"Ocean is strong power
 Ocean is our life
If you won't be able to
Survive against its wave
You die"
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Throughout my entire existence, I have wept incessantly due to my shattered heart and ruined life. The pain and suffering I endured, the loss of loved ones, the abandonment by those I held dear, the constant reminders of my worthlessness from everyone around me, and the relentless abuse I endured - all of it left me yearning for love that was never bestowed upon me.

It was my own family who betrayed my trust, repeatedly, until I became nothing more than an empty shell, devoid of any warmth or compassion.

I made a solemn vow to myself that I would never allow my family to hurt me again. I promised to stand up for myself, to become someone who would make those who deemed me insignificant bow down before me.

I made a resolution to persevere and make the most out of my circumstances.

But amidst the deceit and pain inflicted upon me by my own kin, did I ever stumble upon love and happiness?

Let us delve into this matter, shall we?

Survival Journey

Near the lake, lied a small cottage restaurant built with bamboo, gentle cool air was blowing in the hot summer day indeed it was a beautiful day for me today. 


After eight years I was finally in peace, my soul was the happiest at the moment. 


I was at peace today, my mind and body relaxed with the person behind me holding me tightly like I would disappear somewhere but where would I go, this...this is where I belong. belong.with.Ronin. 


He was the air I breath in, he was the person I would die for, he was the peace I needed in my life. Most of all he was the soul that kept me and my soul sane. 


Being there at the lake with him made me calm and relaxed. In the past, It was the place where we use to come for dates when we needed some time to cool our mind from all the hustle and bustle of the city. 


The Bitter Truth