Or else

ZouMi came into her room, but had nothing to do. After a shower, when everyone went to their room, ZouMi walked out of her walk through the window and sat at the bench at the backyard. She sat there in daze for long, she felt someone was near. She turned her head left to right and didn't find anyone, so she looked up and saw her brother standing at the balcony.

ZouMi thought for a while and started walking into the home, in a matter of minutes she was standing at the entrance of her brother's room, her brother was still in the same position. She tiptoed and leaned near her brother's ear,

"Phew" She blew air in her brother's ear.

"Zuuu" Xau glared at her, but wasn't annoyed. ZouMi smiled at her brother before hooking her arm with her brother's and pulled him to sit, "Hmm, so what are you disturbed with?" She asked calmly.

Xau gave her a smile, "Nothing, what can disturb me?"

ZouMi carefully studied her brother's side profile and said, "You started lying to me, now?" She said unhappily, then placed her head on his shoulder.

Xau kept quiet and neither did ZouMi talked, mutual silence maintained between them. Then he leaned a little on his sister's head and said,

"It's been a long time, but that girl just stuck into my mind. The way she was fearless, the way she was calm when she was arrested. Sigh, I went to the station the other day, only to find out that the address she gave was, wrong. And now, she isn't leaving my head. She didn't even look at me, neither did she thank me."

"Mmm, so what are you upset with? Because she didn't thank you, or she didn't give you face or is it because you couldn't find her?"

"You..." He wanted to argue, then sighed, to be honest, yes, he was upset on the above reasons, he couldn't deny it.

The cold breeze passed, but they both sat there, in silence for long, after years the siblings had a talk.

"Zu, based on your personality, you'll be even with everyone. So, you won't let that Sid Bao enjoy his life, will you? What are you planning?"

ZouMi wasn't surprised at all, because that's who she is, and her brothers know her like the back of their hand, which was in the past. Now they don't know the dark side of her, and she preferred hiding it from them, she didn't want them to fear her.

"Yes, I won't. You'll know soon." She stood up and patted his shoulder, "Okay, it's late, go to sleep. I'll try my best to find her out." She was walking away, when Xau held her wrist, she didn't turn.

"Zu.... Are you fine?" Xau's voice couldn't hide the concern in it.

ZouMi looked up, and her eyes fell on the picture, her family photo, hanging in Xau's room.

'Am I fine?' she questioned herself.

And the answers was, no. She could see her body showing signs, she is eventually going to die sooner or later. She is missing her father badly, and she turned into a person, who all would hate.

"Mm" ZouMi agreed softly, struggled to get out of his grip "Good night" she said and left. Xau saw his sister leaving, but didn't chase her, he silently looked up at the sky, sighed and went to sleep.

ZouMi's mind drifted else where, she skipped many steps, at the end she was about to fall, but still managed.

"Zu, you should be careful. And what were you doing upstairs?" Filled with concerned, a voice came from behind, she turned and saw her mother, coming out of the kitchen with a bottle in her hand.

"I was just checking everyone. Why aren't you sleeping?

"I came here to drink some water." She examined her daughter's face carefully, "Zu, wouldn't you come to our room?"

ZouMi avoided her mother's eyes, she leaned near and peaked her mother's cheek, "Sleep early, Ma. Good night" She walked towards her room hurriedly.

Mother Sid didn't know what to do, should she be happy, that after four years her daughter kissed her, or be sad on how she avoided the topic. She looked upstairs, sorrow was clear in her eyes, and then at her daughter's figure moving away. She sighed, and started walking upstairs, she entered her room and sat at the bedside. Mother Sid held her unconscious husband's hand, tears started to form at the corner of her eyes.

"An' I feel our daughter is going far away. She totally distanced herself, since you fell unconscious. Only you're her strength, get up or else...."

Mother Sid, couldn't make her sentence and burst into tears, while placing her head on their intertwine hands.

In ZouMi's room,

She entered her room and leaned on the door. She felt suffocated, her breathing turned heavier. When she confirmed her mother went away, ZouMi walked to the bedside, opened her cupboard and took out a recorder like thing, also a jacket.

She opened her door and peeped, making extra sure no one is around. Then she rushed out of the house and drove away. On the way she stopped at a shop, brought a carton of beverage, she didn't bother for the bill nor the extra money, just took the carton, kept the money on the counter and left in her car.

While driving, she rolled the window down, letting the cold breeze hit her face. She reached her destination, got down took the carton out with a book, pen and also the recorder. Which place would it be except of the lake? Her all-time venting place.

She held the recorder tightly, hesitation was clear in her eyes, she took a deep breath and pressed the play button.

// If you're listening to this, then it means, I didn't make out of it.// A pleasing, familiar voice fell in her ears.