Ch 6 "Tests"
Lorraine : Dad what's wrong?!
Josh : Nothing at all don't worry...
Lorraine : Then what...why are you talking like this??
Josh : It's just I-
Lorraine : Is there something wrong with your work?
Josh : No..
Lorraine : Then speak!
Josh : I am going to marry!
It took me 5 whole minutes to get what he said...and I was trying to convince my mind that what he said is true
Lorraine : What..
Josh : I know...it's weird for you and...you are still confused , but you have to know that I am not joking I am talking seriously and-
Lorraine : And what...why did you even tell me if you are proud of what you are saying proud of your choices then what?!
Josh : Lorraine I love her..truly!
Lorraine : Who is she?!
Josh : Sandra...
Lorraine : Sandra...Sandra Scott.....your secretary "chuckle"
Josh : Lorraine you know I worked..most of my life for you , I did my best and...when I get the chance to love you stop me...don't be selfish!
Lorraine : Selfish! what non-sense you are saying dad...weren't you the selfish one when pushed my mom away...weren't you selfish when you didn't give her the love and care AND RESPECT that she need..WEREN'T YOU SELFISH WHEN YOU TOOK ME AWAY FROM HER! and the work you are talking about , it must be one of your responsibility like all father's do!
I felt pain...hard pain in my heart! I felt at this moment that I am lost I have no one! literally no one the first time from long years I feel that I need my mother's hug...I need her so much...it was hard to control my tears and my breath..
Josh : Your mother didn't love nor care about me instead she loved HER job her WORK and you!
Lorraine : "broken smile" The work that she was doing...for us...for you to help you because she wanted to share with you good times and hard times as she promised at the wedding ceremony she did her promise , but you couldn't you thought love is by words? love is a strong meaning not a game and from what I see Sandra will give you love just by words not actions!
Josh : You just don't know her well...give her...give her a chance to accept each other , I am sure you will get along together!
"He won't give a shit about what I am saying , even if I denied he will throw my words away and I won't be surprised if he say I already married her a 46 grown man who was married and have a daughter and still think about love and marriage is it just dad...or men in general?"
Lorraine : "chuckle" Not in a million years
Josh : Lor-
Lorraine : Is this your last word?
Josh :...Yes!
Lorraine : Hmm....cool....but don't ever think that we are gonna get along with each other or even call her mom , I have one mother! and her name is Mary Miller got it dad!
He went so calm and silent...because he know he can't overload on me unless he wanna kill his bride , if this is his choice then let it be!
Lorraine : Close the door behind you!
Josh : "sigh" Alright...have a good sleep
Lorraine : When will you do the wedding?
Josh : After one week..
Lorraine : "chuckle" Is that so...tell her nice ring by the way...isn't she the one who brought you this ring?
Josh : ....Sleep well Lorraine...
He went out and closed the door behind him , I felt a burn in my chest hurting me so badly...and the sobbing roamed my room , no one is gonna feel the pain that I am going throw..but little...will understand
Lorraine : Ashton! should I text him or....no not now...
I got a call from Chloe I didn't wanna show her my face not even replying...because she will notice my voice but she is crazy and if I didn't reply she will come out of no where here so there is no escape
Chloe : Why does it take so long to reply to my calls idiot!
Lorraine : Sorry I was sleeping..
Chloe : Sleeping! your voice can tell...anyways , I called to ask you about Ashton
Lorraine : What's wrong with him?
Chloe : You exchanged numbers sooo
Lorraine : So?
Chloe : You talked , chit chat right?
Lorraine : Don't dream so far..
Chloe : I was just curios..and excited!!
Lorraine : You wanna take him to yourself "smile"
Chloe : NO! me and Emma were dreaming about this day!
Lorraine : Day what?
Chloe : The day you get your first date!
Lorraine : "sigh" Chloe my first date will be the last date and it will end officially not a game! plus Ashton is not my type
Chloe : Really? Then what's your type...Miss Picky!
Lorraine : A man loves me for real for my soul not just words...a man support me and help me and appreciate me...someone...someone cares about me
Chloe : Someone not like your dad Lorraine...am I right?
"Someone not like my dad...painful truth"
Chloe : I am sorry if I bothered you...Lorraine are you with me?
Lorraine : Yeah yeah I am with you!
Chloe : I know something is wrong with you! what's wrong speak up!
Lorraine : I am not in the mood to speak at all Chloe...
Chloe : I am getting worried...what.is.wrong!
Lorraine : "sob" Can we talk tomorrow please I can't speak right now..
Chloe : Lorraine calm down please wanna me to come over?
Lorraine : No..not today , but I am sure you will visit me a lot very soon "chuckle" maybe daily
Chloe : I don't understand you at all and I am getting nervous if this is a prank of yours then stop!
Lorraine : I wish I wish it's a prank Chloe...
Chloe : We will talk about that tomorrow you heard me...now you must calm down eat something and sleep got it!
Lorraine : Got it...thank you Chloe!
Chloe : Are you stupid we are sisters! three of us stop acting politely to me I am not used to it!
Lorraine : "chuckle" Okay idiot!
Chloe : That's my Lorraine don't stress yourself go wash your face!
Lorraine : Alright...don't tell Emma anything until tomorrow alright?
Chloe : "chuckle" If I told her she won't let you go until you speak , don't worry I won't speak..
Lorraine : Thank you Chloe!
Chloe : Here we go again get lost!
Lorraine : You too!
Life...doesn't work with your rules , but puts traps on your way , and human have to work with it till the end even if they don't want that , Tests a lot of tests....to see your patience
"As you said Lorraine no give ups , it's just a bad test...just a bad test!"