Chapter 5

I was kissing him back, I was actually kissing the Yoruba demon back.

And it so wasn't just a normal kiss, it was a hot, steamy, I want more kind of kiss,his lips were devouring me, it was like we were battling with our lips, his tongue were dancing in me,he was touching me everywhere,I felt him everywhere.

The kiss didn't last for nearly as long as I wanted it to, cause sensible Ese woke up and just like that, the most amazing kiss ended.

My hands were on his chest and we were both breathing heavily,I looked around timidly to see if anyone saw what just happened, but apparently nobody did, they were all dancing and grinding away.

I went back to Seyi's eyes and he looked stunned and sounding breathless he said "Ese you're amazing"

I looked at him like he just called me a slut and said " I can't do this" and i stepped back and walked into the house.

I didn't turn to see how he reacted, I looked for a place to clear my head in the large house.

Considering the fact that I still had alcohol in my system and I was Eni's ride, I couldn't just go home, although that's all I wanted to do.

My heart was beating so fast that it felt like it could jump out at any moment.

I felt so ashamed, what did I just do,maybe this is why he did that to me,that was my fault as well.

While still trying to gather my thoughts Seyi walked into the room I found and said "you can't do this?,what does that mean?, I know you said we should take it slow but I like you, I really do and i know you do too, so just give us a chance let's see where this goes"

I was staring at him like I didn't hear a thing he said.

Seyi looked like he was trying to get how I was feeling through my facial expressions, but that was the thing,i didn't have any, i had an emotionless mask on.

"Ese?,okay I'm sorry I kissed you, I know we decided it was too soon and all,but Ese I couldn't help myself, I know that's not an excuse, but... " He stopped after realizing I wasn't even reacting,I just looked plain, no emotion,nothing.

"Ese please say something,just tell me what to do" He pleaded

I finally said it "I have to go, thanks for inviting us to the party" I looked at him with a drained expression and continued "And Seyi please just let me go"

I was about to walk away when he stopped me by saying"No,tell me what's wrong,this is more than what just happened,let me help you"

A tear slipped down my face "I'm I okay?.You said I was amazing" I repeated to myself "I'm amazing" I said again while another tear slipped down my face "that's exactly what he told me*you are amazing*".

I dropped down to floor and Seyi who was looking dumbfounded wanted to reach out to comfort me, I quickly pulled away.

I began talking about the worse experience in my life "After rape.. " I took in a deep shaky breath and continued "after raping me, he said I was amazing" more tears started dropping down.

Seyi looked so hurt,it made me feel worse,he was about to say something but I stopped him and said

"He was my teacher,my favorite one actually,he always made me feel safe and loved.My dad never made me feel that way,so I was glad i had a father figure even if he wasn't my dad,until that day.

I was left in school cause my driver couldn't make it and my dad was to pick me up but he didn't,i was only 12 "

I sobbed "I was only 12,he destroyed me and still said I was amazing"

Tears slipped down Seyi's face and then he said "I'm so sorry that happened to you, I'm so sorry, I'm so sorry I reminded you of that horrid experience,I'm so sorry I made you talk about it,that thing deserves to die the worse death.I'm sorry Ese "

I continued sobbing,I couldn't stop now,that's all I could think about.

"It was my fault,it was all my fault,I should have fought harder,i should have been okay without a father figure but no i was too weak,it's all my fault" I repeated over and over again on a loop.

Seyi closed the distance between us by hugging me so tightly,my head was now resting on his chest and I was sobbing into it as he whispered continuously " It's not your fault,it's not your fault,it's not your fault that he was a sadistic animal Ese, it wasn't your fault "

After sobbing for a very long time,I fell asleep out of exhaustion,on waking up I realized I was on a bed,i couldn't hear music anymore and it probably meant the party had ended.

Where was Seyi and Eni?

I stood up looking around the room, I was in a room painted grey, it was a little dark considering the only lighting in the room came from the big widow which brought in the moon light,the room had a multilevel ceiling, the floor tiles were so clear that it looked like I was standing on air, the queen sized bed was at the middle of the room,there was a small drawer at the right side of the bed,a shelf attached to the wall and a big wardrobe on the right side of the room and two doors, one obviously leading to the bathroom and the other leading outside the room.

I decided to go out of the room to find Eni,I was about to touch the door knob when the door opened and Seyi walked in.

"How are you feeling?, are you hungry or thirsty?, what should I get you? " He said looking at me with a worried look

"I'm kinda hungry and can I get something to drink?.Where is Eni?,

.Has the party ended?.What's the time? "

" The party ended some minutes ago,its 10am,Eni and Ray are downstairs making noodles, are you okay with coming down with me or should i bring the food up here" he said and apparently noticed that I looked worried so he said "and no I didn't tell her, just said you weren't feeling too well"

"Oh.." I said feeling relieved,I hate being reminded of it, Eni knowing will probably make things different, just like my relationship with Seyi is bound to be.

"I'll come down with you" I forced a smile.

"Thanks so much Seyi, sorry for dumping my sad life story on you and the stress I put you through today" I said timidly

"Don't think like that, you and I both know that's not how I feel,you give me anything but stress" Seyi said to me looking concerned.

As we walked down the stairs, I heard Eni and Ray laughing, when they saw me their bright faces were replaced with worry.

Eni rushed to my side and asked in a low tone " Are you okay? Seyi said you weren't feeling well"

I smiled weakling at her "yea I am, just really hungry"

I was happy with the excuse Seyi gave to them, I didn't have to act all happy or anything,cause apparently I'm under the weather,which felt nice right now.

Eni gave me a bright smile "I made very well garnished noodles, like it has everything"

I heard a laugh and realized it came from Ray "you mean WE made very well garnished noodles"

"Fine fine, you helped too" Eni teased

Well I guess Ray and Eni really hit it off.

We dished out the food, and went to the sitting room cause they decided it'll be fun if we ate while watching a movie, the guys wanted a horror movie, Eni wanted something romantic, I wanted something both parties could enjoy, so we decided on baby driver.

We turned off the lights and increased the air conditioner, we were basically freezing 30 minutes into the movie but we were all too lazy to make an attempt of switching it off.

We were all seated on the long modern sofa, I was seated in between Seyi and Eni, Ray was next to Seyi .

Eni and Ray we're trying so hard not to sleep off but I and Seyi just seemed so awake, less than an hour into the movie Eni and Ray decided that watching a movie this late after the night we had was a terrible idea and opted to hit the bed instead,the house had 5 bed rooms, so we didn't have to share.

On getting to the room,I couldn't sleep,all I could think about were the events that occurred the day before.

I couldn't believe Seyi knew about that horrible time in my life,I'll just have to avoid him,I don't want things to be awkward.

While thinking,I heard a voice that startled me.

"Hi...shit sorry I didn't knock" Seyi said in a rush and continued "couldn't sleep and I just wanted to see if you couldn't either"

I gave him a knowing smile and said "we both know that's half true"

He smirked "well,you might be right, so why else I'm I here?"

Trying to continue in the light mood I said "To see my awesomeness obviously"

He chuckled and said "Yea right"

I decided I wanted him next to me so I said "Can you em join me in bed,I can't sleep,maybe you being here will help"

He looked stunned and also a little bit reluctant.

And all I could think was here comes the change,he is always going to think I'm weak and treat me like I'm going to break.

Why did this have to happen when I finally realized I liked him.

And before I could tell him I was joking, he came up the bed,layed down next to me and put his hands around me in a spooning position

I felt so good,I felt calm and safe,I felt like i could finally breathe,his embrace brought so much emotions in me all at once that I actually felt like there were butterflies in my tummy,despite me always thinking the metaphor wasn't right.

After being in that position for a while I started drifting into unconsciousness, that's when I heard him "I'm going to be here for you always,you are stuck with me now"

I chuckled and teased him "like it didn't already seem like we were attached....like you are everywhere I go "

He chuckled and kissed me on my forehead "it will more than seem that way from now on,I gat you E"