Chapter 8.8

Susan’s POV

Jones leaves the room to go and get me some human food to eat and when he leaves the room, I find myself enveloped deeply with the strong desire to return home.

With the little space I get, I find all sense of cautions leave me as I walk to the massive window.

I know it is not safe out there, I know it will be more sensible for me to stay indoors but I can’t seem to find the strength to shut out the strong part of my brain that is telling me to find every ways and means to get out this realm

Finally, I succumb to the desires and without thinking about anything, without thinking about my best-friend, I just jump out through the window, throwing myself to the abyss, the nothingness.

I am welcomed with complete silence and eerie voices surrounds me as I wait to reach the bottom.

However, my fall does not happen as I hear the flapping of wings and the next thing I know, I am wrapped in the arms of a man, a man who is undoubtedly my mate.

‘What the fuck were you trying to do?’ Jones says with a very grave voice.

His voice at the moment is nothing I have heard before.

His voice echoes when he speaks and his face, his face has turned completely different.

His body is the same but he now has a wide wing of different colors spread at his back and his eyes are now glowing, his eyes are shining like a ray of light from a torch.

And his body is covered in some complicated tattoos .

He looks so angry right now. In fact, he looks so scary, like he could just kill me now but I unexpectedly find him so hot right now.

Any human with common sense would be on their heels right now but me, I just stand still and watch his body as a tingle runs all over my body.

‘Wow, you look hot.’ I whisper as I stare more intently at him and take a step closer to him. It seems like I am been possessed right now, it seems like something in me wants to have a physical contact with him, something in me wants him to take me in his arms and I do not even know what it is.

‘Could you just focus?’ Jones shouts at me and I find myself descending from my dream-like state back to the real world.

‘What did you ask?’ I ask as I continue to stare at him, biting my bottom lip.

‘Why did you jump through the window?’ Jones repeats as his glowing yes dim a bit. I notice that his wings too has also retracted.

‘I wanted to escape duh?’ I say as I roll my eyes as if what I just tried to do is okay but somewhere deep in me, I feel guilty for my rushed actions.

‘So I trust you and leave you for a second and you decide to stab me at the back and run away? I should have never trusted you that fast.’ Jones says as he shakes his head, looking disappointed.

‘Hey, I know what I did was rushed and very bad but could you blame? I wake up in the morning and realize I am in a whole new world and all my friends and family no more remembers me, that my whole existence has been wiped from the human world and you think I can just act like I am completely normal, you think I can act like everything is perfectly fine?’ I say as my eyes begins to water. I hate that I am been vulnerable right now but all these bottled up emotions are just fighting to be let out.

‘I do not really care about what was going through your mind neither do I give a fuck about the emotions that were running the through you at that time but did you think you could escape by throwing yourself down?’ Jones screams loudly at me.

‘Of course I know you do not care Jones! I know you could care less if I die so why did you not leave me to just crush and break my bones?’ I scream through sobs. I have lost my home because this fucking demon and he does not even give a damn about anything.

‘Yes I care you stupid human! Fuck! You are my mate and if you die, it is me who is going to suffer more. Even though you do not have my mark yet, we are still connected by nature through the mate bond.’ Jones also shouts at me.

‘So you do not really care if I die, you are only concerned about the pains you will go through. Tell you what? I would mind if you go through massive pains because of me.’ I tell him all that in one breath which leaves me breathless when I am done.

‘Even if you do not care about me, what about your friend? You did not even think about her and decided to just move through the window.’Jones says and even though I do not want to admit that he is right, deep inside me I know he is speaking the undiluted truth.

‘Yes I thought of Marigold. I could have came for her once I managed to get out of here.’ I also tell him, trying to prove to him that I care about my friend, that I am not a bad friend.

‘Oh really? You thought you would return? Then I am sorry to bust your bubble, you would have never returned. You know why? Because you would have gone straight to hell.

You see all the souls and demons here have a make on them that exerts an energy to prevent them from sinking to hell but you, you are just an unmarked female who would have just went straight to the territory of Lucifer.’ Jones tells me and I feel a lone tear slip down my chin.

‘But.. but Lucifer would not hurt your mate and maybe, he would have even be kind to send me back to the human realm.’ I tell him with a shaky voice. I can’t believe I just threw myself to the gate of hell.

‘Oh yeah? You think Lucifer would have believed that you are my mate? You are a human and Lucifer would think you are just using some sort of magic to fool him and no one enters hell through its gates and return. You should have at least thought of the possibility of you dying before you decided to take that step, you friend would have lost you forever.’ Jones spits the words in my face and the raw truth in his words makes my insides cringe.

‘Could you just stop talking about the bad possibilities? I admit what I did was wrong and I am sorry okay?’ I tell him with a weak voice.

‘You are a selfish friend. Your best-friend stood up to me for you even when she did not know why you had gone unconscious, she fought for you for no reason and you decided to just go and leave her behind?’ Jones says and his words hit me with full force now. I just want him to stop throwing those hateful words at me but he just goes on and on.

The exhaustion of all the things that has been happening catches up with me and my eyes begins to close on their own and I give in to the ever welcomed darkness.

~Time Skip~

Susan’s POV

I groan as I open my eyes.

‘Hey, how long have I been out?’ I ask, expecting an answer from Jones but when I open my eyes, I see someone else and a smile breaks on my lips.

‘Hey, how are you feeling? And you have been out for quite some.’ Marigold says but I do not fail to notice that something is odd in her voice.

‘Oh, I thought Jones would be the one here. Where is he anyways?’ I ask as I sit down properly.

‘ He is with James right now.’ Marigold answers curtly. I do not know why she is acting this odd. Maybe, she is also nostalgic, maybe she also wants to go home too.

‘Hey, why are you acting this way? I know you must be feeling nostalgic but trust me, there is no going out of here and you know when you are with me, you do not have to feel lonely. We will surely pull through this once we stick together, we can solve this mystery once we got each other’s back.’ I tell her as I take her hands in mine.

‘Oh so you know that we should stick together? You are giving me all these bullshit quotes which you yourself could not even put to use.’ Marigold snaps and I stare like her surprised.

Why is she acting this way? She is supposed to know that we are all going through a whole lot and she does not have to act this way towards me like I am the one who caused all these.

‘Listen Mari, I know you are also struggling with the harsh reality of things right now but you do not have to be all bitchy about this you know, we are both going through shit and you do not get to treat me like I go you into this mess.’ I also retort back at her with the same voice.

‘Oh, you think I am being a bitch about the situation? Tell me how to behave after I hear that my best-friend tried to escape without me.’ She says to me with a sarcastic tone.

‘Are we really doing this now? I can’t believe Jones told you that.’ I say with a sigh.

‘I can’t believe you are this selfish Susan. You did not even think of me before you decided to throw yourself down. You really would have escaped without me if you had the chance to escape?’ She asks with a disappointed voice.

‘No, I would have not left you behind, you know how much I always want you at my side.’ I tell her, frantically trying my best to tell her that I would never do anything to hurt her.

‘Yet you did Susan, you tried to escape without me. When did you become this selfish?’ She says as she takes her hands from mine, shaking her head to show how disappointed she is with me.

‘No Mari, I would have actually come back for you if I had found a way out of this place.’ I tell her, pleading with her with my eyes.

‘Oh do not give me that crap of an excuse cause you would not. Tell you what, I am more than happy here with my mate and I think I am no more significant in your life like I thought I was so you know what, when you get a chance to go out of here, go ahead and be your selfish self and go without me.’ She says and the tone she uses threatens to tear me apart.

‘Are you seriously choosing a demon over me? I thought we were like sisters? How can you easily choose a demon over me Mari? Do not do that to me please.’ I tell her with tears in my eyes but her expression does not change, she just stares at with a blank look in her eyes, no emotions or whatsoever.

‘You started this. I have to choose someone who would not choose another person over me and James is not a demon.’ She says to me.

‘What do you mean by James is not a demon?’ I ask her confused.

‘After everything you have done, all what you really care to know right now is whether James is a demon or not?’ She says staring at me as if she does not even know me.

‘No Mari, do not get me wrong I just want to understand things. Hey, I accept what I did was selfish but you can’t really blame me for wanting to go back.’ I tell her as I stare intently in her eyes, baring my soul to her, baring my soul for her to look through and see how confused I am right now.

‘Oh so you still will not even genuinely accept that what you did was wrong? You know what, I think your demon mate is even better than you because as for him, he shows his real emotions but you, you are just an actress, a typical hypocrite.’ She says as she wipes a tear from her eyes.

Marigold rarely cries and when she does, it got to be because of something that really hurts her deep.

‘Oh okay if you want me to apologize then I will do, I am really sore for being so selfish. Please do not act like this, you are hurting me.’ I tell her as I feel a sharp pain run through me.

‘You feel how hurtful it is huh? Your mate did not tell you about how bonds tighten in this realm? Are bond as best-friends has become similar to the mate bond and if I feel that you are rejecting me, the bond becomes restless. Your apology is not even sincere’ Marigold says and this time, I feel like I am the worst person on earth. The fact that I did not know about the tightening of bonds does not even excuse what I did.

‘I did not know about the bond I swear. Please forgive me. I am sorry, I mean it.’ I say with tears in my eyes.

‘I do not feel the sincerity. The damage has already been done Susan.’ Marigold says disappointedly as she leaves through the door.

‘Mari, No!’

Author’s note;

Thank you for reading, stay safe.