Who is my first love?
First thing in the morning, I got up and cleaned my room. I opened my window and looked if Elizabeth was up, but her curtains was covering her window… I check my phone to see if she replied, but no answer.
I tried not to think about it too much, so I continued with my chores. I went downstairs and helped my mom with laundry. I then heard Elizabeth's motorcycle, I look outside the window, and I see her putting her helmet on… She's really not coming over. It upsets me so much, as soon as I finished laundry, I went up to my room and laid on my bed. She's making me angry… and I don't know why she's ignoring me. While I was lost in my thought, I fell asleep.
A few hours later, it was the afternoon. First thing I do was check my phone. Still no reply from Elizabeth, but I did get a message from Alfons.
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Alfons: hey, was wondering if you wanna go get dinner with me tonight?
Kendall: sure, and sorry for the late reply, i was napping.
Alfons: no worries, pick you up at 7?
Kendall: alright
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It kept bugging me that Elizabeth hasn't replied yet... Then it was 7 pm, I got ready and waited for Alfons outside of my house. He arrived and picked me up.
"You look amazing." Alfons said as he opened the door on his car for me.
I gave him a smile and spoke. "You don't look too bad either." I got in the car and we both sat in silence.
"So how was your day?" He asked to break the silence.
"It was alright, I guess... Just did some chores and took a nap. What about you?" I asked to keep the conversation going.
"It was decent, would've been better if we hanged out. I missed you." He replied grinning while driving.
I didn't hear half of what he said. My head was still thinking of Elizabeth. It doesn't feel right that I'm out here spending time with Alfons when I should be trying to talk to Elizabeth. I want to know why she's ignoring me! It was silent the rest of the ride.
We both arrived in the restaurant. We sat down and Alfons being a gentlemen as ever... He's cute but the whole time we were together, all I could think of was Elizabeth. I couldn't get her off my mind.
Alfons tried to get my attention, "Are you okay?" he asked while he waved his hand to me.
I nodded in response. "Yeah, I'm okay. Sorry."
"Don't apologize. Just worried about you." He said as he held my hand.
When he held my hand, I didn't feel anything. I got confused but I ignored it. Then the way he looked at me, I felt like he was just a friend to me... Like a lil brother?... I don't know... Why is my view of him changed all of a sudden- I would be blushing and going crazy by now, with just the smallest things he does... but no... it feels so different now... Yet I continued to ignore it.
We both then ordered our food.
We talked about Italy and where he's from, talked about food, cars, planes, then his family and friends back home. It's nice listening to him talk about things he enjoys and how he admires his family and friends. But I realized that we both barely got anything in common. He doesn't like books, he doesn't enjoy watching movies, he doesn't like tiramisu or ice cream... he doesn't like any sweets at all and in general he just doesn't like anything that I like... He likes outdoors, hiking, sports. He likes to go to the gym and hang with his family and friends a lot. He seems like a real family guy. Do we need to have stuff in common? Alfons is a nice guy... He's mean at times but a huge softie. He's cute but I can't picture doing anything I enjoy with him; I mean he seems like he would try to do stuff I would enjoy but he'd rather go out and be one with nature, which is not a bad thing. He seems like the spontaneous type of guy. Loves to go on adventures, outdoor stuff and sports. He's every girl's dream guy. But is he mines? He's attractive. He made my heartbeat at times, but right now... It seems like I don't feel the same as I did when we met.
The thoughts go through my mind the whole time. We had a good time talking. But we mostly talked about him. I would've preferred talking about books, or animals even... It felt like I did not have much input from the things we talked about either. He just kept talking about himself. When I try to talk about myself, my family or friends, he would always interrupt me and change the subject. I did not expect this from him. I don't know if he's just acting this way because I wasn't talking the whole time... But even if I am paying attention and actually tried to talk, he would still try put the spotlight towards him...
Alfons seems like he's grinning and looks like he's having loads of fun. But I'm not... I'm glad that he is, but I don't think I'm the right person for him... I enjoyed listening to what he has to say but I want to talk about things I like too... I do love to listen to what people has to say, but I also want to have input in conversations... I then remember the times and conversations with Elizabeth... How I always enjoy talking to her, how she listens to me and how I listen to her. How I pay more attention to what she has to say and how she does the same to me... With Alfons, there's a lot of "Buts", however with Elizabeth... I want to talk to her all the time. Even in this specific moment...
We finished dinner and Alfons drove me back home.
We arrived and we both got out of the car.
"I had loads of fun tonight." Alfons said as he smiled.
"Glad that you did." I replied.
He suddenly leaned close and whispered, "I hope we can do this again." he grinned and waited for me to say something.
This action would have made me blush... But I don't feel anything.
He leaned closer, "Can I kiss you?" he asked.
I was shaken. "No, Alfons, I'm sorry. I don't want to hurt you, but I have to tell you something. I don't like you that way." I said as I push him away slowly. "I see you more of a friend. Sorry."
I can see that he's disappointed. He sighed and said, "That's totally fine... Sorry if I made you feel uncomfortable."
"It's alright. I'm sorry I can't reciprocate your feelings. But I know there's someone out there for you. You're a nice guy and you're very attractive but with the conversation we had and your interest, we have nothing in common." I said feeling sorry.
"What do you mean?" He asked confused.
"What's my favorite ice cream flavor?" I asked him, "I know that yours is chocolate." and waited for his reply.
He stood there for a minute, trying to think of what to say, "Strawberry?" he said as he plays with his hair.
I shook my head, "No... It's Peanut Butter Crunch." I said and looked at him.
"I didn't know... Sorry." He said looking down.
"You wouldn't know because you haven't asked me earlier..." I said, "You were mostly talking about yourself..." I looked at him while I take a deep breath.
"I did? I'm sorry, I didn't realize." He said while fidgeting with his hands. "I want to get to know you... Give me another chance?"
I sighed softly, "I would still like to be friends with you though. I enjoyed getting to know you. But I'm sure about how I feel. I can't give you another chance knowing that I've already made a choice." I said as I look at him seriously.
"You like her, don't you?" He asked with a sad voice.
"I do... and that won't change." I said while looking at the sky.
He gave me a faint smile, "As long as I can be part of your life, I'll try my best to be a good friend to you. But I need some space for now." he gave me a pat on the shoulder, "I'll see you around." then he got inside his car and drove away.
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I waited outside for a lil bit more to get some fresh air.
I then see Elizabeth arriving. We both looked at each other.
"Hey-" I said to get the chance to talk to her, but she ignored me. It was the last straw, and I can't let her ignore me anymore. I went to her and grabbed her hand. "Why are you ignoring me..." I said as I feel my eyes tearing up.
She doesn't say anything for a minute. But she stayed.
"It's bothering me so much that you're ignoring me..." I said... Then let go of her hand. "I'm confused... Stop ignoring me."
She looked at me and started talking, "I tried not to get my feelings get the best of me. But I can't... I don't think you'd feel the same as I feel. I just can't be a friend to you... You and Alfons look great together. I'll just stay away from now on." then she looked away from me.
"You haven't even asked me how I feel..." I said with a stern voice. "This is totally unfair. You're so mean." My tears started to fall. "Who said that I wouldn't feel the same... You're so unfair..."
Elizabeth finally looks at me. "What do you mean?"
"You don't know how I feel because you haven't asked me. You're just assuming how I feel... and you ignored me... because what? I apparently don't feel the same way?" I said crying.
Her eyes widen, "Sorry..." she got closer to me and gave me a hug to comfort me... "I just thought that you thought of me as a friend... and I saw how you and Alfons look good together... I panicked and felt like a wall between you two..."
My heart skipped a beat when she hugged me... This is where I realized that it's Elizabeth... It's her from the beginning. I gave her a squeeze on her cheeks. "Stop... Why don't you ask me how I feel."
She tilted her head from confusion, but she then started to ask. "How do you fe-"
Before she could finish her question, I said, "I like you too Elizabeth. You dummy, you idiot, you weirdo... I've liked you from the beginning, ever since we've met. And I cannot think of going through a day without you. Not seeing you or talking to you will make me go crazy. You ignored me and that was really mean! But I can't get mad at you because I missed you. You literal idiot! I can't forgive you for ignoring me though... So, you owe me. You have to make it up to me!" tears fell off my face and I buried my face unto her and hugged her tightly. "It's you all a long..." I mumbled while my face buried unto her.
I can feel her hug me back tightly... She then caressed my face and we looked at each other. "I like you a lot... More than a lot, and I couldn't bear to lose you... I apologize for ignoring you. I didn't mean to hurt you... I will totally make it up to you." She smiles at me with her crying eyes.
I started laughing, "geez such a crybaby" I said.
She started laughing. "Look who's talking!"
I smiled and placed both of my hands on her cheeks. I started squeezing her cheeks. "I'm still not forgiving you." I said with a pouty face.
She chuckles, "What can I do so that you'll forgive me?" she asked and patted my head.
"You think of that." I said and teasingly showed her my tongue.
She suddenly leaned closer to me... My face blushes and I feel warm.
"How about..." she didn't finish her sentence and gave me a small peck on the cheek. I froze and felt my whole body warming up... She smirked and gave me another peck on the other side of my cheek... "Will that suffice? Or am I missing something else?" She whispered in my ear... My face fully red like a cherry tomato...
"You're teasing me now..." I said blushing and pouting... I gave her a peck on her cheek back. "You play unfair. Goodnight!" I said and ran inside my house.
I can hear her chuckle... My heart pounding like it was ready to explode...
I took a few minutes to catch my breath... I head up to my room and changed to my sleepwear then got ready for bed.
*DING*
A message from Elizabeth.
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Elizabeth: are you asleep? :3
Kendall: zzzzzzzzz
Elizabeth: huhhh? wake up... :c
Kendall: haha whattttt
Elizabeth: hehe, just wanted to ask if you want to go out somewhere tomorrow? on a date?
Kendall: are you asking me on a date? you're cute :p
Elizabeth: is that a yes or no? :))
Kendall: hmmm. gotta think about it :p
Elizabeth: *puppy eyes emoji* pwease?
Kendall: i- pwease? haha
Elizabeth: yes pweaseee :3
Kendall: haha fineeee~
Elizabeth: yay! alright, I'll see ya tomorrow at 8?
Kendall: sounds good <3
Elizabeth: hehe... <3
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SHE'S SO CUTE....
I fell asleep peacefully. I woke up early because of excitement. I got up and started to scavenge my wardrobe for clothes to wear... Should I wear a dress? Or should I put on this cute shirt and shorts... what does Elizabeth will like... I wanna look cute for her...
20 minutes later... I decided to wear the cute shirt and shorts... I hope she'll like it...
I then headed down. I had 10 more minutes to spare. I sat down on the couch as I wait. My mom then came towards me.
"Going on a date? Who's the lucky person?" She asked with a smug face.
"Yes... and it's with Elizabeth..." I said and smiled proudly.
My mom looks delighted and smiles, she then nodded of approval.
Just thinking of going on a date with Elizabeth makes me blush and jump around like a small child... The doorbell then rings. I went and opened the door, it was Elizabeth, with a bouquet of beautiful flowers.
"Hey..." She said and smiled, "these are for you." she handed me the flowers shyly.
"You are the cutest..." I said out loud.
She blushes. I realized what I just said and blushed.
"Well then M'lady, are you ready?" She said as she extends her arm to me.
I smiled and grabbed her hand. "Yes I am..."
"You look amazing by the way." She said smiling happily.
I blushed hard... "You look amazing too!" I said shyly.
I set the bouquet by the table and headed outside to meet her. She held my hand as we walk to her motorcycle.
"Ready?" She asks as she grabs the helmet.
I nodded.
She gently put the helmet on my head and strapped it for me. I can see her smiling. All I can think about is how cute she is right now and how she makes me smile too.
We drove on her motorcycle. I can feel the wind blowing through us. I held unto her tightly.
We arrived at a beautiful garden over by the park. When we arrived, I see there was a picnic blanket, a basket filled with fresh baked pastries, a stack of books, drinks and good snacks.
"Surprise..." She said and smiled shyly. "Not sure if this is your ideal date..."
Before she could continue her sentence, I immediately said, "This is literally my ideal date... How did you know?" I smiled from ear to ear.
I can see her smile proudly. She led me to the picnic spot, and we sat down.
She prepared so much...
"I freshly baked some pastries for you. Not sure if you had breakfast yet, but I hope you enjoy." She said as she opened the basket. "I asked your mom what your favorite pastries were, and she said croissants... I'm not the best baker, but I tried." She lets out a small but nervous laugh.
I smiled and said, "I bet it's amazing." I took a bite of the croissant... and OMG it's amazing... I couldn't talk and continued eating the croissant.
She's looking at me smiling and giggling.
"What-" I said with a half-filled mouth.
She chuckles and reaches out to me and wiped my lips with her hand, "You're so cute." she said and poured me some fresh made coffee then gave it to me.
"Are you not going to eat?" I asked as I take a sip of the coffee.
She shook her head and spoke. "Later."
I pouted, I grabbed a croissant and try to feed her. "Say ahhh~"
She laughs, "I'm not a kid..." she said as she smiles at me.
"Hmmm... Come on~ Say ahhh~" I said again with a pouty face.
She chuckled, "Fine... ahhh~" she gently opens her mouth.
I gently fed her the croissant. "Good. It's the best croissant! Isn't it?" I said proudly and took a bite of the same croissant.
She blushes, "I'm glad you like the croissant." she said while trying to hide her smile.
I leaned close. "Are you hiding your smile???" I said and tilted my head to get a glimpse of her face.
I can see her cute blushing face. I suddenly blushed and pulled away.
We then spent the rest of the day reading books together. I couldn't help myself but stare at her as she read... She's so beautiful...
She noticed I was staring... I looked away instantly... I can hear her chuckle.
She continued to read... For some reason I want to get her attention... Hmm... Out of nowhere I suddenly moved closer to her. I suddenly laid down and placed my head on her lap... My face blushing really red... I tried to hide my face with the book I was reading...
She was surprised but she let me lay my head on her lap... She tried to get the book away from my face... "Tired?" She asked.
"Not really... I just wanted to lay down... Only soft thing I can think of placing my head is your lap..." I said shyly.
She chuckles, then she gently moved my hand. "Comfy?" She asked.
I nodded... I look up to her...
She caresses my face while she looks down to me. "You silly lil goober." She said.
"Huh? Lil goober?" I asked confused.
She laughs, "It's a cute nickname don't you think?" she continues to caress my face.
I blushed- "Lil goober??? What kind of nickname is that..." I asked... But to be honest. I did not mind it.
"You don't like it?" She asked while she looks at me.
I shook my head, "I don't mind it..." I blushed again.
She smiles, then she got back to reading her book.
I can get used to this... I continued to read my book as well.
It was such a peaceful and fun afternoon. We read books together, talked for hours about what we thought of every book we read. She teased me so much, but I also teased her for payback... It was such a fun afternoon with her. I ended up laying down on her lap the whole afternoon... It was so comfortable...
Before we head home, we decided to walk around the park for a bit. She smiled and gave me a pat on the head, "You're such a shortie."
"I-" I was speechless but we ended up laughing together. "You're just 2 inches taller than me!!!" I said and squeezed her cheeks.
She suddenly pulled me close to her. We were 3 inches apart... We had a solid eye contact... I couldn't look away, I feel my cheeks warm and red.
I wanted to kiss her... I really do-
We both leaned closer to each other, ready to kiss, until my phone rang. It was my mom calling. I answered it and I had to head home. "I need to head home now... My mom is asking me to help her fix the faucet." I said as I shook my head with my hand on my face.
She smiles at me and holds my hand. "I'll help too, if you need an assistant with the faucet. I don't wanna end the day just yet..."
We laughed and I nodded. I held unto her hand tightly.
To be continued~
End of Chapter 8!
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