Chapter 3 - Evening

Chapter 3 - Evening

Another day wasted

Now that his work is finished for the day, Adonis can finally unwind and relax. His brain feels fried but he doesn't feel the slightest bit of accomplishment, which pisses him off.

It doesn't even work, liars.

Adonis visits a subreddit he has recently been interested in: r/theredpill. Obviously, he wants to get girls, he's a young man, but he also likes the atmosphere of the community here. It annoys him however, the advice given here just doesn't work. He reads over the same post he read last night. It's a post about building discipline and accomplishing things that make you feel proud, which apparently is the right way to attract women.

I doubt it.

He feels cheated, lied to.

I've been working all day, where are the girls?

They just fuck the guys that don't even care about self-improvement as long as they look good.

It just doesn't work.

Adonis keeps reading. He clicks on another post that states an effective way to find girls to date is to approach them and speak to them on the street.

Yeah right, that's not going to work.

He's never tried it, but he's sure of himself. Post by post he denies the effectiveness of the advice given. But he can't stop reading. So he clicks on the next post. And the next. And the next.

It's been over one and a half hours. He feels even more overworked, still with nothing to show for it. That annoys him even further. He feels productive writing out his own comments on the posts, so he spends the next hour doing so...

"Cold approaching does not work idiot. You have to look like a fucking model to get girls to talk to you on the street"

"Girls around here aren't like that, your advice wouldn't work here"

"You take steroids and think the rest of us will get the same results as you? Liar"

After submitting his contributions, Adonis feels fatigued. It's been a long, hard day. He proceeds straight to YouTube where he denies the advice given on the videos. This time he lets the videos play out a little longer rather than flick through them quickly.

He watches the same YouTuber who gave him the idea of setting up a habit tracker on his computer, a simple list of habits like meditation, journaling, exercising, reading. The YouTuber and all the comments below the video say how effective this self-improvement strategy has been in their development. Adonis opens his habit tracker. He did have a couple of boxes checked when he first made the tracker, it all went downhill from there.

I just don't get why they're all lying about this stuff.

It doesn't work for me.

He looks over today's unchecked boxes. Not a single one checked. Adonis has a fleeting thought to immediately meditate for a few minutes or do some pushups.

No, that wouldn't even do anything, and I'm tired.

I'll do a full workout tomorrow instead.

Before closing down his habit tracker, Adonis checks all of today's boxes. It gives him a small feeling of accomplishment as he closes the page.

Adonis spends the next few hours as he always does - Stuck to his computer chair flicking between YouTube, video games, Reddit, and Instagram. He masturbates again, this time to the League of Legends loading screen which shows a large-breasted female character.

His dinner tonight is a cheese and tomato pizza. His mother did make a home-cooked meal, she even spent hours preparing it today, but he chooses the pizza and tells her to bake it for him. Adonis hears his mother call from the kitchen that his food was ready, but he knows the drill. If he pretends he can't hear her, she'll put the pizza on a plate and bring it straight up to his room. And so he puts on his headphones and continues watching YouTube videos until his servant arrives, which she does promptly. She knows the drill too. He takes the plate from her and immediately looks back on his computer. Adonis's mother awkwardly stays in the room for a few seconds, perhaps crazy enough to expect a 'thank you from her son. She adjusts some of his things to make them look more organized and leaves his room, shutting the door. She goes straight downstairs to watch the television by herself.

Adonis doesn't taste the pizza. He doesn't taste or feel much these days. His mind is a haze, his body is fragile, his mood fluctuates. He's so bored of YouTube but can't avoid it. So he searches for a guide on 'How to stop watching YouTube', on YouTube.

I should get that, that's a great idea.

Adonis is instantly filled with enthusiasm and excitement for he has found the solution to his problems. The video he is currently watching suggests getting a 'website blocker' that will ban him from visiting YouTube.com.

He immediately downloads the software and turns it on and to his amazement, it works! He tests it a few times to ensure its effectiveness and is pleasantly surprised at how well the website blocker works.

This is it!

He's so excited to finally have more free time in the day. Adonis's thoughts drift to him in his perfect 5 am morning routine, waking up early and meditating and working out and checking his business to see thousands in sales. He spends a good few minutes daydreaming whilst robotically clicking on different YouTube videos. He stops.

What the fuck?

Adonis didn't even realize that he had turned off the website blocker and started his usual pattern of flicking through multiple YouTube videos. In his unaware daydreaming state, he had the website blocker disabled to test its features and without even realizing it, clicked on a morning routine video. And then the next. And the next. And the next.

Frustration kicks in but he doesn't let it damper his mood. He enables the website blocker again, his saving grace, and gives himself a pep talk in his mind…

Ok leave this one just like this and then when you next click on YouTube, it will come up with the error message, so just don't turn off this blocker and it will all be fine.

Don't turn it off.

It's a good attempt, but there's an issue. It's 9:34 pm and there are still a few hours left of Adonis's day. He sits around craving YouTube like an addict, trying to think of something else to do that would fulfill his need to unwind and relax. He doesn't feel like playing any video games and he's too tired to do any work, besides, he's been working all day.

Yeah, just turn it off for tonight, and then from tomorrow, I'll keep the blocker enabled.

Within seconds Adonis has the website blocker disabled and he's back on YouTube, feeling content. He's watched enough self-improvement videos for one day, however, so he idly sits around thinking of something else to watch. He searches for 'Gold digger prank' videos and immediately scrolls down to the comments and particularly likes the ones that state that women only like men for their money. It makes him feel better.

Oh come on that's obviously faked, stupid bitch

He's annoyed at the authenticity of the video but at the same time, he can't stop staring at the woman described as a gold digger. So he starts clicking on more videos like this one, particularly if they have an attractive woman in the thumbnail. He flicks through the videos straight to the point where you can see the woman as best as possible and strokes his penis through his pants as he watches. He doesn't even have the energy or motivation to masturbate again so he just watches the videos for seemingly hours until he feels sweaty.

He struggles to stop clicking on the next videos and finds it difficult to close down YouTube for the day. He glances at the time: 00:47 am

Another day wasted.