Living in pain 2

Airin cringed in pain when doctors began cleaning her wound.

"Luckily your leg didn't get infected because the wound wasn't treated properly before." The doctor said after putting bandages on Airin's feet.

Airin did not answer, she was just silent especially when Tamara always looked at her tightly.

"I've asked her to come for treatment but she always refuses because she says she doesn't like the scent of the hospital," Tamara said that she didn't want to look bad, of course, she didn't want the young doctor to think she deliberately ignored the wound on the soles of Airin's feet.

"It's done, you have to take the medicine I gave you to heal faster."

Airin nodded, she then rushed down from the nurse's bed and Tamara swiftly helped hee even though she was secretly clutching Airin's arm vigorously.

They then went to the beauty salon. Tamara asked the beauty salon employee to cut Airin's long hair to the waist, she never cut her hair because Airin never came to the beauty salon unless there would be an examination.

"Please don't cut it too short." Ask Airin, the beauty salon clerk nodded a sign of understanding.

"Do we have to dye your hair too?" Ask the salon employee because Airin always paints her hair to keep her look black.

"No need, we're in a hurry." Said Tamara who happened to be not far from Airin.

"Just cut her hair and makeup her face."

Arin can only give up, she doesn't like to wear makeup because usually, Rafael will continue to look at her terribly.

And sure enough, when they return home, Rafael continues to look at her and the way Rafael looks at her like a terrifying beast at the same time makes Airin feel uncomfortable.

"This dress suits you," Rafael said, he touched Airin's back while walking and made Airin feel afraid.

Amanda who sees how Rafael seems to be interested in Airin then steps up to Airin and whispers.

"You must be happy that my brother is watching you, but don't get me wrong because he only wants your body and when he gets it he'll throw you away."

Airin clenched her fist, she held the anger in her especially when Amanda scared her even more.

Now Amanda leaves as if she let Rafael be alone with Airin.

Airin was about to step away, but Rafael held her back, he blocked Airin's wrist, and then for a second, he pushed Airin's body roughly onto the couch.

"I've said if you die it's better because you won't feel any more pain. But I have a more pleasant way of dying."

Airin turns her face away as Rafael approaches, but it provokes Rafael's anger. He grabbed Airin's jaw very firmly and pulled her so that Airin would stare at him.

"How dare you turn your back on me."

"Use your common sense, Rafael."

"Why would I use my wits just for the sake of a lowly woman like you?"

Rafael then tries to kiss Airin but Airin refuses, pushing Rafael's body so that the man cannot reach her.

"Rafael, please stop!" Airin said she was still trying to prevent Rafael from touching her.

"Don't be pretentious like you expensive, I know you're so happy that a guy like me touches you, right. If it wasn't me then there wouldn't be a man who would want to be with a lowly woman like you so calm down and stop rebelling. I will make you feel the pleasure that you have never felt."

"No... I'd rather die than have to let you touch my body!"

Rafael laughs annoyed at Airin's hubris, he no longer restrains himself and immediately punches Airin in the face and makes the corner of her lips bleed.

"Calm down, or I'll beat you to death!"

Rafael threatens, he undresses his and holds Airin's hands so that she stops rebelling and tries to kiss her even though she still can't kiss Airin because Arin keeps ducking.

"No Rafael... Please don't do this!"

"Stop rejecting me, bitch!"

Rafael was about to hit Airin again when the door suddenly opened.

"Rafael!"

Tamara approached Rafael and immediately slapped Rafael while Airin immediately hid behind Tamara's body.

"How many times have I told you not to bother Airin."

"Come on, mom. Why are you suddenly siding with this lowly girl?"

"Because she's just a low girl, you shouldn't touch her! Now you better leave because the superintendent will be here any minute."

Rafael stares at Airin angrily, he then takes back his clothes and steps away.

Tamara then turned her back and looked at Airin who was still crying in fear.

"How dare you seduce my son!" Tamara said, she lifted Airin's face and grabbed her jaw strongly.

"Look at your face now, you're deliberately him off so he hits you and you can show your face to the guards?

"It's not like that mom, Rafael tried to rape me." Airin can't help her sadness because the fear that still envelops her heart added to the feeling of hurt because she remains at fault.

"Rafael is a classy man, he won't want to touch you if you don't tease him first!" Tamara looks very upset, she then pushes Airin's body to make her fall down.

"Don't think you're beautiful just because I took you to the beauty salon today and I don't care how you have to cover your face or I'm going to rip your mouth off!" Threaten Tamara before finally leaving Airin alone who can only cry.

She swears by God, if only she had a little strength then she would fight back, she would avenge all the bad treatment she received but why did God create her to have a body so weak that she always felt helpless.

Airin tried to get up, she stepped slowly down the bookshelves, in the corner of the room there was a blackboard and some chalk color.

While crying Airin destroyed the colored chalk that was almost similar to the color of her skin then used her tears she made it into a paste and then covered the wound in the corner of her lips with chalk.

It was very sore and hot but Airin had to keep her wound closed because Tamara could have completely ripped her mouth off after she felt her wound covered, Airin started wiping away her tears, sighing, and trying to smile because she saw the surveillance car had entered her yard from the window of the room she was in.

"They've come, come down and don't act suspicious or I'll lock you both up with Rafael," Amanda said that came to Airin, not forgetting she threatened Airin to make Airin more frightened.

"Oh, it's disgusting because I have to wear the same dress like you." She said on the way.

It's true that if they wear a white below-the-knee dress with the same model, it's all so that the superintendent thinks that Temandric's family doesn't discriminate against Amanda.

Airin then steps in Amanda's footsteps, bowing a smile that she never showed if it wasn't for the orphanage superintendent coming to see her.

"Be careful of the way," Amanda said, she led Airin who seemed to have difficulty descending the stairs because her legs were still hurting.

"What's wrong with your feet?" Ask one of the superintendents when he sees something strange with Airin walking.

Instantly, Amanda accidentally pinches Airin's arm as a threat if she can't get it wrong.

Airin smiles, she takes Amanda's hand off her arm and steps up to the superintendent who loves her very much and hugs her.

"I accidentally dropped the plate and stepped on the shard so my leg hurt but the wound's been treated and I'm fine now."

"Thank God, you have to be more careful, Airin," Jenny said, she was sixty years old but she still looked beautiful. She loves Airin very much but seeing Airin happy with her adoptive family makes her happy because even though it is only once a year, she can still see Airin as an orphanage superintendent.

"She was always very excited so a little careless, I was very worried when she got hit by a broken plate and made me cry. Seeing her hurt me too." Tamara said, she embraced Airin and rubbed her head gently.

Airin smiles again, if only she could tell her what happened to Jenny but Airin knows that Temandric's family was a regular donor in the orphanage so she can't say anything but hold all this anguish herself and hopes that one day there will be a miracle that takes her away from this terrible place.

"I want to go, anywhere even if it has to be my previous life. I just don't want to be here."

Airin smiled, she covered the tears in her heart that felt hopeless.

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