CHAPTER 10 - CONFUSE

Jade's POV

Even though I just sleep for 3 hours......I think?

But I feel so wonderful, thinking Althea will pick me up today.......and the best part is....... we're having breakfast together, how great this day is?!!

As soon as Althea called me yesterday and informing me of the latter, the smile I have after our conversation was itched the whole day in my face.

Even my employees were surprised in my behaviour.........for the reason that............prior from that call, I was shouting at them after I came from Althea's office.....then suddenly in a blink of an eye, I'm all smile.

Who cares what they think. I'm just.........so H. A . P . P . Y!!!

While I was still reminiscing the event yesterday with my so flush checks, my phone rings.

I pick it up immediately, thinking it is 'My Goddess' (Let's just keep this information to ourselves.) with a naughty smirk.

But to my dismay it's David, now reality bites me, it's like somebody pour a very cold water on me.

'Oh my god!...Oh my god!'

How did I forget about my boyfriend, now I'm being so reckless!!?

These past weeks all I've been thinking was 'HER', she's occupying my whole being without me noticing.

Picking up my phone, guilty for not remembering I have a boyfriend.

Considering its David my disappointment is noticeable in my voice......can't even hide it.

"Hello?" I sadly greeted.....I wanted to make my voice sound enthusiastic, but I failed.

"Hello hon, are you okay? You sound sad? Are you sick or something?" Now David is concerned, how would I explain this behavior I'm directing now to him?

"I'm fine David, I just wake up.......that's all." 'Liar!' Rolling my eyes and scolding myself.

"Are you sure?" David being David so persistent that annoyed me sometimes.

"Yah of course.....why wouldn't I be okay!?" I'm sounding irritated and defensive,

'Oh boy...calm down Jade, grumpy much!..... your boyfriend is just being concerned for you.' Pep talking myself.

"Sorry, Hon.....I'm just worried you know? I'm keeping calling and texting you......since your travel to Japan, but I didn't receive any replies or call back. Then.....I just heard from ahya James that you're here in the Philippines for almost three weeks now. Why you didn't call me Jade? Are you that busy forgetting you have a boyfriend waiting and anxious from your response?!" Now David is getting vexed with his long rant at me.......from calm to furiously mad.

"My apology David.....it's just.....my schedule is so hectic, you know what happened in our Japan project. I need to be fully focused without any distraction or what so ever. But that's not an excuse for not calling you......I'm so sorry again David, please forgive me." Now I feel stupid for being so dense and inconsiderate of David's feelings...........and I'm calling him David now.

I really don't know?.......it feels uncomfortable now saying that endearment to him. Hope he wouldn't notice it.

"Now it's only David? Where's the 'Hon' Jade?" 'Too late Jade, David already notices'. Informing myself.

"I'm sorry," I whispered, David barely hear me.

A deafening silence caught between the two of us, feeling so awkward now.

"Hmm." I hear him sigh and breathe deeply, guilt is creeping in me.

"Hon? We're okay, right? We're not having a problem?" David is now confiding me.....worries etched in his voice.

"Of course we are okay, why you ask that ho....n (I can't even properly say the word I love to call him before without a hint of hesitation)......as I have told you earlier, I'm just tired." 'How about Althea? The woman you've been fantasizing almost a month now!?........ Liar!' informed my conscience to me.

"Okay then if you say so.....are you free today? Can I see you, Hon?" I'm glad David sounds calmer now.

"I'm sorry David not now, I have an early meeting today....my whole schedule is jammed. How about tomorrow?" Feeling the hair from the back of my neck stand, indicating my remorse for lying to him.

"Take it easy okay? Don't be hard on yourself......I'll see you tomorrow Hon. I'll drop by your office at lunchtime, let's take lunch together." That's one of the reasons why I love David, he's so understanding.

This adds the pile of guilt I feel at this moment.....how could I do this to him?

"Okay see you tomorrow bye." 'Why did I lie to him....I've never lie to David.'

"Bye Hon, I love you." Sweetly uttered the man on the other line.

"Okay, you too." 'Why it's hard to say that 3 words back at him now? Why I have too many 'WHYs'? What's happening to me!?'

Putting down the phone, massaging my aching temple recalling the conversation I had with David.

'What have I done?'

I really don't know ........my situation now is so complicated or is it me who make the situation complicated.

Feeling so down after my conversation with David........... I stand up and went to the bathroom to take a bath and doing my morning rituals.

After I did so, I went to my vanity mirror to blow dry my hair.......drying it absent-mindedly.

While doing so......I heard a low knock coming from my bedroom door.

"Who is it?" Shouting from my vanity desk.

"Jade it's yaya (nanny) Sita, somebody is looking for you....she says to tell you, her name is Althea."

'Oh my god, she's here? What time is it?' When I look up at my wall clock it's still 7:30 in the morning.

'Why she so early. I thought she will pick me up around 9:00 AM?' Talking to myself bewildered.

"Jade?" yaya (nanny) Sita called me again, interrupting me from pondering.

"Yes yaya, can you let her in and tell her to wait for me in a sec.....I'll just change." Standing up from my vanity table going to my walk-in closet.

'Oh my god....oh my....now what would I wear?'

I'm in panic mode now, opening my wardrobe cabinets searching for the right clothes to wear.

I don't know how long I've been in my walk-in closet, tossing and picking the perfect outfit.

I just grab my off-shoulder black-mesh-insert-bandeau-bandage-mini-dress that hugs my body perfectly, accentuating the right curves.

I smiled, when I saw myself in the mirror........' gorgeous!' I squealed, this is the first time I'm being eager to show off myself.

I don't really care what I wear or what I look in front of anybody's eyes but for some reason......right now is different, particularly to a certain person who's waiting for me patiently at this moment downstairs.