32| cries (pt.2)

Melinoe

"White flowers and white letters you say I'm yours forever, but it don't feel romantic somehow." -Olivia Rodrigo, White Flowers

***

I don't think a bride, is supposed to cry sad tears on her own wedding day.

My slowly traced my fingers around the vase and my gaze averted from the vase to the sunflowers. I stared at them and I saw once again those piercing blue eyes.

[Flashback]

"A lot of people, and I mean a lot think they know me. You are one of them because you told me what you already thought of me."

"Eli I-"

"Hey its okay," I shrugged him off . Not really caring. "I don't want to turn our moods to sour, I mean we're in a great mood now aren't we? Well, I don't want to ruin it."

"So- let's play a simple game. It's pretty simple, I made it up just now so don't you dare judge it." I gave him pointed look be fire continuing. "It's basically a game that makes us get to know each other more,"

"Oh no." Damon pulled back and rolled his head, tiredly. "What's wrong?"

"No, no. I don't like that, we can do that by simply have questions that don't really have to be forced."

"How about 20 questions then?" I suggested. "That's literally the sane thing."

"No."

"Yes."

"No-"

"The only difference is that 20 questions, only has, 20 questions." He said slowly. I stared at him blankly with my arms folded. "Damon I'm serious."

"Well I'm being serious too." I didn't say anything and averted my gaze from him, to the wall. "Oh come on now,"

"Are you mad at me?" I didn't answer, my lips were absolutely sealed. I was acting childish, I know, but all I wanted to do was to get to know him. As genuinely as I could, that's all I wanted. "Eli,"

"Eli I'm sorry." He sighed. "I didn't think it'd get you like this. I just simply thought there would be another way I could get to know you better than what you suggested." When he saw I still wasn't saying anything, he sighed.

I had already forgiven him because his explanation made perfect sense but I was just being petty and childish.

"Stay here," I didn't spare him a glance as he moved away but once he was gone, I couldn't help the small smile that touched my lips. I wondered what he was planning to  do and I chuckled at how I was making him steps and tire himself out for no particular reason.

Once I heard the heavy footsteps coming closer,I knew he was coming so I turned my head and narrowed eyes at the wall before. I was one hundred percent sure I looked like a twelve year old,who didn't get her ice cream; with my arms crossed and my eyes narrowed.

"Eli I brought you this," For the first three seconds I didn't look but slowly but surely I turned my head and my eyes landed on the flower right before me.

It was a sunflower.

My lips curled into a smile once again. "Gosh you're so stupid," I said be fire rolling my eyes playfully. "Hug me."

***

It had been a long time since I had said that to him or anyone for that matter.

I stared at the single sunflower that was on the night stand and it was only then that I realized it was all brown and dead.  I smiled weakly and took it into my hands, placing it inside the bin and stared at base with more sunflowers.

I needed to go and see her.

It had been a full month and I just needed to see her.

"Would you go with me?"