31| silent (pt.1)

Melinoe

"I'm mad at Disney, they tricked me. Had me wishing on a shooting star, now I'm twenty something, I still know nothing." Sam Liese, Mad At Disney

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"Mama!"

"Yes my baby?"

"When is papa coming home again?" I asked. "During the weekend love. I told you this before, why do you ask?" 

"No because, I saw on Cinderalla, a one other movies that their dad walks them down the aisle. And I want papa do the same when I get married."

"Yeah?"

"Yes. And I want to I've happily ever after! Just like Cinderella, Rapunzel and Jasmine," I smiled and added the last piece to puzzle piece. "I'm done mama! I want my cookie now."

"What should you say little missy?" My mom raised her eyebrows with her hands on her waist. "Mama can I have my biscuit please?"  I looked down at the plate with a few cookies and a smiled widely. "Thank you Mama,"

"Sweetie," I heard my mom say. "Yes."

"Do you know what you want to become one day?"

"Uhm, I want to write my own books mama. I've already started but I want to continue them when I'm older. Also, I want to have a love story of my own so I can write it all in one book." I finished.

"Oh sweetie," she sighed with a smile. "You're growing up way too fast." She said. "Maybe, but I can't wait to be older so that I can live my life and make you and papa proud."

Right as I said that, the door opened and I turned my head straight and saw my dad. "Papa! You're home!"

"Yes my princess" he said and pulled me into a hug. "Mama said you were coming back in the weekend."

"Well, papa wanted to surprise you."

"Well, I was just talking to mom about getting married." I said. "Really?"

"Yes and I wanna get married like all the princesses in the movies." I said. "And live happily, like you, with mama."

And right on time, my mom appeared and gave papa a kiss. "You'll live your dream honey."

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One month later

And more than a decade later, I'm here as a 26 year old, that was about to experience her childhood dream.

And I had to learn that life wasn't what it seemed like in movies. Truly life was so much more different. I slowly peeled my eyes open And the first thing I had my eyes on was the ceiling.

Today was the day.

My heart was beating perfectly, I was breathing fine, there was no anxiety  and no panic attacks. I was ok.

I was perfectly fine.

Was I excited? Could I smile? I didn't really know because one thing that was on my mind and only, was today.

Today was the biggest day of my entire life, today was the day of me walking down the aisle with a white dress. That I picked even after everything that happened.

Today was the day of saying my vows and saying 'I do'. The day finally comes, 31 one days later with a decision I made. That I don't even know if it's good or bad but it is something I have made.

I woke up an hour ago, and an hour later, I'm  finally deciding to step out of my bed. I stared at my reflection in the mirror and because of the tradition, I haven't Aaron since yesterday. 

I began washing my face with the water that was in the basin and once I was done, I allowed my face to air dry and began brushing my teeth as it dried up. Once I was done and my face was all done, I came out of room and I caught the sight of a person on my bed.

"Mija," [daughter] I heard her whisper. "Mama?" I choked out. "Wh- what's going on. You're here?"

"I just came to tell you one thing." I ran towards the bed and sat beside her. "We have so much to talk about Ma."

"Unfortunately, I don't have that much time," I bowed my head down and tried fighting the tears but it was useless. My heart sunk when the realization of this being unreal came to mind. "The day has come my love and I'm not going to tell you to do anything. Nothing at all. I just want you to be happy. That's all I want,"

"Ma-"

"Tell you dad that I love him."

"No ma-"

"And tell Ika too," she said referring to Nichola. Ika was a unique nickname she always called Nichola. Nichola's name was not a name you could have all the nicknames too but Ma managed to get one for her. "I'll tell her but ma, I miss you."

"I miss you too Maria." She smiled. "Melinoe Maria Luísa Montez, soon to be, Garcia. Big girls don't cry,  hold your head up high Maria Luísa and be happy. I love you."

And with that, she was gone.

I stayed in the same position until I heard the sound of the door open. I could smell the familiar scent and I knew who it was almost immediately.

I saw a pair of sneakers and my eyes slowly traveled up and my eyes met his.

"Hug me."