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Taehyung

It didn't take us long to find Jihoon after receiving his location.

It went down more smoothly than I thought. A small fight, a few guns drawn. Some bullets flew around us, killing most of the unknowns and then I was dragging Jihoon by the hair on the stage of the club.

And now he was tied to a chair, we've taken over the rat's club.

Another take over.

Perfect.

He had been interrogated for hours but I still hadn't gotten the answers I needed. He didn't know where Byungchan was, I thought he was lying, but the truth was written all over his face, he didn't know.

His fear betrayed his tough armour.

He was scared.

Byungchan was a smart man, how long would he stay hidden?

I sat in front of Jihoon as he coughed again, spitting a broken tooth. Blood dribbled and slid down his chin. He breathed heavily, his chest heaving almost painfully. Each intake of air appeared difficult for him, he let out a small laugh, my eyebrows shot up in surprise. His laughter sounded funny, almost

forced.

Leaning forward, I waited for him to talk.

"Why don't you ask Seokjin?" he wheezed.

My spine straightened, and my muscles tightened over his words. "You are so sure... of yourself, your most... trusted man... is a traitor. Ask... him..."

His head dropped as if speaking those few words had tired him out.

Yoongi, who was standing behind him, wrapped his fingers around his throat and squeezed. Jihoon struggled to breathe, his face growing red and purple. I even saw the blood vessels break across his skin.

When his eyes started to lose focus, I raised my hand, and Yoongi immediately let go.

A laugh suddenly bubbled out of my chest, a low chuckle, but it sounded deadly and cold. I gave Jihoon time to struggle through his breathing before speaking, "He is not the traitor," I replied calmly, sitting back in my chair.

Jihoon's head snapped up as he coughed repeatedly. His eyes flared with surprise. "He... is... He is... spying... on... you... for Byungchan."

"Wrong," I muttered back. "He isn't. Too bad for Byungchan he thinks that."

"Wh... at?" Jihoon sputtered, confusion written all over his bloody face.

Instead of answering, I stood up.

Frustration built up inside of me as I walked out of the room.

If Byungchan's men thought Seokjin was the traitor, then they didn't know who the real traitor was.

Another smart move from Byungchan.

Someone from my estate was working for Byungchan and nobody else knew that except the fvcker.

"Fvck!" I bellowed, punching the wall.

I heard my knuckles crack, the pain didn't faze me.

It only pissed me off more.

"What do you want to do?" Seokjin asked quietly, appearing from the door.

He was always calm, always ready for the next step.

"Don't kill him. Not yet."

Jihoon was Byungchan's second in command, he was going to need him. After all, his crumbling empire was currently at the hands of Jihoon. His boss would need to contact Jihoon one day soon and when he did, we would be ready.

I closed my eyes and leaned my forehead against the wall.

Jungkook's face flashed behind my closed lids.

The same sweet smile.

The sound of his laughter.

Only this time, I heard him whisper.

Three forbidden words.

I love you.

The words were never uttered between us but it was there.

For the first time, I wished he said it.

I wished I had those words to hold on to while my Angel was gone.

***

Jungkook

What's my name?

I tried to remember.

I tried to whisper my name, my lips wouldn't move.

What's my name?

I asked myself that question a few times, trying hard to remember.

Everything was a blur.

Nothing made sense.

I couldn't remember my name... my life... or anything.

I was just numb.

I feel I have lost something valuable.

I didn't know where I was.

It was always dark.

The cold seeped into my skin until I would shiver uncontrollably.

My name.

I had to remember my name.

Ju...

J... it started with a J.

Jun...

Ju...

J...

Closing my eyes, I laid down on the cold ground and pulled my knees to my chest. My memories were all broken, shattered around the place.

Jung...

Jungoo...

Jungkook.

It sounded correct.

Familiar.

It sounded like me.

Jungkook.

My name is Jungkook.

I hung onto this new revelation.

Jungkook.

My name was Jungkook, I had to remember.

I couldn't forget again.

It was a routine.

I would remember but then forget it again.

My name is Jungkook.

As I repeated the phrase in my head, I heard a whisper.

It was all in my head, the whisper continued.

It was one word.

Two Syllables.

It wasn't my name.

But it sounded so right.

Like I needed to know it.

Every time I tried to remember my name, the word Angel was always a whisper in my head.

Jungkook.

Angel.

Jungkook.

Angel.

I didn't make sense, I repeated it over and over again in my head.

Who was I?

I didn't know.

Where did I come from?

I didn't know.

I was living in a blur.

In a pitch-dark world.

I was nothing.

I felt like nothing.

I was just an empty vessel.

How long has it been since I was locked in this dungeon?

The days and nights blended into each other until I lost count. Days, weeks, months?

I wished I knew, the devil made sure I was left in the darkness.

He had stripped me of everything, even my memories.

Curled against the wall, the shackles around my ankles and wrists, I rocked back and forth.

My eyes closed as I slowly fell into oblivion, another dark abyss where there was no escape.

I woke up to the sound of the door opening, it banged shut, and I opened my eyes to see the devil approaching me. I waited for his command, my body and mind ready to do his bidding. He held a bowl in his hand, and the smell of food filled my nostrils, my stomach tightened as hunger suddenly assaulted me. He didn't feed me regularly.

Sometimes, I would go days without food, until my stomach would cramp painfully that I found it hard to breathe. He would leave me on the cold ground until I trembled so hard that it felt like my insides were shaking. The bowl was placed on the ground between us. He kicked it away a few feet.

"Eat."

He kept his eyes on me when the single word command was given. The tone of his voice held a hint of rage, it also held no space for questions. I sat up and stared at the bowl a few feet away from me.

Without wasting another second, I got to my knees obediently, that was what he wanted and I gave it to him.

Only because I needed the food he was offering me.

I felt the cold hard floor under my knees and palms as I crawled toward the bowl.

My dignity was long shredded to pieces.

My soul was crushed, my heart had fractured.

I had nothing left.

I was the definition of an empty shell.

The devil made sure of that.

When I bent down to eat, he kicked it a few feet away again. I crawled to it then he kicked the bowl again. This process was repeated once again until I had used all the length of my shackles, I was straining against them to reach the bowl. Still, on my knees, I bent down and licked the soup.

Trying to get as much into my frail body as possible. My stomach rolled as the warm liquid filled my mouth, it was tasteless, but I still ate. It was the only thing I could do.

My body shook every time I swallowed and when I heard the devil unzipping his pants, my mind went blank, and I waited for what was to come. I continued to eat as I felt him behind me. I still ate as he bent over me, moulding his body on top of mine. If I stopped eating, he would hurt me more.

I felt his heavy length at my entrance and I closed my eyes.

He pushed inside, only penetrating slightly.

It was all a game for him.

I continued eating, taking as much liquid as I could into my body.

He pushed into me slowly until he was buried deep inside.

I pressed my hands harder into the floor, trying to keep myself upright. His fingers dug into my hips and I almost winced in pain. My shackles rattled as he started to thrust inside of me, going deeper and faster each time.

An almost feral growl erupted from his lips as he bent my body to his will. He shoved inside me forcefully and painfully. It felt like my body was splitting in half as he took me again and again.

I stared at the soup, my eyes blurred, my mind numb, my body empty. My stomach rolled painfully, my throat went tight as I tasted bile on my tongue. My mouth was filled with a bitter taste, and I dry heaved into my soup.

As he finished inside of me, I couldn't help myself. I retched, my body heaving as I threw up. The vomit trailed down my chin and neck. The dungeon already smelt bad, the vomit only added to the horrendous smell. It was enough to make me throw up again.

The devil laughed.

His laughter echoed into my ears.

My body hurt.

Everything hurt.

As he pulled out of me, I fell to the ground next to my bowl. I laid my cheek on the ground, right where the vomit was. I tried to breathe but it was too hard. I felt crippled with pain.

The devil laughed as he left the room.

Even when he wasn't there anymore, I still heard his laughter.

My ears rang with it.

I would never forget his laughter.

I didn't know how long I stayed in that position.

When my eyes started to droop, I got to my knees and crawled back to my spot next to the wall. I laid down and curled into myself, closing my eyes.

I tried to go somewhere in my mind, a place where I could escape this nightmare. I couldn't remember anything.

No, that was a lie.

I remembered something.

Even when I would forget my name, even when I had forgotten everything, there was something I didn't forget.

Blue eyes.

A face with those blue eyes would always flash behind my closed eyes. Although the face was blurred, I always saw the eyes. It was the only constant thing in this nightmare. Sometimes, I would see a hint of a smile on the face.

A lot of times, I tried to concentrate harder and occasionally I could almost see the man behind the blue eyes. When everything else was broken memories, the man with blue eyes was my saviour.

I called him my saviour because he kept me from completely losing myself. I didn't know who he was and while I had forgotten everything else something was stopping me from forgetting him. And those blue eyes, my mind wouldn't let me forget him.

Whoever he was, wherever he was, he probably didn't know it but he was my saviour.

It was strange that while I didn't know anything, he was there.

Always in my thoughts.

Who was he to me?

I wondered.

With my eyes closed, I heard a voice calling out to me.

The man with blue eyes was calling out to me.

I was surprised when I heard him say, Angel.

He was calling me Angel.

Was that my name?

Angel?

No, my name was Jungkook.

Confused, my head started to ache, still I forced myself to remember.

The piano.

White flowers.

The forest.

A river.

They were all just blurred images in my head as they flashed in my mind before I had a chance to understand them.

Taehyung.

The name was a whisper in my mind.

I heard laughter.

And the name Taehyung.

Taehyung.

I felt it in my heart.

Sweet kisses.

Gentle caresses.

Loving eyes.

My memories were all broken puzzles that didn't make sense.

In every single piece of memory, he was there.

Taehyung.

Was that his name?

It felt... right.

It felt like... him.

My saviour finally had a name.

Taehyung.

With my eyes still closed, I slowly sank into another pit of darkness.

Sleep took over my body as I slowly succumbed to my tiredness and pain.

And like every time I fell asleep, the man with blue eyes met me in my dreams.

Taehyung.

With his name a mere whisper in my mind, I fell asleep against the cold hard floor with the shackles around my reddened wrists and ankles.