Chapter 8

We head out of the hospital, and guess what? We don't even know where to begin with? We just stood outside of the hospital watch some people pass by, but the one I can't ever forget is that man, he's really handsome but, he hides something and that he gives me a really creepy vibes.

"That man you said, 'Handsome devil' is it? how'd you know him?" Reaper asks, of course being a goof when I'm around him, and should taste some teasing... "What? are you jealous because he's handsome? Oh... don't you worry, you still my number one in here" and I point my heart unconsciously, and I suddenly flustered, and looks at him nervously "Yeah right, stop that non-sense." of course he would act that way and that makes me more relieved "To be honest, I just really felt a huge chill, when I saw that man, but there's something about him, I don't know if he's the key role in this situation I'm in.. ugh. I think we shouldn't follow him anymore please?"

"If you tell me that he's some key in this situation of course we'll follow him!" He says very sternly "WHAT? No, no! We shouldn't!" I exclaimed what's wrong with this guy! "Do you want to solve this case or not?" What's happening with him, he's never this serious, he grabbed my wrist and we're about to follow him I just remember that I called out his name "1224!!" he looked at me very confuse "Why are you doing this? What if we get some clue with him?" But I'm really scared right now "I.. I.. Know... but, I think it's not the time to face him, I'm really scared right now." I said to him, "You're not being yourself right now, Joie." he said calmly, my eyes widened "No means no." I said sternly, and looked at him seriously "Joie!" I know I'm being stubborn but, I really can't go, and he just gives me a huge chills, "B-b-but you can... go after him if you want to." I explain, "I just can't face that man, he scares me to death, I feel like anytime I will do something wrong, and I trust, what I feel and think, I'm sorry reaper.." I can feel Reaper's disappointment in me "You said you want to solve this, but I can't just solve this on my own, remember Joie, this is you're case, and the higher ups and even God is giving you this opportunity." What do they want from me really?! It's making me furious "Tell me Reaper, what's with the higher ups and that God you guys hail... what do they want from me? Slap me in the reality that dying is not an option? is this retribution?" I just feel anger coming at me "No... Joie, you're aura--" my aura? I don't care about that shit why can't they understand it? "Is this what he wants?!" I pointed up "to make me suffer more?! I'm afraid that I'll witness more morbid than this, but can't they just chill out?! because none of this make sense! I died, I just wish that his judgement is bring me to hell because I'm a sinner! I'm not a good person!" When I said those things, I just feel no remorse and doesn't care about a single thing. I looked at Reaper, he's calm "You're always like that! It makes me sick, just get lost!!"

"You're not being yourself right now, I understand that you're scared, but saying that you're a sinner and just wish to be brought in hell, just tells me you're also guilty, you never wanted to die, you just want people to understand you." He really irks me when he's calm. "Why are you helping me really? Clearly all of I showed you right now are just faces, that I just forced to show? brave you say? no I'm not!" He scoffed, now he show's arrogance? the heck is wrong with this guy "You're just being childish right now, do you think all those words you say are fake? No, Joie, it's true that you're changing. I know I'm wrong, that I forced you to do, something you're not ready for." He always acts like he understand me, "You're just guilt-tripping me Reaper." but... I don't know if what he says is true right now "Think what you think, and we have all day here at the hospital, I'll wait.." And he just sits in the bench outside of the hospital, and I stood there "I really don't get you! Are you sure you're not guilt-tripping me?" He just sat there quietly "I said, I'll wait." He says, very stern but you can see him, not arguing with you, how can he be like that "You're not mad?" I ask him, hi disagrees "What's there to be mad about? I know I'm really not approachable and almost other Reapers says that to me, and I think..." he stops for a second, "that's, just how I am." But there's one thing I'm really sure about him he hides a lot of stuff, and I also understand him, he's a Reaper.

and I sense a really odd deja vu, a white flash came 'another memory?' a tall man appears and I saw me, in a casual outfit, "I'll wait for you." and he pats my head, and the flash suddenly appear "That's odd!! I feel like I've dealt this before! I saw myself and a man, I think.." I touched my chin and think very carefully "nah! that's not it for sure" Reaper stood up and looked at me he really seems familiar, and my heart starts to skip "Ow!" My heart really hurts like someone just pricked me "You good?" And he's being kind now? No way in hell!! This is very weird and bad at the same time like what they always tells me Reaper's and Spirits are different. I stopped him "I'm okay, I just feel deja vu" He nods "another memory?" he asks, and I nodded "I saw a man, and me talking together, and says he'll wait for me" He looks confuse "that's... it?" I nodded, "and here I am thinking it would be a vague memory but with substance and clues" I looked at him annoyingly "Hey!" he shrugs and sit at the bench again ugh, he's so rude. "Maybe... he's that guy!" Oh now we're going back at that really, I literally said I'm not ready for it "I just said-" Wow, he looks so determined while I'm suffering, I get that he just want's to finish this and rest, and wait for another corpse to appear... but part of me doesn't want that, but if that happens. I'll understand "Hey, Reaper" he looked at me "Why did you decided already?", "You're tripping me right?" I ask, he pats my head, like that guy appeared in my memory "No, I said I'll wait." and acts cool, that even makes my heart hurts more, I can really feel I'm burning even though I'm a spirit! "You're aura is...." I calmed for a second and yet I was panicking "I'm fine!, what I'm saying is, I'm sorry if a act like a brat a while ago and be obnoxious as I am, but just to clarify things... I'm still scared, but like I said, if you want us to go after him, I'll go with you, but... I promised to you, facing him right now, is something I can't do." He nods "but!" I halt him trying to grab my wrist again before we disappear, "I'll just wait for you" I looked at him seriously "Got it, now can we go?" he's very cunning, rude but at least, he's a good person that I can trust, he grabs my wrist and in a flash we're at a luxurious house, the exterior of the house is very modern and unique, you can really tell some rich people is living here, the house itself is well protected there's some CCTVs around, but we're anomalies so they can't detect us, so... sucks to be alive, random person or that handsome devil lives here. I suddenly feel chilled "I'm scared, but I'll wait for you here" Reaper looks at me, he nods "then I'm off, I'll be back soon."

back soon? a random memory appeared again "Okay, then I'll be back soon" I saw myself smiling like genuinely smiling for the first time "Okaay, now be safe!" and that man leaves, but a dark aura came within him. I saw myself waiting for someone in the bus stop, I kept looking at my watch, and I think that person never came back... and every day, I saw myself standing and sitting at the bus stop waiting for someone to come back.

the memory is faded, and I came back to the house and remembered that I said something similar to Reaper "Be safe!" automatically, I didn't hesitate at all.

Why? It's really odd... this sudden deja vu, keeps appearing, and repeating what happened in my memory.

'Find it in your memory..' it's that voice again!

'Find...' it's slowly fading "What the heck is happening?" I looked at the house, and a sudden feeling bugs me that I also need to go inside with him "But I'm scared..."

'Still... not...' what's with this voice? "Why?"

'You're still the same..'

"No... Let's get this over with I'm going in too!" and head towards the house but as soon as I come in... a memory flashes, but it's not snowing this time, I saw myself getting dragged "Let me go!! please...." what the.. my face is all dirty, and my clothes.. It's not the same as I was wearing right now "Helppppp!!!!" I screamed but a man just covered my mouth "No one will ever hear you here, this place is protected and no one can find you, but don't worry I said to---" a ring happened in my ear, and I just keep catching my breath.

But he's not the handsome devil... or is it?? The man who dragged me... well I never saw his face, but based in my initial reaction, I'm legitimately scared, like I know this person.. but who is it exactly, I need to find Reaper inside and said that I got some information, I quickly ran towards the door, and bumped my face, what the hell? Does spirits never go through the same door?

'scare.. scare.. scare him.. to Death!' that voice again, I can't do that! Miss Auburn literally said to me that I cannot scare someone, but the freaking door is not in good terms with me "What am I suppose to do then?" I ask myself, should I turn the knob and casually walk in? I look at the knob almost touching it when.

"What do you think you're doing?" someone grabbed my wrist and looked at it, it's not Miss Auburn but another woman, she's wearing "Hakama?" is she graduating, wait! can she see me? she rolls her eyes, and kept looking at me, "I'm not a Reaper, but I will be the one that will banish you from the afterlife." she said very stern, and it makes me scared even more "I'm a Cleansing Spirit Guide, Akame, from the Ministry of the Afterlife, you must be the spirit, 1224 is guiding?" I nodded, "and according to the codex, you made the sacred hand in hand contact with him right?" she looks at me very annoyingly, but I just nodded "Akame!" I looked at who's shouting "Miss Auburn!!" and looked at her "You look like a puppy right now, where's you're reaper?" she asks and I pointed inside the house "Let's all get inside" she says but the woman in hakama is not letting me go "We're going but I'm not letting you go."

Something tells me that I will suffer more starting here.