Chapter 13

First class ;biology. There is not much going on today the chaos has died down. I'm minding my own business and so is everyone else. I do not even want to look in Robin's direction. I do not know when and how he'll expose me. He must be enjoying this. Having power over me in this way.

I'm truly wondering what he is cooking up. Believe it or not Robin and I were once friends. We did almost everything together. We studied together, went to the gym together.

I'm starting to think that friendship is not really my forte. I've been through only toxic ones and I have had enough. Well that and the fact that I mess the platonic ones with the guys and its really not cute.

I sometimes look at him and think : "I miss you". Sometimes I feel 'high' enough to want to tell him this. Weird alert : I'd sometimes dream of hugging him. I had gotten really attached to him and it was at some point hard to try to even imagine us being enemies.

He used to joke about marrying me in freshman year. I moved from loving the jokes (but telling him that I hated them) to actually hating them or rather the memories that come with those words. Before it gets weird I was not planning a wedding in ninth grade.

"You seem like you have a lot on your mind." Kylie wrote in her diary.

I smiled at her. "I do" I mouthed. She seems to have a little more life in her eyes. I love it when she's happy. I hope she has more of this vibe with her until we graduate. I think she deserves some happiness in her life after what happened. Some people are truly strong.

I also happen to notice that she has her brown shoulder length curls in a bun and that she's wearing hoops. She usually calls them "the weapons of war". Her tools to "confuse the enemy". I'm sure I'm not an enemy if hers but you'd swear that the Nick thing was just bad dream.

Maybe if I try hard enough the whole Nick and Robin thing will end up being just a dream.

"Well that's the bell, until we meet again tomorrow. We have a quiz tomorrow." Miss Meyers said.

"Ashley, Robin, Richard and Kylie I need you to stay."

I looked at Kylie and my heart felt as though it fell to the ground. Does she possibly know of everything that has been going down between the four of us? I'm really worried that it's not a big deal. Once the teachers get involved then the parents also get involved. "It's a petty situation" you might think but the Ridgewood high teachers take senior and junior year pretty seriously. They have this policy of makings sure that every student graduates high school with college admission grades - if that makes sense.

Or maybe she's just curious about our absenteeism. But what do Nick and Robin have to do with it.

"Officer Ashley, did you report us to the school now?" Robin said and Richard laughed.

Richard never really had much to say but he sure as hell could do damage to your health and everything else that you might possibly cherish.

I must say though. He is cu... Nope no more of this I promised myself to stay away from boys I can't take this anymore. I do not want to feel as tough the only type of ambition I have in my life is trying to get a guy to like me. But just for interest's sake ; Robin is 5'10" has blue eyes is blond - he could possibly pass as the less attractive version of Chris Hemsworth, he still was a looker though.

And of course Richard. He had this e-boy type of look at times. Has brown curly hair, 5'11" and has a billion dollar smile. Sometimes when he laughed at me I'd tell myself that maybe he's trying to laugh with me and not at me? It sounds pathetic but he is good looking.

I knew everyday of my that even though I am good looking I still didn't have a chance with him. I guess that's how Nick got into the 'picture'. He seemed like a better shot than Richard.

Nick still had some appealing qualities like broad shoulders, being 5'7" and having a Tom Holland type of vibe that went on. Well at least the way, way less cooler version of it.

p.s I'm obsessed with spider man.