[Series 1 : Ch 1-7]

May 3
…… Nana, am I really bothering you? Take away your happiness? Sorry, Nana. I'll never tired say sorry to you.

I'll go away, it's going better for you? It's not fair, I know, suddenly sneaked into your life and messed things up. Before all I leave back, brother wants to give you a present. May I?


[Series 2 : CH 8-15 ]

All piled up. I am a gay. I won't deny, since I've been active in SSE (same sex experience) even though I don't want. Still I am more than just SSA (same sex attraction). I, after a dozen years of therapy, have not been as romantically attracted to women as I am to men.

And this is what makes me cry, I even still have feelings for Martin. Even though he has ruined my life, I can't deny that feeling is still there. Coupled with the sexual violence that I experienced, I suffered from fugue amnesia and post traumatic stress disorder. I was sick at the thought of sacrificing the future of a woman and maybe my children if I had to be with a man like me for the rest of his life.

"Don't force Tandrie to get married, Pa." Finally the word slid off. This is my first refusal as a father's son. I was able to fulfill papa's other wishes, but not for that. "Sorry Tandrie can't complete half of Tandrie's religion."


[Series 3 : Ch 16-last + 2 Extra]

Albert was in front of him, returned with all perfection. And as Reyna said, Tandrie's single is a big opportunity for back to old love. There are only two ways, go or marriage a woman. The first option is difficult for Tandrie, and leaves and breaks off his doctoral study which has just started. That's so irresponsible.

The second option, build new love with a woman. Let's just bold, italic and underline the word woman. This is more difficulty for Tandrie. Maybe even the biggest. Tandrie is still not straight, even though he believes he is not gay. However, a piece of his life as a gay bottom made him struggling to be straight.

So, what should I do?
#StraightPride

My Brother's Letters

I opened the navy blue invitation letter which the neighbor hooked at the boarding house door. I exhaled slowly, again there was always a feeling of pressure whenever I saw something called a 'wedding invitation letter'. 


Not many people know why this feeling of depression gets worse as me get older. Many carelessly accuse me of this and that. What is wrong with being 'single'? I didn't hurt anyone and let anyone down. 


I closed my eyes while enjoying this back getting the soft back of the chair. Of course there are those who are secretly disappointed by my 'single' status. In front of me as if there is not a single objection, behind? I know the answer for sure. 


"Hello? Waalaykumsalam" I answered the phone from one of the people who was disappointed with my status. 


"Bro, have you accepted the invitation?" 


8. Years and Years After