Chapter 24 Sexual frustrations

After taking Jasmine to school on Monday he came back home, did some work on his laptop, and made Lasagna from scratch for his wife which she was craving and she didn't want him to buy it; she wanted him to make it. Dana said it was because Diane wanted him here where she could keep an eye on him, maybe she was right, but if it keeps his wife's mind at ease, he can't say he mind.

He was now in the gym trying to work off some of his sexual frustration on his bow flex when he heard the gate buzzer rang but didn't bother to check who it was because he knew Diane's sisters would. A few days ago he had a camera installed at his gate, so now instead of asking who it was, he just looks to see who it was. There were also mini TV monitors installed next to all his gate buzzers in the house.

He was in the middle of an intense workout with his weights when his friends walk into the gym. "Heeeey, take it easy on those weights man; your biceps are already as big as your wife's thighs." Mike laughs. He knew Mike had a point but what else was he suppose to do to release the tension in his body.

"Hey, guys, what's up?" He asks without breaking his rhythm. "Not much, just stopping by to say Hi and to say thank you for that massaging oil, it was amazing. So what's up with you? Why are you hitting those weights so hard?" Mike asks. "No reason, I'm just exercising that's all." He mumbled but Justin walks over to him and folds his hands across his chest. "You're lying, something is wrong, so spit it out."

He sat up on the bench, releases the weights, and took a deep breath. "Where's Diane?" He asks drying his chest and face with a towel. "She's in a di kitchen wid her sisters a stuff her face, why?" Marlon asks. "Because I don't want her to hear me admitting to you guys that I'm sexually frustrated that's why." He said getting up and stretching. "Sexually frustrated? Wait a minute, aren't you guys doing it?" Mike asks.

As wound up as he felt, he had to laugh when Mike asks that question and he ran his fingers through his hair. "Let's just say that gone are the days when I used to heist her legs over my shoulders, man, I miss doing that. I mean we do it but I have to be very, very gentle, one wrong move from me and I could hurt both her and the babies, my control has to be very sharp right now and now I know why you guys cheat because trust me I would love to lose myself in her right now and if I wasn't a Christian and married I would have bed about four women since last night to how frustrated I am." He said smoothing his hair back.

"Hold on a minute, you're not thinking of stepping out on Diane are you prince?" The question came from Justin. "I would never betray Diane like that and don't get me wrong, stepping out on your girls was wrong. I'm just saying that I understand why you did because I would be lying if I said I wasn't sexually frustrated right now."

"Hang in there; you only have a few more months to go," Justin assures him. "Don't worry I will, I did it once and I can do it again." "Endurance is the key man," Justin said slapping him on his back. "Good, now that we solved that problem, what you up to fi the rest of di day?" Marlon asks.

"Well, I've to be at the plaza by four and I have a meeting at one of my complex at five, come to think of it, I've meetings all of this week and into next week, by the way, shouldn't you guys be at work right now?" "I'm on my lunch break," Mike answered. "So am I," Marlon adds. "I don't have to be in till two." Justin finish. "Okay then, let's go out to the gazebo, I need to talk to you guys about something while I'm cooling off."

Each of them took two slices of cheesecake and a glass of cranberry juice out to the gazebo with them. "So what do you want to talk to us about?" Mike asks as he sat down. "Well, I know you guys wanted to get married before Diane gives birth but I'm sorry to say I don't see it happening. We only have two weeks left before Christmas and Diane could have these babies at any moment."

"How about the Saturday after Christmas?" Marlon asks. "You guys are really determined to make this happen aren't you?" He snorts. 'Yes, we're. So what do you say?" Justin asks. Gabriel bites at the inside of his mouth. "That's cutting it real close but if you guys are up to the challenge then we can make this happen." "Yes," Mike said clapping his hands together. "Okay then let's put our head together and make this happen boys." He said finishing his juice.

On Tuesday he took Jasmine to her last day of school before the Christmas break. Her class party was today and she bought presents for all her friends; Diane's sisters will be picking her up later; after which he and his friends had a meeting with the wedding planner to go over a few themes for their wedding but the guys couldn't agree on the one they wanted and they soon realized that Planning a triple wedding was no small task and even though the wedding planner and his team were going to be handling most of the details, he and the guys still had a lot of things that they need to get done.

He stops by the food court in Pavilion for a snack and was on his way out when he saw her. She was sitting at a table by herself looking miserable and although he wanted to walk away before she saw him, he couldn't. The last time he saw her things didn't go so well and now he was dreading having to face her again but he had to; he had to ask her one more time for her forgiveness.

Maybe he'll face her another time he thought as he walks towards his car. He took a few more steps, then stopped, took a deep breath, turned, and walked back towards her. "Hi," He said softly and braced himself for the verbal attack he knew was sure to follow. But when she looks up at him, there wasn't any anger in her expression; instead, she looked tired and depressed.

"I guess I was wrong when I thought this day couldn't possibly get any worst. What do you want?"She asks coldly and he sat on a chair facing her. "I saw you sitting here and was just wondering how you were doing?" He asks as once again shame and remorse wash over him for what he did to her. How God could've loved the heartless monster that he was, he'll never understand. "Why do you care?" The anger wasn't on her face but it was definitely in her voice. "You still haven't forgiven me, have you?" He asks.

She sighs heavily. "As a matter of fact, I've. I really don't have the energy to be angry at you anymore. I'm just tired and I don't want to argue or get upset, so could you please just leave me alone." She said her voice barely a whisper. "The last thing I want is to argue with you or upset you but it's clear that something is wrong and I was wondering if there was anything I could do to help."

She gave him a weak smile that didn't reach her eyes. "You want to help me? How exactly are you going to do that? Are you going to throw five grand my way again? Or are you going to pretend to care about me just so you can get between my legs again?" She asks scornfully.

He took a deep breath and leaned back in the chair. "I guess I deserve that but I've no desire to get between your legs." "Oh, of course, you don't, because you have already been there and done that and throw me out like yesterday's trash right? Or do you think that I'll just bore you again?" She asks in a cold hostile tone. "Are you sure you forgave me? Because it sure sounds like you're still very angry at me and since you don't want my help, I'll just leave you alone."

"You know what, you sit there saying that you want to help me but the truth is we have been together sexually three times in the past and I don't even know your real name and I wouldn't be going through any of this if it wasn't for you." She snorts in disgust. "And once again it's my fault, now why doesn't that surprise me?" He asks rolling his eyes.

"Because it shouldn't, you want to know what wrong? Fine, I'll tell you. That day when I saw you at that bake sale and I got upset and ran off, one of your church brothers saw us arguing and chase after me. I was so upset and shocked to see you in that church; that I told him everything you did to me because I wanted to know why those God-abiding people would allow someone like you in their place of worship and serving people at that. I was mad, real mad." She sighs tiredly.

"Any way he calms me down and we became friends after that then we became lovers, he was sweet, loving, and gentle, and needless to say I fell in love with him." He didn't say anything he just stared at her. "Why do you look so shocked? It isn't as if you're any different. Anyway, a month ago I found out I was two months pregnant, I was so excited that I could even conceive a child after what you did to me; I couldn't wait to see him that night but when I told him he became hostile, saying that I can't have this baby and then to my surprise he gave me thirty grand and told me to have an abortion." She snorts in disgust again.

"Now there's was no way I was going to kill my child because I don't know if I will be able to have anymore so I used twenty grand to pay off two months back rent and spend the rest on clothes for my baby and food. And now to make matters worst the old man I was caring for died last Thursday so now I'm three months pregnant and jobless, that's what is wrong." She said narrowing her eyes at him. "Wow okay but I still don't see how any of this is my fault." She folds her arms and glared at him.

"Well if you hadn't hurt me, then I wouldn't have gotten upset and ran away from that church and this man wouldn't have had to comfort me and then got me pregnant, he used what you did to get close to me, that's why it's your fault." She said firmly.

He sighs and ran his fingers through his hair. "Okay fair enough, so which one of my church brothers are we talking about?" "It doesn't matter." She took up her bag and stands to leave but his hold on her wrist stop her. "I'm worshipping alongside someone who gave you thirty grand to take the life of an innocent child; I need to know who that person is, please." "Well, I also want to know something?" She said taking a deep shaky breath. "What?" He asks releasing her hand and standing up. "What is your real name?" She asks. "Gabriel." He said shoving his hands into his pockets.

"And not that you were interested before or even now but my name is Karen. I'm a real person with feelings not a piece of meat or a sex object for men like you to use and toss aside like trash. I'm someone's daughter, sister and now I'm going to be someone's mother." She said rubbing her stomach.

When she looks at him again there were tears in her eyes and she folds her arms across her chest hugging herself. "Not that it makes any difference now, what's done is done, I fell hard for this man, I thought that we could get married and be a family but in the end, Josh didn't love me, he only loves having sex with me."

His eyes widen in shock at what she just said. "Hold on a second; Josh is the father of your child?" He asks in disbelief but that question brought her anger back in a hurry, she wipes the tears from her eyes with the back of her hand and glared at him. "Josh is the one that got me pregnant but he has made it quite clear that he has no intention of being a father to my child." She then turns and walks away from him; he was so stunned he couldn't move, he just stood there and watch her leave.

Sorry guys I'm literally dying to sleep here,

Hope I didn't make any mistakes

Food for thought

Compassion is love in action.

Thank you all for reading.