Chapter 10:

My mind remained blank. I don't know what to do or should think in the situation I have right now. It's hard to believe what I found out, but what can I do, if that's true. I can't help but ask destiny why is this? Why is this happening? Why does it even have to get to the point that even Lhea will be affected?

I will not accept in case something goes wrong with my twin. I can't live alone. She is the only family left to me, even though Tito, Tita and Zac are there. Lhea gives me happiness. She has always been by my side from then until now.

Why is it like this? Can we just live peacefully? Far away from this shits? Can't the war end yet?

In my whole life I didn't dream of war. All I want is a peaceful life. I didn't wish anything else but a peaceful life together with my family-which is the only reason why I lived. I didn't mean what's happening right now. Who one wants a trouble anyway? There's no one. All of us wishing and dreaming a grateful life. A peaceful day, place, life and time wherein full of love. That's the only one thing I've been wishing for.

But I think this is just a trials. A trials, that can lead us how strong we are and how we end up not to surrender. Beautiful in life of a persons, we eventually experienced those trials and problems. It's part of our life that we experiencing those. And all we need to do is to solve those problems.

I admit that I'm scared. I'm scared of those important things of mine that might be vanished. I'm afraid that I might lose them. I'm not afraid for myself, I'm afraid to lose someone's important persons in my life.

Some of my memories vanished. And it's irritated to not to know some important memories happened in my past. I want to hit my head many times at the wall so that I can remember my past. But sadly I didn't, no matter how tried I did.

I want to know who really I am. The old me, the Dark Queen they've known. It's really hard to define who really I am. It feels like I'm just nothing. I'm weak, petite, and scared. I don't know how I become an strong, fearless, and confident one. In short, I don't know what's truly me. It's funny to say that I don't myself.

I shook my head to him, not sure if it's true or not.

"How can you be so sure?" I asked.

I saw he grins.

"Over my dead body. I'm deadly sure." Every words come out to his mouth has an emphasized.

"Okay. Let's not talk about it. I wil visit our camp once I'll assure that everything' will be happen according to our plan." I period.

After hearing those words he vanished in my sight. I shook my head ones again. I gasp my breath and breath in and out again and again. Ghad! How could this be happening?

My mind's floating in the wind. Even in my class I can't focus. What happened hours ago kept rewinding in my head.

"Hey! Are you alright? You look pale Loren." I blinked twice when I heard Lhea's voice.

I shook my head desperately. I don't want her to be worried.

"No I'm fine. It's just too cold that's why I look pale." I lied.

"Huh? Are you crazy? It's already 1:33 pm in the afternoon so how could the wind is too cold?" She raised her one brow.

"Err...We have different opinions though, so stop asking, will you?" I can't help but to rolled my eyes to her.

"Are you hiding something?" She accused.

"I'm not. Your so noise can you shut your mouth just for a while?" I irritated.

"But—"

"Stop butting." I cut her.

She heavily sighed and decided to shut her mouth. I want to apologize but I'm not in the mood right now. My mind can't still process clearly. I badly want to hit my head. This is driving me crazy.

I tried to listen to our professor even though I actually cannot understand her. She speaks a lot. And all she discussed enter my one ear then get out to my one ear.

~*~*~*~

I calmly brag down my body to my bed. I'm still wearing my uniform and I'm drowsy. I badly want to sleep.

I look at the kisame. Like I always do when I need to think solemnly.

I'm thinking three possibilities happen in our next move.

First: We might made chaos.

Second: We might hurt innocent people.

Third: We might all die.

I sighed deeply then slowly close my eyes. This is so tiring day.

I woke up early and do some exercise routines outside of our house. I do jags, squats, and stretch's. I also helped Tita cooked our breakfast. And I regret it, because Lhea kept bullying me why I helped prepared our breakfast for the first time ever. She kept singing the damn song of 'Frozen' which is 'For the first time in forever.' Tita just laughed like a teenager. Then after eating our breakfast me and Lhea decided to go to mall to buy some stuff. It's weekend right now so it's fine.

"Do you want this one?" She asked me while smiling.

I shook my head. Duh! How could I like Mickey mouse head bands?

"I think we should buy some clothes." She suggested.

I furrowed.

"I had enough clothes Lhea." I put my hands on my waist.

"Yeah I know. But it's old, we need to buy some new." She said, busy finding some girly clothes.

"Do we have enough money to buy some?" I asked while following her.

She faced me.

"Of course!! No need to worry sistah!" She playfully said.

She handed me some dress and mini skirts. I shook my head to decline those. It's too girly. It's too short to me and I don't want to see them my legs.

She shopped like a spoiled brat girl. She don't even bother to look at the prices of it.

I looked around the mall when I notice something. I can't find Lhea. Where the hell she is? She was with me roaming around this mall but she's suddenly gone.

Ghad!! Not now!

"LHEA!!" I shout her name loudly as I can.

Damn it!!