Prologue

Rage.

Guilt.

Emptiness.

Anger.

Fear.

Despair.

Lisa Gordon felt all these, she couldn't believe what she has just done. More tears stream down her face.

She just killed the love of her life, the person who she vow 'till death do us apart' and now she the reason for the death. It is all her fault she thought. She wish should wake up and discover this is one of her many nightmares she is being having recently and her James would cuddle her back to sleep and tell her he is right here and he is going nowhere.

But this nightmare is very much real and is different, in her nightmares she wasn't the one that pulled the trigger, some else did and James can't tell her he is right here, he can't hold her tight and promise he will never leave.

This nightmare started roughly half an hour ago. Everything was fine, after eating dinner, James went to tuck their son, Alex to sleep while she does the dishes and there was a knock at the door, a loud one, and her husband paid for the mistake she made few weeks earlier.

She don't think she can handle the pain anymore, she took the bottle of pills on the floor knowing what it is, pop as many as possible into her mouth and swallows.

After doing that she went to lie on her James's body and hug his lifeless body to herself, waiting for death to come.

Even death can't not keep us apart, I will join you soon and we will be together again my love. She thought and smiled for the first time since this nightmare.

But she can't just die for no reason she soaks her hands in his blood and started writing, then she laughed as she were mad. Maybe she was, she thought before darkness consumes her.

Chapter 1

Diamond's POV

No! No!! No!!

This can't be happening.

I should have known something like this would happen, good things does not last forever, it never has for her.

I hurriedly threw some clothes inside Nadia's bag pack. I rushed to the kitchen and packed some snacks and protein bars, throw them my own bag pack.

I then went under my bed and drag out the large box, opened it and took out the gun and some bullets and hurriedly fix the bullet in the gun, my hands were shaking, am a nervous wreck.

Breath, Diamond breath I scolded myself.

Why didn't I put the bullet in before?

I ask myself even if I know why I was scared Nadia would see it and play with it, I wouldn't want her to hurt herself, she is my life, the reason am till fighting and she is in the other room sleeping soundly and I will have to wake her even if I hate it, but we have to leave.

I actually feel bad for her, I have been on the run for six years now while she has been on the run since was born. This is no life for a child, she just five but she had to grow faster because of this life I brought her into, but I don't regret keeping her and am never giving her up.

Everything was fine until I broke my boss, no scratch that! My ex boss's arm and quitting my job even though I needed it badly, this afternoon. And now the police are at my door for assault. Crazy pig!

I should have been the one to press charges for sexually assault, I was just defending myself, I know you are wondering why am running, adding should I say resisting arrest to my list of 'crimes' but I can't even afford to be given a parking ticket, I am good as dead, my secret would come out and I worked so hard for 6 years to keep my secret in the dark am not about to let my pig of a boss ruin my life so that why am running.

"Sweetie wake up" I said waking Nadia gently after packing some bundle of cash and passport.

Nadia stirred a little but didn't wake up.

"Wake up honey" I said a little harshly but the lock wouldn't hold the police back anymore.

She wake up this time blinking.

"Momma what's happening".

"We have to leave now".

I said carrying her knowing she is still sleepy and head to the window, opened it and drop our bags as quietly as I could.

I put Nadia through the window and drop her on her feet then pass through.

I just have to get to the front of the house without been seen to my car parked across the street.

I ran to the front, while carrying Nadia, there is a police car there, but it is empty, with the light on, so I believe the cops are already inside probably looking for me. And my car is across the street. This is my cue run. I drop Nadia get on my knees, and hold Nadia's face in my hands and look straight in her eyes.

"We will have to run to the car very quick do you understand?" I said then kiss her forehead.

She nods.

"That's my girl"

I hold her hands

"Let's go"

I said while running with her behind me. Then I heard it.

" Freeze" One of the cops said from the front of the door.

I calculated quickly in my head, there will not be enough time for me to get to across the street, unlock the car, help Nadia get in without been caught, so I did has instructed I froze, while cursing myself for my stupidity, I was close to tears because I know they would take my Nadia, my hope away from me, am living one of my nightmares.

The cop seeing that I did as instructed was coming close, I panicked and did another stupid thing and drew my gun on him.

"Stay where you are or I will shoot" I said calmly.

Nadia hold my legs very tight.

"Momma" Nadia whispers.

"Sweetie everything is fine, it is just a little misunderstanding and would be over soon". I whisper back.

"Miss Kane, I will advise you to not do anything drastic, it just physical assault you were charged with, if you shoot, it would be attempted murder or worst murder or harassing an officer on duty and resisting arrest, so if I were you I would drop the gun" An older cop, who obviously came from my house said while approaching me with caution, with is gun pointed at me.

Nadia holds me tighter and hides at the back of my legs.

I was torn between doing the right thing legally and doing what is right for me and Nadia, who am l kidding, I have broken more laws than I can count in the last six years so what is bad adding to the crime but I the downside is that I will have no hope of ever living a normal life and I have being trying so hard to for Nadia, so I decided to drop my gun and hope my secrets doesn't come out. As I was about to lower my gun, a car drove with speed and came between I and the cops.

And the dark tinted window came down.

" Come on in, what are you waiting for?" a guy I haven't seen before in my life said and opened the back door.

There no way am going back there. I thought remembering what I had gone through.

So I made one more stupid decision for the night and entered the car with Nadia, I had not closed the door properly before he speed off.

I tried to calm down my raising heart while hugging Nadia tight in my arms, whispering everything would be okay, and I don't know if I am saying it for myself or for her.

"Norabel Moore, it nice to finally meet you" A man in all black that I didn't notice in the seat with me said and I felt my heart stop beating while I stare at him in horror as memories that I thought I buried came deep flooded, my eye became blurry with tears, I felt a sharp pain in my arm and l look at it to and saw I was injected.

I don't think I ever regretted any of my bad choices this much till now, I just handed myself over to the devil, now he will take me to hell. That was my last thought before I black out.