Chapter 6

While waiting for reaper, I saw my Mother.. stays with me in the bed, and looking out for me "Don't go... not now, Joie please... don't leave us... I can't handle another death." she explains, another death? my memory is faded, and in order to recall this memories, I have to finish and face my stages.. and to be honest I don't know when, I can go back... it's like I'm fighting death and wanting to be dead. I saw some hospital staffs and saw this young woman again.

"Mom! the staffs are here, how's she?" she asks, Mom? do I have a sister? wait- yes I have one, I looked at her, from my past memory, I'm sorry Iji, for leaving you early, she's worried "Iji, where's the doctor?" my mom asks, "Well... Dr. Asami, is on her way" my mom nods, and both of them are holding my hand "Why it's warm? Do I sense them too?" how warm, and lovely.. maybe I've missed this. but it's too late... I must find who killed me, and where the heck is Reaper? The door opens an average height woman came in wearing a white coat, and she's also very elegant, her hair is naturally shaggy "Oh Miwa!" she instantly puts her stethoscope and checked my vital signs, my heart started racing because I feel like I know her, I saw my lifeline beeps, but lowly "Her heart is beating low, but it's a good sign" she says, I crossed my arms and just observe all of them, is she also related to me? Well clearly they we're just happy the moment they saw her.

"Mrs. Satoshi, thanks for not giving up on her.. she's still in coma, no one knows.. when she will wake up, severed head like hers.. usually is already dead on arrival but when she was brought in here.. she had a faint pulse and breathing.. meaning she can still fight.. and let's not give up" she grabs my mom's hand and looks at my sister "Iji... don't loose hope" and they cried, and I also feel like crying.. but tears is a waste of time at this moment.

they chatted for a bit, basically this Dr. Miwa is an old friend of mine "You're a very dear friend to Joie, Miwa... I'm glad you work here too, she's been through a lot I know.." mom explains, Yes I might been through a lot, but I'm looking forward right now, to be at peace. "I remember when she brought you at the house, it's like..." mom started crying again "I'm not a good mother, but when I saw you.. I feel like, she at least made a friend.. an only friend, and still continues during you're college days... I'm just happy that for the first time, she's facing something... she tries her best, she never trust anyone except you and you're other friends" I stood there silently, listening to my mom's words, she halts my mother "No... Mrs. Satoshi even I... I'm not a good friend at her.." she explains.

A sudden ominous feeling, came towards me... It's like my heart will start beating like crazy again, I'm scared... and where is Reaper?!... I wanted to go near to my body and just protect her because of her... I white flash happen again..

"Hey, Miwa you have no time for us already" I saw myself laughing around her in the hospital building, we are at rooftop just hanging out, some unknown faces are there too.. and they're blurry still... man that wound hit my head hard that's for sure. "She's hiding, something" another woman's voice "tell us already..." and I saw her looking at me like... she's really hiding something?

"No, do you even know, how many patient I had, and being an ER doctor is hectic... already, not that I'm complaining" she says, and we laughed "but we're glad! You came here and at least bond with us again, being a Doctor is really a duty, and we understand it, that's why this girl right here!" She grabbed my shoulder "Didn't pursue it.." and I just felt.. crashed, but still smiling, do I really look at that acting really unbothered?

"Uh! You're so Fake Joie! be happy right now because I'm uncovering the truth.." and another flashback came, I'm at the Hospital's Rehabilitation Department? do I work here? I looked at the clock, it's almost 7PM and I'm only the one at the Department, making notes... I looked around the area "Occupational Therapy Dept." I nod, so I'm also a healthcare worker, and saw myself organizing some patient notes...

"Uh... he's definitely his taking time." She says, I'm waiting for someone? Does she knows something? a memory keeps flashing, and saw myself every time at the same position doing notes and organizing it at 7PM continuously waiting for someone... look at me acting like unbothered but clearly I'm bothered "Wow, how fake can you be..." I left her there and wander around the Rehabilitation Department, and saw a light open... "Doctor's office?" and saw a man and a woman talking, my eyes widened because it was my Doctor attendee, Miwa Asami, and what are they talking about? I feel like my heart is racing, why am I eavesdropping?

"Shiro! please, stop this already, this is not good for Joie!" she exclaims, and I saw the dude's face pretty average, but not like Reapers, Reaper is definitely way more handsome than him, he's almost the same height as Reaper, and why do I keep comparing him to Reaper? Oh dear... because I'm a simp for his looks, anyway they we're talking still.. "We'll just make her feel jealous... and I know you've been checking on me since you started working here don't deny it" Ugh? Really? piece of shit! and me?! to make me feel jealous, does she know this act too? "Don't be stupid, and full to yourself! I checked you if Joie will be happy around you! but I'm wrong!" she says, what the hell is going on "Don't lie, Miwa.. you wanted it too! Why did you agreed to this? huh?" He's threatening her, please be reasonable if you're my friend "I know.. I agreed to this, not because to make her feel jealous but to get a reaction from her, because I'm sick and tired of her facade! She's struggling deep inside, I wanted to understand her, but sometime she's hard to crack and just puts a face acting unbothered." The guy's face smirked "And you agreed.... just admit it! all those night we've spent.. you enjoyed it, here in this office" I gasped... to get a reaction from me? and who is this guy? why does he also know about me? She fidgets and also scared because she might get into trouble I wanted to help her, I looked around and saw myself walking towards here does she know? It's that gloom face again... I knew it... I knew about this but I denied it... "Just stop! She's my friend! and you're dating her!, I'm leaving now." He laughs "Really a friend?, who calls you a friend? you basically cheated." She looked at him, dead serious "not me, WE cheated." she explains... "And I'm done here, I'm going to explain her everything" she's about to walk out, and saw myself.

"She heard all of it." I saw myself standing, she's controlling her anger, and 'we' saw... him and her

kissing, she was forced and I can't see this anymore! Why did I even dated this guy! What's his story? but I don't care anymore, I just wanted to get out of her, and saw myself heading back.... she's wiping her tears,

'Joie... why did you endure this shit?' I looked at her.. the flashback stops and I'm back again to my ward. She stood up walk towards me and I also walked towards her facing her. I'm not mad because she's my friend and I'm mad because I trusted her... I look at her but nothing with an anger on my face, but with disappointment. "She endured everything, I didn't know if you talked her about this, because I'm still recalling my memory, and I..." trying to hold her, and stops "I understand that you two agreed to this but he's a trash you're a trash to call a friend, but the way he forced you is a big deal to me, no woman should feel that way, you stood up yes, and I'm proud of you for that, but you hurt me... and I will never forgive you for that, yes you're trying to clean you're own mess, but I can't forgive you.. I can forget it.. but it already happened and you must endure that pain." I looked at her, she was facing my body, crying "Please... Joie be alive... I know you cannot forgive me but don't give up." Thank you for staying at my side, forgiving is a huge word, and I cannot do that, but I can forget about it, remember that Old friend.... and she walks past and left the ward.

With Mom and my sister, I never knew Reaper was standing there "You're much braver now than before, therapy helps right?" He says, is he joking now, I laughed a little "Yeah right, aren't you proud? that woman yeah, she's flirty.. and I can't blame her, but messing with one's relationship is just... ugh! Also why did this woman never stood up?" I pointed myself, he shrugged "that Shit-to, (shiro) ugh, how can he force someone to straight up kissed her out of her own accord!?" both of them are wrong, but the good thing is someone stood up and stops it.

It may be my fault for being stupid, and never speak of it, or maybe I was waiting for her own explanation "You know what reaper? that guy is way more handsome than you! Why did I even dated him? Ew!" he pats my head again "Be proud for standing up, even though you're a spirit, waiting for an explanation is not an excuse... but being a martyr around a guy who's clearly taking advantage of you, is definitely stupid to do.." I looked at him, underneath his exterior... he can be really a good friend, that will understand you.

I inhaled very deeply "I need to know what happen, this heavy indeed.. but we have other priorities am I right?" I winked, he looked at me very apathetic "I can never get any reactions from you! This is so frustrating!" He walks straight past at me, and we left for the moment my room.

"So is it okay to leave my body?" I ask him "Yeah, but we need to track first how you died, because when you held my hand before, I saw you.." He saw me? "Do I look terrible?" I ask him and just looks at me, meh "I believe you've been abducted, and--" another ominous feeling starts, and I just felt really really scared when someone walks past us.

"He's a Handsome devil" I spoke, unconsciously and saw this man figure, a little taller than Reaper, he wears a clean suit and tie, and people around him respects him.

"Seems familiar to you?" Reaper asks, but I never answered, I felt frozen, and scared.... my ear is ringing when he walks past us, "Remember me? Joie it's me xxxxx" I feel dizzy, "re..a..pe..r? what's happ--" someone is shaking, I know I'm awake, but I can't move a limb... I'm trembling

"Help! Help me please!!" I screamed but no one was there, it's just pure darkness, a loud voice is calling me again "Joie! Joie! Joie!" Reaper looked at me "What happened?" I ask him "You're not being yourself, what did you see?" he asks, I looked at him that man... pointing the guy who walks just past us "He's oddly suspicious" I said to him "I'm scared and confuse.. Reaper.. he's giving me chills" He looks at me "I know this is confusing for you and so am I, because I don't know in the first place why we're solving this, but trust.. us, we will solve this." He suddenly looks very determined so I nodded I can trust him right? but what if... "What if, I'll witness much more?", "That's why we'll help you-", "and suck all you're energy forces, be a malevolent spirit... I can't do that! We almost saw you disappear Reaper.. I'm really afraid right now.." I looked down "Be brave.. and you got us." I look up and that's the first ever console words I heard from him "You're really amazing, ugh! that's why I simp for you Reaper" but goofing around him is a defense mechanism I do all the time, since I can't really much take those words, but... this.. never mind.. I must finish this.