Tick Tock

AVERY~~~

*triggering content up ahead* ( self harm)

~ 'Cause every time I'm with you somehow I forget to breathe

You got me like a rag doll,

Now I'm dancing on your string

And I keep trying to figure out who you are to me

But maybe all that we are meant to be

Is beautifully unfinished, we're beautifully unfinished~

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I come out the recording studio bored, of singing this, song.

" Come on Daniel, just oneee break." i ask pleadingly. giving him my best puppy dog eyes.

" Avery, you know we cant do that, this song was supposed to be out by this week, but you kept on insisting, that it was fine and you had it under control, wich of course you didn't, so don't try to give me those beautifully evil puppy dog eyes!!" my manager Daniel says quickly as he gives me a death glare, stating that i wasn't going to get what i wanted this time.

i let out a little puppy dog whimper, and then i sigh.

" well can i at least can i have some water." i ask unenthusiasticly.

But Daniel's on the phone with someone right now, and i know better than to disturb him when hes on the phone.

i go and sit down on the red chair in the studio and pull out my phone to take a pic for the insta.

#boredashell

i know that might seem a bit superficial , but as a singer we have to keep oursevles in the loop, with the loop being peoples minds, if they don't see you reguraly they will forget you, although i'm kind of hard to forget with all the drama i've caused in the music industry.

you see i used to be apart of this girl group called Hybrids, and we had had got pretty famous, but the girls on the group were very... well they were just not good people. they didn't care about the fans, or even about each other, they each wanted to be on top, but that's not how it works in a girl group. key word group.

and then somehow i had got a modeling gig, because i was "pretty tall" for a fairy. and i had very unique features that would be perfect for there line. and of course i said yes, i mean who turns down a modeling gig. but when i came back from it, the girls had all started to put all of there hatred towards each other to me.

they began to whisper to each other rude things like , "shes the reason that i'm not at the top" she ruined the group" " shes not even that pretty". and they made sure to say it when i was around, this took a toll on me seeing as though i was only 14, i didn't know how to handle all of this hate.

*triggering content begining now*

and so i began to cut and starve myself, seeing as though they thought i wasn't pretty, and that i made the group this way. i was punishing myself for things that they had said, and so every time i heard a whisper, or a snicker. i went to my room locked the door, and began to do these horrible things to my self, and one day Daniel, had saw me doing this, (at the time he was the whole groups manager) and he asked me why, he wasn't mean about it, and just wanted the truth, so i told him.

and long story short i guess i kind of am the reason the group split apart since after i told Daniel he talked to the girls about it and they just laughed it off like it was no big deal, Daniel didn't like that so he quit being there manager, stormed back into my room and said,

" i'm gonna make you greater than them, greater than anybody." he then grabbed my arm and led me out of the building.

the girls really depended on him, so they all kind of just lost it after he left, and 2 years after that the Hybrids were no more.

* the end of the triggering content*

i try not to think about it since it'll only bring up bad feelings, but it still hurts when i think about how i let those girls words get to me so bad to where i was hurting myself.

" yep, mmhmm, ok yeah i got it." Daniel said into the phone. the person on the other end ended the call, and then Daniel let out a big sigh.

" u ok?" i asked genuienly worried.

" uhh, well, i've got some..news." he said looking down at the ground.

i was getting a bit worried since Daniel isin't one to bear his neck to anyone, even if he is a dwarf, /Size does not matter, for its the heart that always counts/ is one of his quotes that he says all the time.

" so the record label is getting a bit anxious since you haven't put out a new song yet, and they decided to have you do a duet." he said a bit nervously

" oh that's it, well that's ok." i say not understanding why hes so antsy about it.

" heh, well um they want you to do it with,... Zach .."

and for a moment i just kind of space out.

" i'm sorry, c-could you repeat that.?" i say a bit drowsily.

" you're, going to be doing a duet with Zach...your ex." he said a bit louder this time.

Zach.. they want me to do a duet with Zach.. haha, how about no.

abruplty i get up out of my chair and head into the recording area. Daniel looks at me confused but i just , keep going util i'm in front of the mich and then i put the head phones on.

Daniel goes to turn on the mich, and i begin to sing.

~~'Sunday, rain drops, clock goes tick tock...