Chapter 13.13

Abbadon's POV

Hey, I know you are upset and you need some time to yourself but I want you to know that everything I did, I did it as a helpless demon king who knew nothing else to do but that.

I want you to take all the time you want but please do not give up on me, give me a chance to correct this.' I tell Susan as I take a hold of her arm to stop her from walking past me, waving my hands between us to make my point more clear.

'Okay, I can't get rid of you if even if I want to do that, I mean, it is not like I want to get rid of you but you know, I mean I do not have anywhere to go and our souls are literally tied together by nature so..' Susan says as she pushes a strand of hair behind her ear.

'Hey, I understand. As I said, you can take all the time you want.

What I am asking you is that, do not think of giving up on me and about throwing yourself to hell, trust me, you would not want to pay Lucifer a visit.' I say as I let go of her arm.

Susan just smiles at me and goes ahead to follow James and Marigold, who are literally fucking each other with their eyes.

James puts his hand on Marigold's ass, squeezing it like some ball as they go ahead to their place.

Now, I am just wondering if Susan can really stand been with these newly marked mates.

When mates mark each other, the first month is all about satisfying their carnal desires.

I never thought James to be that naughty, it seems the little human has his own dirty sides.

I mean, mates can unravel and dig up our deepest desires, desires we probably even never noticed we had in us.

I hate to admit it it but I kind of wish to have that with my mate too. I think I need to give myself a chance, I think James is right, this is my second chance at a new beginning and I need to embrace it.

I can't continue to hold in all these feelings because it is hurting me myself. I will not continue to treat Susan for a mistake someone did, I think it is somehow unfair.

I can’t possibly understand how this little human can invoke in me all these feelings.

I never thought I would ever think of trying this mate thing after all that I have gone through and not to talk of trying it with a human.

One thing that baffles me is that, with this little mate, all the feelings are all so alien and deep, it is like nothing I have ever felt, not even with my first mate.

Nature really can never be understood. I never thought it would give me another chance, I never thought it would give me a mate after I made it clear that I did not want a demon mate, I never thought father would give the permission for something like this to happen, something that had never happened.

I do not have the best relationship with my father. It is not like I hate him or anything.

I would say we have nothing between us, no love, no hate, nothing, we just do what we have to do.

At first though, I used to blame my father for positioning me in this dark realm to look after some lost souls and stubborn demons, I harbored ill feelings towards him for creating me this way.

At first, I thought he did not like me because he created all he gifted all his sons with white wings which only turns black when the angel falls but in my state, he straight ahead gave me a wing with different colors, the dominant been black so I thought he hated me.

However, after spending time here and thinking about things more clearly, I think he created me uniquely.

Even though I have been turned into a demon, I have grown to come in terms with it. I mean, if he had not brought me here, maybe I would have been some stupid errand boy for him but here in the abyss, I make my own rules and I make my own decisions which is all I can ask for plus I am not banished from any of the realms.

While I wait for Susan to clear her head, I think I would just go to our room and have a little nap. I know it is funny how a demon like me would want to sleep but what else do I need to do? I do not necessarily need to sleep, demons do not really need to sleep but I find it as a great way to pass time.

Watching and keeping these demons and lost souls in place can be really energy draining. They seem to be in control now that their queen is in their realm.

When a demon king is having problems with his emotions, the subjects tends to be affected, they pick up on that to use it to their advantage, they tend to think their king is vulnerable and that, they can do whatever they want with absolute freedom and that is exactly what started to happen here.

The demons and the lost souls started to pick up on my emotions. I had tried to be as stable as I could be when I lost my mate but when I felt the pull of a different bond, the pull of the bond between Susan and me, I found myself starting to get more unstable because I was trying to resist the pool, I was trying to avoid bringing Susan to my realm.

I was desperately trying to protect me from getting attached to her but as much as I do not want to admit it to myself, I very much know that what I was protecting myself from is what is exactly happening.

Now, now, enough of the travel through memory. It is now sleep time.

Susan’s POV

‘Could you guys at least try to keep your hands to yourselves for just a second?’ I say frustratingly as I watch Marigold run her hands all over James’ chest.

They have been like this since we entered into their room or should I say, their apartment.

It seems this castle is made up of many apartments because that is exactly what Abbadon place is and Jame’ own too is kind of similar except that Abbadon’s own is very lavish and grand.

‘Oh right, so now would you want to explain to me why you decided to break our bond?’ Marigold asks and I just there at him with an unbelievable face. Is this girl for real?

‘Seriously, Marigold? I thought we are already over this?’ I question her, wanting to know what she wants me to do before she forgives me.

‘We are not over this. You hurt me Susan.’ She says with a dramatic sob.

Like seriously, Marigold can be a real pain in the ass.

‘So you are not going to forgive me?’ I ask her with a pout and I see her trying to control herself from laughing.

I know Marigold so well to know that she no more holds anything against me but she is just been her annoying self right now.

‘No, I am not going to forgive you your highness.’ She says and I just roll my eyes at her.

‘So, you are not going to forgive your queen? Are you not afraid that she may be will manipulate the king to banish you from their kingdom?’ I say, also slipping into acting mode to play her game.

I just realize I have really missed my best-friend, I have really missed this part of Marigold.

‘No I am pretty sure the queen will not do anything of that sort because she happen to be my best-friend, who happens to be a very stupid hasty decision maker who almost threw herself to hell.’ Marigold says and I just smile at her with watery eyes.

‘Hey, do not tell me that you are going to cry on me right now.’ Marigold says with a serious face and I just let out a light chuckle.

‘Mari, for once, I thought I would loose you too. You know, after realizing my mum, my brother and all my friends in the human world no more remembers me and that, my whole existence has been wiped out, I just wanted to prove everyone here that I can actually go back but I think that is the worst thing I have ever done. I admit what I did was wrong but when you refused to forgive me, I felt like I have indeed lost everything and everyone from the human world.’ I say as my emotions get the better half of me, a tear escaping my left eye but I immediately wipe it.

‘Hey, I am sorry that I made you feel like that. Even though what you did was really rushed, I have also been selfish. I should have just look at things from your angle. I am sorry, come on, come and give me a hug.’ Marigold says as a tear escapes her too. She opens her arms and I embrace her.

‘I miss you, Mari.’ I whisper and she just pats my back.

‘Hmmm I miss you too, queen.’ She says and I just chuckle at how she is choosing to call me with.

‘Would you just stop with the royalty thing?’ I say but she just laughs.

‘What? But you are a queen of this realm so what is so wrong about me calling you by your title.’ She says with a smirk and I just feel like I should just punch her to wipe the stupid thing off her face.

‘Like seriously? You know that between us, there is no formality.’ I say with an eye roll.

‘Yeah I know. It is just that it is just funny how fate works. You have always fantasized about been a royalty and now look, that is exactly what you are now.’ She says with a smile.

She is right, I have always fantasized about been a princess to a prince-charming and now look, it has indeed come true but fate thought it good to make me a demon queen. Nature indeed has a funny way of doing things.

A week ago, if someone had told me my life was going to get this complicated, I would have just laughed and walked away.

‘Hey you guys, this is really emotional but hey, you guys are acting like I am invisible.’ James says, making us all laugh.

‘Oh honey, forgive me, I totally got distracted. Come on, here.’ Marigold says as she pulls James in for a kiss.

There we go again. I roll my eyes as they continue to make out, seemingly forgetting that I am even in the room with them.

‘Hey, you guys, I am here, you know?’ I tell them helplessly as they finally stop.

‘Sorry Susan, But I just can’t stand it. James says it is normal among new marked mates though.’ Marigold says, smiling at me apologetically. However, I still see James touching Marigold’s ass. They just can’t keep their hands to themselves.

‘And how long will this go on?’ I ask them and Marigold stares at me with a confused expression. I wonder what is eating her up.

‘You see here, there is no night and day so it just happens and when it is time for it to stop, it stops.’ James says and I just nod in understanding.

‘That is kind of crazy you know? I mean, you will be all over each other till whenever?’ I ask.

‘Pretty much, yes.’ James answers amused by my reaction.

‘What?’ I ask Marigold when I find her staring at me like I have grown a thousand heads.

‘I am just confused that you are asking us all these questions and I am very, very much shocked that you have been able to stay away from your mate for this long.’ Marigold asks, going all detective on me.

‘Why would this confuse you? He did something I do not like and I have decided it is best to be away from him for sometime to clear my head.’ I say to Marigold, not understanding why she would be confused by this easy thing.

‘No, actually that is not what I am driving at. I mean to ask you that, have you not received your mate’s mark yet?’ Marigold asks.

‘No, I have not.’ I tell her with my head bowed.

‘And why is that? James says that mates are to receive their marks soon after they find each other so I am a little bit surprised.’ Marigold says.

‘Look Mari, the relationship between me and my mate is really complicated than you may see it to be. He refused to give me his mark completely but he rather chose to partial mark me which is the reason why I decided I need time from him. I came to realize that the partial mark can actually kill me.’ I tell Marigold as I frustratingly throw my hand in the air.

‘He refused to mark you and rather chose to do something he knows can kill you?’ Marigold asks angrily, already bolting to the door but I hold her back.

‘Mari look, he did not know alright? And he has actually told me he wants make corrections and try to make this work.’ I tell Marigold.

‘Abbadon did what?’ James literally shout and we both turn to look at him. He shifts on his leg, looking nervous. I think he is hiding something.

Both me and Marigold share a look and we both nod. We both know what we want to do and we go ahead to do it.

‘Tell us.’ Both me and Marigold say as we fold our arms on our chest, staring intimidatingly down at James.

‘Fine, I have got a secret to reveal.’ James finally relents but the look on his face tells me that whatever he is about to tell us is something really big.

Author’s note;

Thank you for reading, stay safe.