Show me your heart part 3

##Cecilia##

Was he going to do what I think his doing? He laid me down kissing downward. "Ah" I let out a small moan.

Derin: Haha ready?

Cecilia: Yeah

He sucked my breast. What was this? Even David didn't do this. He was flicking my nipple ring with his tongue. I wanted him to insert something in me. Even if it's fingers. Why was I getting soo moist? All he was doing was circling my breast to the nipple

Cecilia: Ahh please... Let me feel you...

Derin: You will..

Ahh this felt soo good I couldn't think straight.

Cecilia: Put it in my mouth please?

I can't believe how I was begging? What was he doing to me? He finally started to kiss down. Kissing my tattoos. He finally made it to my garden. His tongue felt warm yet hard. He didn't go straight as I thought but he sucked the lips. while flicking the clit piercing. I was speechless I couldn't say anything. I kept scratching the bed. I didn't mean too but I couldn't stop. The pleasure was taking over. My body wasn't listening to me anymore.

Derin: You like it?

I nodded shyly. I don't even think I could take him right now. I was satisfied already.

Derin: Your face is red.

Cecilia: Don't tease me.

I said covering my face with the pillow. I feel my legs separating. I looked to see him smilling down at me, I was hoping it wasn't Roberto. Soon I seen him I relaxed up wanting him to take me. I could love him. Will see.

Derin: Ready

Cecilia: Wait.

I took off the ring. I wasn't going to make the same mistake twice.

Derin: Did I hurt you last time?

Aws he cares.

Cecilia: No haha just a good sore.

Derin: Am glad

I felt every inch as he insert me. I was already sensitive from Cuming so much from his mouth play. It was soo hot. I couldn't breathe why was it so hot in here.

Cecilia: Ahh papi wait.. Ahh I...hmm. I can't come no more.

He ignored me, leaning in and kiss me pulling out.. I could finally breathe.

Cecilia: Ha did you.

Derin: Yeah. Hold on let me Change the condom.

Wait he could do more? Am glad I took the ring off. His stamina is off the chart.

Derin: Come here..

I nodded "no" I put my hair to the side. I wanted some time, My p*ssy was throbing. I open my mouth taking him in like he was my religion. Devoted to him and only him. I tasted his juice. He gets me soo hot. He looked so sexy even when his eyes rolling in the back Of his head. He started to twitched I know he was close, I went faster. He pulled out my mouth? Why? He tried to pull from me. I grabed it as it fell on my face and breast. I message it on my breast like it's my own personal lotion.

Derin: Your so f*cking sexy come here.

He got me and put my face down ass up. I couldn't push him back from going all the way in. He put another condom on as he got back inside me. Holding my waist. His thump was right on my dimples.

Cecilia: Ay.... hmmmm.... how... you fit everywhere... I love your d*ck so much. Am cumming please. Ahhhhh f*ck... right there!!!

Dering: Ahhh

He was going straight up now. It's like He was unexploring new territory. I didn't know sex can feel this good...

Cecilia: Tell me am who you want?

He wrapped my braids. Pulling my face next to him. Arching my back getting deeper

Cecilia: Ahhh your soo deep

Derin: Your who I want

Him just saying that made me cum one more time. I felt so relaxed like the problems of the world didn't exist. After a few he came. He pushed more in me when he came. Everything about him was so sexy.

Cecilia: 4 hours huh?

Derin: We could go longer if you want. But today I was a little tired sorry

What? He could go longer?

Cecilia: Haha where is your bathroom?

I walked to the bathroom.. I locked the door behind me. I was beyond sore. I walked in just in time, My legs gave up on me. I crawled to the shower, turn the water to warm. I had to stay in there for a while. When I regain strength. I took a shower and head out. He was asleep on the bed.

Cecilia: Thanks for the talk.

I leaned in and kissed his forehead.

I got dressed. I couldn't wear my heels. My leg strength may have come back but my P*ssy was so sore. My abdomen was sensitive. When I made it home. I was exhausted. I took off my clothes. I fell asleep.

##Joana##

"Joana your life may be falling apart without Derin but if it's one thing you do well is your job" I said looking at myself in the mirror trying to not look like the love of my life wants nothing to do with me. After thinking about it I decided to take the Other firm offer.

I kissed my babies. I walked outside to Derin. He still look so handsome. Sigh He looks happy Maybe he was happier without me.

Joana: Hey

Derin: What's up

Joana: I am starting a new job.

Derin: Thats good. Good luck

He said buckling the babies. He didn't even ask me what was I taking about? He never stepped in the house. Sigh.

I wiped my eyes and headed to my car to go to work. I walked into this big glass building. I was instructed to go the last office. When I arrived the assistance was soo nice she showed me the office. It was breath taking, so spacy, big enough to fit a six chair table inside of it. My chair was white with silver outline.

Lawford: They gave you the big office?

He said insulting me infront of his peers, Walking inside my office with 5 people

Lawford: I wonder who you had to suck to get this decision.

Joana: Hmm education. I F*ck the shit out of knowledge. It's funny cause you got bend over by life in the worst way and you still lost to me. Go play with your cum. Don't play with me. Get out of my office!

He got upset and walked away. I poke my head out the door and screamed

Joana: I won again lawford.

Walking back in my office the assistance informed me the 9:30 meeting was starting. I walked into the marble floor long white table with white chairs office, Lawford was there with his sheep's. I wonder who we were waiting for? The hire manager was talking about how important this person was. I wanted them to finish so could finish setting up. Then I seen Arthur coming in. The one I spend time with in Hawaii. The hiring manager was explaining this was his firm. I heard nothing else. When the meeting was over I huried up to my office to catch my breath. I didnt want to come out "Oh God this is not good. Who could I call?".. I thought

Derin: Hey

Joana: I did something stupid

Derin: What?

Joana: Remember the guy in Hawaii

Derin: Sigh yeah

Joana: His my new boss. This is not good.

Derin: Hahah look at God.

Joana: Babe. I mean Derin I don't think I should keep this job.

Derin: You will be okay. Take it one day at a time.

Joana: Oh God

Derin: You'll be fine. If anything Just keep me posted..

Joana: Thank you. Bye

"I heard a knock on my door. Everyone already got their psychological evaluation. It's your turn boss"

My assistant said respectfuly. I made my way to this weird middle age woman. Her room had a long couch, decorated with calming colors, She sat on a office chair. She point to the couch. I nodded and took a seat

Counselor: How are you doing?

Joana: Good.

Counselor: Do you have anything in your life that would distract you from performing your best?

Joana: No

Counselor: Lets see

She ask me normal questions about me and my family. She made me very comfortable. After a few hours later. She informed me. I can't do any cases yet, And that she needs to talk to Derin. "Ugh this sucks."

I grab my stuff and head home. Derin was infront of the house by his car. I parked my car and walked to him.

Derin: First day huh?

Joana: So I need you tomorow

Derin: Why?

Joana: Counseling

Derin: Joana please

Joana: I can't do any cases until am clear from this Counselor lady

Derin: I don't do shrinks

Joana: I'll owe you something.

Derin: Anything I want?

Joana: Yes promise.

Derin: Alright.

##Cecilia##

I had plans with Derin today. I hope he didn't see how am walking funy. We been dating for a month now. 9 more months. I can't wait for us to properly go out like a normal couple. To kiss me in public. Because of our situation we been keeping it on the hush. I got ready to go when my husband came home. Ugh his annoying.

Roberto: Where you going?

Cecilia: I have a date.

Roberto: What?

Cecilia: Contract never said exclusiveness. If you could have 7 wife's. I could go to one movie date.

Roberto: Sigh, Very well; regardless how tired you are am still getting mine.

Cecilia: I need your word

Roberto: On what?

Cecilia: No harm with come to him. Even if you find out who?

Roberto: You have my word. Who is it?

Cecilia: Derin

Roberto: Guy from golf?

Cecilia: Yeah, I really like him

Roberto: Didn't his wife kicked him out because he cheated?

Cecilia: We never did anything until they were done. Am so nervous

Roberto: You look happy

Cecilia: I am

Without realizing what it might be doing to Robertos heart.

Roberto: Come let's talk

He said as he point to the seat next to him.

Roberto: I found this young vibrant girl, She is willing to take your place. I need you to sign these papers.

Cecilia: Um sure let me read them I'll hand it to you by the end of this week

Roberto: I leave in 1 week.

I hurried to Joana house. Hopefully Derin didn't tell her yet. She huged me upon opening the door. I walked inside.

Cecilia: Can you look over this for me please? It's surpose to be my divorce agreement.

Joana: These forms says you come here illegaly and that you force him into marriage.

Cecelia: What?

Joana: Here let's draw new one.

I told her I wanted a divorce he could keep everything he have I just want the house and 5 million to get my life started.

Joana: Done and done. Just have him sign and I will file these for you.

Cecilia.: Thank you.

I ran back home pretending my happiness got the best of me. And I signed. Telling him I want him to sign as well infront of me. I made him a copy keeping the original.

Cecilia: Ahhh

I screamed

Cecilia: Am free to go home To my family!

I pretended I was leaving to go to Derin and I went to Joana house, she grabed them for me saying she will file them tomorow. I got in my car and went to Derins

Derin: Hey.

He said as he open the door.

Derin: You look happy.

Cecilia: Yup

Derin: Well tomorow am going to counseling with Joana..

"Wait what?" But he said "I was his?" What if they work it out how will I tell my heart?

For the rest of the evening we talked. I was lost in thoughts but trying to hear the beginning and the ending of the conversation to have a valid response

I left early telling him I left my husband home. We will talk some other time. He kissed me and I left.

##Joana##

Babe and I are going to counseling. I know I said it was relating work but I hope we get a little closer. It was getting hard to look away from him. My home wasn't a home anymore without him. We have these beautiful children I should of known he wouldn't betray us.

I heard him honking outside. I knew he wouldn't step foot in this house after how I put him out. I love him so much I hope he loves me enough to work this out with me.

Joana: Hey

I said locking the door behind me. He was standing there with a black and white suite. He look soo handsome. He just don't know how much I love him. I would retrieve the moon If he asked me. Swim in dangerous waters, Reject heaven if that would part us. "Oh God how do I fix it?"

Derin: Am driving?

"You could do what ever you want as long as it's with me" I thought

Joana: Sure.

I got in his clean car smelling baby fresh, I laughed, I dont know where he gets these air fresher from haha

Derin: What?

His smile could light up any room.

Joana: Where do you get these air freshener?

Derin: Haha where I use to live. There is this old lady that makes them.

Joana: You drive all that way?

Derin: Yes. She looked after me a couple of time when my Dad use to beat on my mom.

Joana: Oh.

I met him after his mom left them I didn't know. That's why he hated violence am soo stupid.

Derin: I would buy for 200 and pay her 1000 to keep her business open.

Joana: Your kind.

Derin: Nope, I buy from her. zip still expect quality items haha

Joana: Yeah. haha

Sigh, how I long for just one kiss. I wonder have he been staying to himself like he did in high school?

Have he change, Did he laugh the same? I wonder if he missed me like I've been dying without him.

Derin: Joana where do I park?

Joana: The one with my name.

He didn't call me Nana anymore. Sigh He was so mad. We parked and everyone looked at us. Wondering if he was important. Arthur was pulling up as well.

Joana: Don't look but that's him from Hawaii.

I said hiding behind him. Derin was taller than me. He was skinny but toned so hiding behind him was easy. I heard his chuckled turn to a full laughed.

Derin: You cheated on me with invisible hulk over there hahah

Hearing him laugh was like light in my darkness. He was soo handsome, He is the only one in the whole world I can't live without. I wonder if he sees that.

Derin: You staring at me. Ahem...Okay don't be mad. It just I expected someone else. Haha let's go man.

He was leading he don't even know where he is going. I seen Arthur staring at us.

Derin: I bet he gone come over and introduce himself If you meant anything to him.

Joana: I don't, it was just a one night stand. I just wanted to feel better.

He stop smilling and he looked at me. Before he said something Arthur came

Arthur: Hey am Arthur, Your..

Derin: Her husband

Arthur: Oh

Derin: Your her..?

Arthur: Sorry, Yes her boss.

His so stupid to slap that "am his wife infront of Arthur" to see his reaction. I took the time to hand the paper work for Cecilia to my assistant, explaining these needs to be filled today. It's important.

Joana: Am trying to get the clear from the Counselor, So another time perhaps?

Arthur: Another time another place

Ugh the nerves of some people. Was he really throwing Hawaii back in Derin face.

Derin: Most definitely, you know where better decisions are made.

Derin was getting pulled in. Why was he telling Arthur he was a bad decision. I love that he still tried to defend me but we had to get going.

Joana: Great you all got acquainted. Let's go Derin

Derin: Okay joana.

Arthur hearing him call me by my name; not something romantic made him smile, In his mind he knew we didn't look as we seemed. Sigh

Derin: He cares for you.. awes

He said teasing me as we walked in greeting the Counselor.

Counselor: Take a seat please

Joana: Hi this is Derin

Counselor: The husband huh?

Derin: Thats what they call me.

He said walking over to the couch and siting. He had this presence.

Counselor: Tell me a little about you?

Derin: Haha okay

He said sarcastically. It was a very emotional session, He talked about growing up. How his dad treated his mother, The mother leaving him. How we met. He didn't leave anything out. When he explain how he felt with me slapping him that night, I cried. I didn't know how much trauma I had caused Him. Then I realized how intrusive I have been by not giving him his space. He was a very sensitive guy; who knew? He talked about life after that and me hitting him and him having to get stitches. I didn't know I made him bleed. "I don't deserve forgiveness" I thought. I realize how my actions was result of anger. I didn't need to treat him the way I did. He was trying in his own way.

Counselor: Would you ever live in the house again

Derin: Um no I wouldn't step foot in that house.

Couselor: Why?

Derin: Oh oh because I wouldn't

Counselor: You ever realized that the reason you haven't forgived your wife for the violence is because forgiving her would mean forgiving your dad?

Derin: Hmmm

Counselor: Are you in any romance with anyone right now.

Derin: Yeah

What? He was dating again? I can't blame him, I don't deserve forgiveness based on how I treated him. Why was I the only one crying

Joana: If we would buy a new place to live would you move back in?

Counselor: I think what your wife is trying to say is "She misses you alot, The house is just a house when you not in it."

Derin: Haha you think that's what she is trying to say?

He was ridiculing the Counselor.

Joana: She's right. I missed you so much, I wake up at night searching for you, I know what I did shouldn't be forgiving, I've hurt you when that wasn't my intention.

Then the Counselor ask him "why was it so important that night?" he explain "how him and Cecilia would kiss and he would stop it of course because he didn't want to hurt me. He chose to come home because love should of brought him home." I had to get up from the session and just gather my thoughts. If he had told me of the temptation I would of made love to him that night until sunrised, if he would just tell me. Why didn't he tell me? He didn't have to be strong by himself I was right there! After a while The Counselor came and brought me back inside.

Joana: Are you willing to try again or is that it? Are we getting a divorce?

Counselor: If you was really done, Divorced would of been your first step. People that don't want to be in something will always run away the first chance they get. But even talking to you, You never once mention that in our 4 hours of conversation.

Derin: I can't just brake off what I got going on with the other person

Joana: Who are you dating?

Derin: Cecilia

My heart just sunk, I know I pushed him in her arms. Keisha was right in some aspect but I can't blame them It was my fault. What could I do? Sigh am not giving up, his my husband, my best friend, my only true love.

Joana: Fine. Then you'll date the both of us

Derin: What?

Joana: I am not ready to let us go yet. Not if I feel like I didn't give it my best.

Derin: What if me and Cecilia works out?

Joana: I process her divorce paper today. So if..

I said as tears roll down my eyes

Joana: If she stays in your life am prepared to accept her in mine. I don't want you to leave me. Am okay with just a little bit of you. I'll look into new properties, I'll send them to you, you could make the final decision on them.

I know he was going to say no. I don't want him to ruined my last chance. I grab my stuff and thanked the lady. I realize I wasn't ready to go in the field. Before heading out he shouted.

Derin: You would come from being a wife to a side chick?

Letting me know who's his priority.

Joana: I just want you, I don't care the condition.

I said walking to my office Holding tears back, I got in my office. I closed the curtains and closed the door. My soul cried. My eyes was just reflecting Water of our history. Each memory I thought of Brought out a pain I thought I forgot But this Time the one to blame was Me. I put my head down on my desk and my door open unexpectedly.

Arthur: Do you want to shadow

Why was he here?

Arthur: Tomorow come by my office

I didn't respond again. Can't he see me Drowning in my sorrow. Just let me die like this. Please just go away. If God would just take me right here, to save me from the embarrassment of being a side chick I would praise him always. I loved Derin soo much. I would do anything for him. Even put down my pride to see if he would find Joy in me again.