Chapter 36 (Riley pov)

"Doctor it's becoming increasingly hard to turn down Holly, she always wears skimpy clothes , sexy lingerie that always turns me on always forcing me to musterbate to please myself , cause I don't want to harm her I will have sex I take my my medication but still it's not going down." Riley asked doctor Chu who has been his medical doctor for three years now Riley was worried that if he keeps turning her down it end their relationship

"Well Riley you know your were diagnosed with big dick syndrome, your dick grows abnormally big whenever you have sex with someone you love and thus ends up hurting your partner, if you love holly like you claim , you can't have sex with her until I say it's fine." Doctor Chu explains

"But I can't keep turning her down she will leave me , I even lied her that am Virgin but she didn't want to hear it ,she will leave me doctor ." Riley said giving his concerns

"You have no choice in matter you haven't been able to find girl who can accommodate you, we always have to treat the girl after , cause always almost rapture there cervix,"Doctor Chu barks back

"But may be holly is the one you always told me that if get girl with properly stretched out vagina she can accommodate me if I give her time to get used to my length and size specially if take my meds before having sex with her."

"No Riley you will kill the poor girl I have told you that you can only have sex with girl , You don't like or love we have been through this." Doctor Chu says standing his ground

"But it's ruining my relationship holly yesterday night she wanted sex and I had to pretend that I didn't want to but I was clearly dying to be with her doctor it's not fair to me or her." Riley said frustrated

"Oh you can tell her the truth about your condition." Doctor Chu

"I can't do you know how many girls have lost because they thought I was lying and it took me time to get holly I can't risk loosing her what if leaves me." Riley said in tears

"If she loves you she will understand and it will save your relationship with her because she will know why you have been turning her down." Doctor Chu said

"Ok Doctor."

"Stanley come here take me home,"

"Yes sir."

I arrive home to find Jessica naked in me and holly bathroom "what are you doing here?"

Waiting for you she said dropping the towel leaving her fully exposed

"What do you want from me ." Riley asked furious an amused by Jessica's behavior

"Isn't it obvious I want you ever since the ball I couldn't get mind off you , so here am you can sleep with me no strings attached just two grownups having sex." Jessica said

"Are you mad or what , am your best friend fiancée and you want to sleep with me, get out of my room right now , before may do something you will regret." Riley said burning with rage

"Come on I know she doesn't do it like me that's why you're boy betrays you it's hard for me."

"My penis is big for entirely different reasons now get out I have Médecine to apply get out my bathroom and never or I will tell holly that her best friend is nothing but a slut."

Picking up her towel Jessica leaves the room and just in time cause holly came in soon after she left Abs immediately walked to bathroom to find me naked

"baby I didn't know your so big She said and decked me to hold her hair up and she helps me ." Holly said holding her hair before getting on her knees as she prepared to give me a blow job

She was seconds from putting her mouth around my member when I remembered what doctor Chu said in my consultation today I couldn't allow myself to get horny so I quickly got my towel and walked out on holly

"Honey I want you ever since we started dating you have been the perfect boyfriend and love you but you refuse to take our relationship further by denying sex or is it you don't desire me."

" desire you and that's the problem , you won't understand am doing this, to protect cause I love you more than anything this world baby , I won't let my emotions get the better of me and I end up harming you ." Riley said sincerely

"Sex can't harm me it's your rejection that is hurting me it's breaking my heart or do you have another girl your sleeping with."

This only broke Riley's heart we wanted to sleep with holly more than anything but Doctor Chu forbid him cause the last serious girlfriend he had almost died cause she couldn't accommodate him yet he was so rough and big for her so he is scared to loose holly

"Riley tell me why I won't sleep with me holly said as frantically packed her bags ready to end their wild wind romance ."

No holly you don't understand there is genuine reason why we can't have sex do you think I would do all I do for you if i didn't love you holly everything have and I'm is because of my love for you please understand." Riley said pleading with his love

"Riley we are soon getting married and I have tried everything sexy lingerie cooking walking in house without undies walking in house naked never Jessica is at her boyfriends house but nothing has worked ."

"Babe am literally obsessed with you but I can't sleep with you having sex will harm you." Pleading with the love of his life

"Then what's the problem am your fiancé don't I have a right to your body."

"Of course yo do my love but I don't want hurt you."

"But you have already hurt me by rejecting me over and over it's burning my soul so as much a love you am leaving I know when am not wanted ."

"Holly come on it hasn't come to this I love you more than words can say so please don't leave me ." Riley said pleading

"It doesn't seem like it , we have known each other for moths Riley , ever since we met at my fathers company and now am going to be yours forever by becoming your wife , but if you can't sleep with me then we are done holly said as she carried her bags out of the room ."

"Baby don't do this Riley said crying while on his knees ."

Am sorry Riley I can't understand you and am not a virgin sex is very important to me and if it's not part of our relationship am sorry but I can't stay with you anymore holly said as she continues carry her luggage out

Baby doll there is valid reason for everything please don't go

"Tell it to me I walk cause bi promised myself never to be an relationship we're my partner didn't care about me or didn't commit myself to me."

"Am scared if say what's wrong with me you will walk way from me our relationship cause when girls kind out there always leave me."

"Im not most girls am me Riley you can tell me anything holly said caressing my chick."

And I felt safe enough to tell her , I have big dick syndrome it started when I was 12 years and I have been battling it ever since

Chuckles are you serious right now holly said laughing

"It's not laughing matter it's serious that's the reason we can't have sex ."

Oh your serious am sorry for laughing , what is big dick syndrome

"Basically I can't have sex with anyone I like or have feelings for cause my dick will grow abnormally big and it may rapture you cervix if you can't accommodate me.." so before have sex I need take you to doctor Chu to see if we're compatible

"I don't need a doctor tell me what I already feel and know how ever big you are I know I can accommodate you so please let's try today if I can't I will wait for Doctor Chu ." Holly said standing her ground-1

"We can't I won't risk your health ," Riley insisted

" I come on you don't expect me to believe that, my heart beats for you and I love you Riley Clemons, with all my heart but since I have been in abusive relationship letting my partner toy with my emotions , I learnt that I wouldn't let myself go through it again so am sorry I can't do this anymore there is nothing as dick syndrome I refuse to believe it."holly barks back

"My love please don't leave I have just got your back don't do this."Riley begged

"I don't want to but I don't like bieng lied to."

"Am not lying baby just come with me tomorrow to my appointment if am lying then you can leave me ."

"Fine keep your lies am moving out l know you are just saying that cause yu don't desire me and yu know I was in an abusive relationship and I promised myself if see any red flags I run and this definitely a red flag to avoid bieng hurt again so am leaving cause you don't love me."

"You can't be serious holly, I fought my family to be with you I have treated you like my queen giving All that I have and all that Iam my body craves you

My soul aches when you're not near me your stuck in my head every thought and emotion screams your name. Like mad man dream of making you mine forever till we're old and wrinkly . my heart will beats you , please baby don't do this ."

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Authors note

I want thank all my supporters and voters please continue to support and read the book cause it inspires me to write more content till then my lovely readers this Michelle Ayebare signing off