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For the next week I was busy with Zi ji to suppress his dark element only to find myself with a great challenge.

At first I thought it would be easy, however it was only on the third day that I realized how difficult it was to completely suppress the darkness from her.

It wasn't until a week passed that I was able to understand that his darkness was stronger due to the second element of Zi ji.

Those strange black spots with a purple core were not only attached to his body, but largely merged with his darkness.

Every time my element of light tried to suppress its darkness, these specks destroyed everything.

Although Zi hee didn't say anything when she realized the situation, I could see her anxiety increasing every day, so I also tried my best.

In the end I spend a full month during which I did my best to suppress the dark element from her only to have a complete failure.

It was then that Zi ji couldn't control herself and shed tears as she cursed herself for being born with her dark attribute and not being able to control it.

When I heard her tantrum, I noticed something that almost made me slap her dragon butt.

It turns out that Zi ji's airhead had never tried to control the darkness of her because she was born with it.

Zi ji could manipulate the darkness in a simple but fatal way that even a newborn would have better control than her.

When I told her what happened, she returned to happiness and hope.

So during the second month I invented an elemental manipulation art and handed it to Zi ji so that she could learn to manipulate her element - hers element.

In the third month, the haze that had been 300 meters was reduced to 200 meters, which made Zi ji feel euphoric and happy.

I'm not going to lie, I was happy for her too.

It was inevitable that we would get a little closer in these three months, but every time she remembered the past she tried to bury these new feelings.

By the fourth month she was able to control all the haze completely by clearing the entire forest. But even her body would emit darkness.

But that was almost nil, the more control Zi hee had of her element.

the broadcast of it would stop sooner or later.

And so it was in the fifth month that her body stopped emitting a dark mist.

That day Zi ji was flying through the air with extreme happiness in her and I couldn't help but laugh at her behavior.

We celebrate that day with a banquet that I personally cook.

(As if a dragon could cook)

Although I always helped her, I never lagged behind when I increased my age to 60,000 and my strength stagnated at 100,000.

I was able to understand that I have to enter 100,000 years first if I want my strength to continue to grow.

Zi ji told me that she, who is 80,000 years old, also couldn't exceed 100,000 in battle strength for some strange reason.

All the extra strength she had had only nurtured my body making it more and more resilient.

It was then in the sixth month that I tried to leave because I had already finished helping Zi ji.

Only to notice the sadness on her face.

It was understandable.

She lived her entire life isolated from all beasts, and I was the first sentient being who could speak to her unaffected by her darkness.

I was also the one who helped her control her problem.

In the end, putting all of this together and the six months we spent together, it was inevitable that the two of us would forge a certain bond.

The problem is that I could not accept it because of my past, even when I repeat myself that it is not her fault and that I need to move on.

Something inside me is afraid of being betrayed again.

However, when I saw Zi ji's face, I couldn't forgive myself for hurting her, not when I'm the living example of how much it hurts to be hurt by the people you love.

So I decided to stay with her indefinitely making her happy.

Since that day I started living close to Zi ji when I was not cultivating and training, I spent time with her.

Usually she would tell me her story of how she was born and there was no one around her.

How she had to live alone without knowing her parents.

She apparently lived in another forest and in which she lived for a time before moving to the northern part of the continent where it was an area inhabited by beasts due to the difficult climate where everything was ice and snow.

It wasn't until 50,000 years old that she began to have problems with her element.

That is why she had a fight with a beast that wanted to claim her territory and hers left her seriously injured.

Thanks to that, her darkness began to spiral out of control to a greater extent.

When she was 80,000 years old, her darkness would sometimes disappear for random days.

It was when she came to the forest one day that her darkness faded only to reappear the next day.

That was the reason why she never moved inside the forest.

When her darkness was active she always stood still without moving so as not to destroy everything in her path.

It was until she met me and was able to talk to someone who didn't care that she made her happy.

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5 years passed quickly in what was with Zi ji.

Where my age increased to 80,000 years only being behind Zi ji of 90,000 years.

I will not deny that these 5 years were too calm and happy being with Zi ji.

Although my soul cultivation did not advance, I always kept meditating to help calm myself.

Thanks to that I was able to calm my mind and be able to overcome my past, I was able to remember all those good moments that I lived and that made me realize that betrayal can be an everyday thing in the world.

The more we become attached to bad memories, the more we will feed them, leaving us unable to move on.

We will live judge others for things they have not done simply because of our hatred for the people who hurt us in the past.

Above all, we will not be able to be happy with ourselves, and look at those who made us happy because of the fear and anxiety that we generate when we think about our sad and bad memories.

Overcoming the past is not forgetting, it is using it to strengthen ourselves and have a way of thinking and seeing things in a much more mature way when living our day to day.

It was the conclusion I reached in my fourth year.

After that, my relationship with Zi ji grew closer because I no longer tried to bury her in my heart.

Life is about living the good and the bad.

Life was never fair.

Life can only be called life by experiencing the good and the bad it has to offer.

Life is made up of challenges and if you want to be happy you have to overcome the challenges that come your way.

Thanks to that, now I can understand that giving too much is bad but giving too little is also bad.

The silhouette of my soul is painted almost entirely in white, leaving only part of the heart intact.

I can say that I have overcome my past but that I will not pursue a blind future.

Although I understood many things from these experiences, I am still inept when it comes to understanding life.

So if Zi ji betrays me, I can only say that I have yet to experience life to be able to judge people.

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I opened my eyes only to notice the sleeping head of a dragon beside me.

'Despite being inept in life, I don't think you're safe from being inept either' I thought as I stroked the dragon's snout.

I stopped my hand when I came out of the huge cave we were in and headed towards the lake on the side of the cave.

Unleash my robe exposing my body.

I walked to the lake when I entered and sat with my back to the shore.

'From the assimilation of the knowledge of runes and formations that I obtained from the book, I am sure that I can make a much stronger energy harvesting formation than the ones in my previous world,' I thought as I closed my eyes.

'The problem is the materials, which I think I can replace the Qi stones with the crystals from the cave where I woke up, as I could feel that they had stored energy. '

"The second is to adapt the gathering formation to harvest spiritual energy."

As for the carving brush, I can make one using the bodies of the spirit beasts and asking Zi ji for one of her scales.

'With the energy harvesting formation, I won't have to worry about running out of energy to cultivate, I can even try to create a filter and purity formation to purify the energy and make it several times purer than the ambient energy.'

"I also need to head towards human territory to get clothes for Zi ji and myself, my robe is already too old and Zi ji soon she will be in 100,000 years and will be able to adopt a human figure."

"Besides that, it would also be beneficial for me to gather some human souls to see how human development goes."

*sigh*

'Hmm, let's go back to the cave. "Zi ji has already woken up," I thought when I felt Zi ji's breathing get stronger.

Due to my age of 80,000 years, my domain of 360 degree vision increased to 1000 m.

I got out of the lake and put on my robe after drying off with the lightweight element.

When I entered the cave I met the sleepy eyes of Zi ji who was looking at me.

"Good morning, Caim," Zi ji told me when she saw me enter the cave while she was still lying inside the cave.

I only smiled when I flew up to her to sit on her head.

We both left the cave while looking for food for breakfast.

While we had breakfast, I explained to Zi ji that we would have to go to the outer part of the forest to look for something that would bring us benefits in the future.

To which she only accepted without asking for details.