Chapter 37 (Riley’s pov 2)

Holly tried to be patient and understanding and waited for Riley to take her to doctor so that they find out what's wrong with him but they never did and each time Riley went for check up He made sure holly was sleeping he would visit Doctor Chu to give him his subscription every after three months every time holly asked he would brush it off or give her surprise tickets to Adele's concert or getaway trip to Mauritius the Maldives with Jessica and gifts like private islands private jets designer hand bags jewelry cars basically Riley would spoil her anything she want she would get With just a flick of the finger just avoid going with her to the doctor

To him nothing was more precious to him than holly and he wanted nothing but to please her she was goddess but the one thing she really wanted sex Riley couldn't not give it and holly became more increasingly more impatient every day he didn't know what to do so he called Stanley to meet him in the stables when Stanley got there he told him get on horse so they can go for a ride and talk

While on horse back ride Riley asked Stanley what to do to save his relationship

"Well boss holly is well educated woman with lots of power and class she comes from well of family you pretty sure she is not a gold digger and you say she is understanding I think you should tell the truth ."

"She will leave me , no woman wants me after they learn the truth ."

"Sir very relationship is different, Denying her sex is ruining yours , remember tomorrow is your anniversary she will be expecting you to take some where special cause it's 14th of February and also doubles as Valentine's Day, you need to tell her because she will be expecting anniversary sex as well as nice dinner date." Stanley explains to his boss

"It's hard for me cause I love her , I have never loved anyone the way I love her and if she leaves me it will devesating me , I wouldn't be able handle a life without her."Riley speaks honestly

"You just have to sir and trust she will stay."

Ever since holly came into his life Riley's life has been filled with so much color and happiness could still remember the taste of Holly lips the first time he stole a kiss in his office and got slapped then second time when they almost kissed and Julie walked in on them

even months holly spent away from him running from her feelings and this caused Riley to land in jail for over 8 months and the day she turned and shared there first real kiss in court room that started their relationship after teasing and fighting each other for so long not forgetting time he finally introduced holly to his friends at the ball something he had never done for all his previous girlfriends holly was special and he would do anything to make her happy was Riley's goal in life

He couldn't fathom living life without her so he decided he would tell her tomorrow during their anniversary dinner date but as they arrived home from the horse back ride Riley found holly fully packed heading out the door his worst fears had been realized holly was leaving him

Dropping everything he had asked "what doing holly ?

"I'm leaving you told me that you would take me and we find out what's wrong with you once we go the doctor but you never took me , each time I brought up you would surprise me with something like a trip and I would forget like time you surprised with a trip to Maldives but can't anymore am sexually active woman I need sex."

"Holly understand me honey you have to be patient with me I will take you when am ready."

"We getting married how ready do you want me to be or do you have to be am going to be your wife." holly said as she continued to storm out of their bedroom

"Holly I want us to be together but we can't I have big dick syndrome."Riley's replied

"That's not it Riley , I crave for you but am no body's fool and there is nothing like big dick sydrome I know my mum was a nurse." so bye Riley holly said grabbing her bags And walked towards the door

"No baby it's true I have big dick syndrome." Riley explains

"Stop lying to me ." holly said yelling and crying

"Ok fine baby you really want to know the truth About me darling , it's something that will break your heart please just understand me." Riley begged on his knees

"No I can't do this anymore. I love you more than I can say and I know your love me back but denying me sex is ruining us , so it's either you tell me or walk." holly said crying scared of loosing her first real loving relationship

"Fine holly , I have cancer , I'm dying is that what you wanted to hear ." Riley screamed in frustration

The color instantly drained from holly's face her rage filled face instantly softened tell me it's not true Riley holly cried and fell to her knees

"I wish it wasn't so I can spare you the pain , it all started when I was eight and my nightmare of uncle My uncle festo always spoiled bought me gifts toy cars board and video games he always went above and beyond for me I always thought it was because he loves me and wants the best for me but I was wrong

My uncle didn't do it because he loves me no he did because of something more dark and sinister he did because he was sexually attracted to me but I was eight and he was grown man in his thirties Every day he came to my room when my parents were sleep he always forced me to have sex with him I didn't no any better he always called it a game but I hated playing the game cause it always hurt my butt. I couldn't walk for weeks other times months he would force to pleasure him My penis was way to small cause I was still a child forcing himself on me eventually caused me to get wounds which got infected and turned Into cancer at 13 years I have been living with penile cancer ever since I was thirteen now do you understand why we can't have sex it will harm me and you

Oh baby am sorry I ever doubted you am sorry my love holly said crying she couldn't believe the love of her life had penile cancer she couldn't stop crying and feeling bad. "Baby don't worry am here for you no matter what we will fight this vice together." Holly said kissing and hugging Riley

."You just saying that holly eventually you will get tired of living with a dying man and you will leave me like they always do."

"I will never leave you."

"But why did you call it big dick syndrome"

"Cause it's easier for me than calling it cancer And plus I don't want people to pity me ."

"Well baby , I won't leave you we will fight this cancer and win ."

At first I thought holly didn't mean her words since all my previous girlfriends always left me I waited to see how long holly would last I had taken doctor Chu advice I finally told holy I had cancer most of the women in my life would leave me once they found out I was dying man. But what holy did shocked me