I'm a 17-year-old high schooler and artist, plus I write on my free time. This book is about growing and how I became who I am now. I talk about my struggles, love, and things that are important to me. This is a story about me. I hope you stop to think for a while and give me a chance to tell you things in my way. I hope this book changes the way you see your world and helps you to grow.

After you go through

The whole day I have been feeling mixed feelings. I am happy and excited at first then the other second I turn anxious for no reason. First I laugh and then I start crying. I wanna clean my room, but I end up laying in bed for hours doing nothing. Bipolar? Maybe. "Bipolar disorder, previously known as manic depression, is a mental disorder characterized by periods of depression and periods of abnormally elevated mood that last from days to weeks each"-Wikipedia 


I have these episodes. At one moment I'm so happy and ready to rule the world and then I break down. I can feel the anxiety slowly coming and then it takes over. My feelings consume me. I don't know how to get out of a panic attack or anxiety attack. I don't know how to stay happy. Honestly... I don't even know. 


(I am not medically diagnosed with bipolar disorder) 


Chapter 14. Am I messed up?