World Fallen

##Joana##

Joana: My husband took his girlfriend to Brazil for an 2 weeks get away

Counselor: How does that make you feel?

Joana: Like it's time I start doing cases again.

After that awkward night with my boss trying to hit on me while insulting me I figured I should give "me" a 100 percent. I deserve that. Derin was doing what's best for him, Maybe prayers don't work for everything haha I wouldn't be surprised when he comes back to hand me divorce papers saying he married Cecilia in Brazil.

Counselor: Mrs. Phanor please you called this session, I thought you was ready to talk, But silence? like I said before will not help you here.

Joana: It's um... actually its Ms Jean and um yeah.. no.. your right um.

Counselor: Why Jean and not Phanor

Joana: Am pretty sure am a Divorcee when he gets back.

Counselor: Why?

Joana: I love the player, surprisingly I love the game too. I've love one man, His my first in alot of things.

Counselor: Okay. Are you angry of the outcome?

Joana: Before I was; how can I give him so much yet he rewards me with so little? Beeing a wife I thought I had to keep our kids safe, happy, keep his dick happy and full, make sure he gets good meals. Um I think I was wrong?

Counselor: Wrong?

Joana: Everytime we get together another woman steal him from me. Maybe...

Counselor: Alright back up start from the beginning.

Joana: In high school I wanted to be the best dancer ever lived.

Counselor: You had personal goals go on.

Joana: I use to focus on what I want. I didn't take no as an answer; I believe there were several doors to one request so if this door is a no go than I would try another.

I got up from the couch walking back and forth around her small office.

Counselor: Now?

Joana: I use to fight alot. That's how me and my best friend came to be. Since I seen him, I tried to not look like I was interested but he was the only one that I saw around school. When He finally came right and stop playing these little games I went for it. Stupid! I know.

Counselor: He took your breath away okay.. Continue

Joana: He would critize me and my dance moves, So knowing me I taught myself how to be immune to his pitch and charm, I can't be One of his victims. Man I fought so many battles for him. Girls would walk up to me wanting to fight because I was dealing with him.

Counselor: Okay.

Joana: Yeah, I fought alot. But he don't seem to fight for me at all. Am always on his term. I am too old to be fighting for a man who obviously don't want to be kept. I exaggerated when I thought he cheated on me again. Even went as far as sleeping with my boss.

Counselor: Oh ahem..

Joana: Don't judge me I was on a boat I didn't Know who we was so we had an one night stand to make me feel wanted and sexy. He wasn't even that great but he was my escape for a while. Than I get a new job and guess who's my boss? My life!

Joana: Maybe I've always push him in another girl's arm?

Counselor: To deal with someone else while you have unfinished business with another is their choice you cannot influence that whatsoever.

Joana: Hmm Well I told him that's fine if he gets a Girlfriend I'll be his secondary girlfriend

Counselor: His mistress in relation But legaly his wife? That's a interesting approach, Why?

Joana: I didn't want to let him go. His my adorable twins father. My one true love, I don't see me being here without him. He agreed telling me am not his priority

Counselor: Hmm how does that make you feel?

Joana: As retarded as its going to sound.

Counselor: Haha try me

Joana: Hopeful for the future. Ahhh I know stupid. My mom ask him to return me to her care, Making me go to these religious gathering still no change, Now his millions miles away from me, Its my fault for how I behave I know that but everyone have their flaws, I can't make him remember us, Counselor I can't reach him. My love can't make him forgive me for that night I threw his keys braking his nose, God all of our neighbors was watching.

Counselor: Sounds like you were doing what you do best. Fight to stay alive. Why is it important to return to work?

Joana: I'll be doing this for me not for him. I am strong when I fight for myself. I can't fight for someone who won't get in the ring with me.

Counselor: That's our time.

She said getting sheets of paper signing it.

Joana: Um same time tomorow?

Counselor: No, Your damage far beyond what I thought. Am passing you over to my partner, But your not a danger to the company. Am interesting to see how you fight for our firm Ms. Jean.

Joana: Hahah thank you!

I grab both paper bringing them to where she instructed me to bring them to, Leaving the office today I feel like my life is back on track. I gotta do this for me. Derin don't want any part of me and I should accept that. Haha we were kids when we made these promises to eachother, am glad he married me but we are kidding ourself, boy don't want to settle down. Maybe Cecilia will have better luck.

The next few days was hectic, The meetings was annoyingly long. Lawford was still mad at me for the lost he took with the officer. Noone entrusted me with cases it aggrevated me. I didn't spill my gut to this Counselor for me to end up with no case? Today Arthur my boss is excited to be introducing a new member on the team. He was this Caramel looking black man. Nice cup of coffee with pure white milk mixed. I heard nothing else my imagination ran wild with dirty thoughts haha am spending too much time with Keisha.

Arthur: We have one case left

Joana: Wait I want it.

Lawford hearing how desperate I sounded started to laugh under his breath ugh

Arthur: Yes you are clear right?

Joana: Yes, I haven't worked any cases.

Arthur: I was going to give this to Andrew and you can partner up with Me on my case.

Ugh I don't want that

Joana: If it's okay with you, I prefer to do..

Arthur: Are you denying a opportunity to learn from one of the great?

He don't offer working with individuals often thus everyone blown away, But I know it's because he wants to fuck me again.

Joana: I learn so much on my few days of hired, I wanted a chance to show you what I've learn.

He smiled rubbing his chin, I doubt he was thinking about work when I said "Showing him what I've learned" God we spend a whole day enjoying eachother this is horrible.

Andrew: Okay may I tag along?

He said ending the debate between Arthur and I

Arthur: Is that what you want?

Joana: I don't want any special treatment, Let me pull my own weight and win the respect of my coworkers.

Lawford: Good luck

Joana: Lawford your starting to really.. How do you say? Oh.. yeah

Arthur: Alright Noone of that. Joana do you know what this case consist of?

Joana: Um no

Arthur: Landlord evicting his client. While mine is nailing a racist judge to the wire.

Lawford: Why wouldn't you pick The one with the boss you know it gotta have more weight to it.

Decisions, Decisions!

Joana: I picked just fine thank you.

I receive my case, Andrew followed me to my office. My office Was regular I suppose, Desk, two chair for guest. One comfortable chair for me

Andrew: So this is you?

Joana: Sigh let's get started

Andrew: Not much for small talk huh?

Joana: Am sorry, am just excited

Andrew: I get it. What do you want me to do?

Joana: First let's take a look at the case details

Andrew: Sure

He pulled a seat next to me. Oh God Why this man smell so good?

##Derin##

It's been a week and a half, So far her family really don't like black people. The mom was super rude.

Am At this barbecue in her backyard. Her aunties was there eating, Am pretty sure she's talking shit about the one black guy. Cecilia stood up for me but I wasn't bothered. When all the food was prepared her mother brought a table with chairs for everyone to enjoy. The food smelled delicious but I didn't want to seem too hungry, I waited for everyone to grab what they want.

Cecilia mom: What's wrong? You don't like food without grease?

Cecilia: Ma?

Cecilia mom: What did I say?

Brother: Ma stop, its going on 2 weeks now let them be happy

Most of Cecilia family looks like her, Nice tan skin, Small but perky lips, nice thick hair, full eyebrows. The mom cut off my appetite. Her Aunty was the rudest of them all.

Aunty: Hey so how is it being black?

Derin: Same way it feels being Brazilian am sure

Aunty: You don't got to be rude. For the record am Salvadoran

Derin: Oh

The night was going great as you can see. There was this guy that came in Long, skinny, button up shirt looking like a real gentleman, The whole family rushed hugging and kissing him. Cecilia looked flustered I wonder who is it?

David: Oh my Cecilia how have you been?

He said handing her a bouquet of flowers of different colors

Cecilia: David?

She told me that was her fiance before her ex husband took her to America. "This night is going so well I can't believe it" I sarcastically thought.

David: Your aunty told me about you starting a business Here, I have a couple of real-estate I could show you in good location

Wait what? We never discuss moving here!

Derin: Babe your moving here?

Cecilia mom: Yeah of course. We are her family

Derin: Babe?

Ignoring the mother.

Cecilia: Yeah babe I'll be setting up things here. This isn't a bad place to raise a family you know.

Derin: Cece I got Joane and Derin Jr to think about

Cecilia: I know but they can come visit you here with me.

Cecilia mom: Wait his a baby daddy too? that's rich.

Brother: Ma

Cecilia mom: Oh come on I didn't Accuse him of doing drugs

Oh wow

Cecilia mom: Let's address the elephant in the room. Cecelia are you trying to marry... this... man or keeping your options open? Plus your ex husband was so nice, He checked on us everytime his here to make sure we are okay, You love letting good ones go to pick up garbage

Cecilia: Mom

Cecilia mom: You need to go back to your husband instead of embarrassing yourself with this boy here.

Derin: Alright thank you always for dinner I think I'll call it a night.

Brother: Mom why would you say all that?

Cecilia mom: Someone should say it. She's wasting her time with that boy.

Derin: Quick question, If me and your lovely daughter would give you grand children would you..

Cecilia mom: Let's pray they take after their mother I don't know what I'll say to the public if they came

Derin: Came out black. Um thank you have a good Night

The brother got outrage and stood up to better express his self.

Cecilia Brother: Cecilia have been getting rape by her so called husband because of me. His a drug lord, I owe him some money, he took Cecelia cause She's good in bed as a form of repayment. Then she met him who helped her feel loved and respected. He was married before but that ended. He have a great job making her ex husband kind of money. Yet he never disrespected you even though you clearly disrespect him. Mom your wrong for that. That's all am saying come on I'll drive you back to the hotel Derin.

"Same amount of money as her ex" haha that's a little too far pitch my Boi but I understand what his trying to say.. We drove to the hotel after picking up some fast food, man I was hungry. Cecelia stayed to Catch up with David I told her I didn't mind but I did mind. When I exist a place for disrespect so should she. It's Past midnight I heard her coming in laughing and carrying on with David

Cecilia: Tomorow we can check some local places good night

David: You don't know how good it felt seeing you again.

Cecilia: Yeah yeah we will talk another time.

She walked in the room where I was laying in bed flipping through spanish Chanels.