. I'd like to kill him all over again! If I'm honest I'd be devastated if I wasn't the biological father but, as an adopted child I know that biology doesn't necessarily equate to love, security and happiness. My mother loved me so much, cared for me and kept me safe, and there was no biological link there.

I realise that I don't care if these babies are not genetically mine, I love their mother and I want to be a father to them. I am a firm believer in nurture over nature, I don't think babies can be born evil, but can certainly be raised badly.

"I won't lie Kenzie, I want these babies to be mine. The thought they could be his infuriates me but I don't care. I will be their Appa, whatever their DNA suggests. I will love them no matter their paternity. Do you want that?"

"More than you can imagine. I can't tell you how much I want these babies to be yours" she tells me

"Let's wake everyone and tell them the great news" I say excitedly, dragging her toward the doorway

"I know you're excited but I need to tell Shay and Bo before we tell anyone else" she says

I'm surprised they don't know already. I say as much to her and she tells me that I deserved to know before anyone else. She is always so thoughtful and considerate. I couldn't love her more!

We undress down to our underwear and get back into bed. I pull her into the tightest embrace.

"I promise to love our babies forever. I promise to keep you all safe. I promise to make you happy! Let's try to get some sleep. I'll call the kids in the morning and invite them for breakfast. We can tell them together then. What do you think?"

"Mmmm, that sounds perfect to me. Thankyou" she says, exhaustion evident in her husky tone.

We are lying nose to nose, Kenzie lying on my left arm which is holding her close to me, the fingers on my right hand tenderly tracing along her back. I cannot stop thinking about the twins. I close my eyes and I can picture their faces. In my mind they are identical boys. They have their mothers beautiful curls but their hair is darker like mine. Their skin is beautifully pale, so much like their mothers, they have the cutest dimples and the most perfect little pouty lips.

Images of them growing flash through my mind. Aged around 2 they are unsteadily running around a garden with a football, squeals of laughter following them. I see myself playing with them, chasing them, tickling them, swinging them up into the air. I can feel my joy. I can feel how much I love them. A few years older they are in a music room, one playing a piano, his eyes closed and head swaying from side to side, the other strumming the strings of an acoustic guitar and singing, his expression full of passion and sincerity. I wish i could hear them.

As teenagers they appear like most that age, hanging out with friends, arms slung around girls, attending college, covered in tattoos which I'm not overly happy about! Wow, their lives are flashing before my eyes and they aren't even born! I'm grinning like a Cheshire Cat.

I'm soon aware that Kenzie has fallen asleep. I listen to her soft rhythmic breathing, feel the gentle expansion of her lungs under my right hand, and the light pressure of her boobs against my chest. Just as my body begins to acknowledge what my mind has already realised, that this gorgeous woman is in my arms and her body is pressed into me she rolls away from me onto her back. I take this opportunity to really look at her tummy. It is rounder. It is quite apparent from this angle. From just below her belly button down to the band of her knickers is a very slight swelling. I reach out and almost reverently touch her skin. I run my hand softly over the firmness and revel in how smooth she feels.

Unable to resist the urge I move down the bed and place a featherlight kiss just above the tiny heart charm on her underwear and whisper.....

"Hi babies, this is your Appa......your daddy. It's going to be a while before we can see one another but I promise I will talk to you often. If that annoys you then just kick your mummy and I'll be quiet! I don't like being disturbed when I'm trying to sleep either. The same applies to foods. I'm going to feed your Eomma so well to make sure you grow strong. I'll start with all my favourites, just give mummy a little dig if you're not keen, ok? Deal? Good. Ok, I'm going to cuddle mummy and sleep now, and you should probably do the same. Salanghae my darlings"

I retake my previous position beside Kenzie and guide her back into my arms, her back to my chest, my hand resting on her tummy. I place a soft kiss on the exposed skin of her neck and wish her a goodnight. I am struck then that I now have everything I have ever wanted in life..... a family!