[Series 1 : Ch 1-7]

May 3
…… Nana, am I really bothering you? Take away your happiness? Sorry, Nana. I'll never tired say sorry to you.

I'll go away, it's going better for you? It's not fair, I know, suddenly sneaked into your life and messed things up. Before all I leave back, brother wants to give you a present. May I?


[Series 2 : CH 8-15 ]

All piled up. I am a gay. I won't deny, since I've been active in SSE (same sex experience) even though I don't want. Still I am more than just SSA (same sex attraction). I, after a dozen years of therapy, have not been as romantically attracted to women as I am to men.

And this is what makes me cry, I even still have feelings for Martin. Even though he has ruined my life, I can't deny that feeling is still there. Coupled with the sexual violence that I experienced, I suffered from fugue amnesia and post traumatic stress disorder. I was sick at the thought of sacrificing the future of a woman and maybe my children if I had to be with a man like me for the rest of his life.

"Don't force Tandrie to get married, Pa." Finally the word slid off. This is my first refusal as a father's son. I was able to fulfill papa's other wishes, but not for that. "Sorry Tandrie can't complete half of Tandrie's religion."


[Series 3 : Ch 16-last + 2 Extra]

Albert was in front of him, returned with all perfection. And as Reyna said, Tandrie's single is a big opportunity for back to old love. There are only two ways, go or marriage a woman. The first option is difficult for Tandrie, and leaves and breaks off his doctoral study which has just started. That's so irresponsible.

The second option, build new love with a woman. Let's just bold, italic and underline the word woman. This is more difficulty for Tandrie. Maybe even the biggest. Tandrie is still not straight, even though he believes he is not gay. However, a piece of his life as a gay bottom made him struggling to be straight.

So, what should I do?
#StraightPride

My Brother's Letters

Undergoing doctoral study is not easy, Tandrie understands that. However, he did not think that his absence for only 3 years was enough to make it difficult for him to readjust the rhythm of college. 


Impossible that Tandrie is not touched by Anin's attitude. Especially from the side of acceptance that his past could be easily overcome. Tandrie is curious about Anin's past. Tandrie is sure that Anin's current is very likely the result of being hit by difficult conditions. 


If it weren't for his responsibility as a student, he would be reluctant to meet Albert outside of class. Tandrie was very careful not to have personal assistance or any academic activities requiring him and Albert to be alone. 


21. No Chance?