Chapter 10: Clues Part Two

"I found you!" those words I said to Reaper makes no sense to him but for me, seeing him is just enough, and knowing that he's there to help me, and be at peace, so I let go of the hug immediately "I'm sorry for the hug, I know you felt odd" I said, but he just looks at me so as the other people specially Akame, who felt really offended on what I did "Sorry Akame in advance" I just feel sorry for her, without any idea, maybe she's the same as me, but do the really fall in love? There's an awkward silence but Miss Auburn lift it off "Okay, let's just continue finding some clues okay? forget those happen, besides look at him, he clearly looked traumatized" Reaper had a sour mood, like he was telling me 'why did I do that?' so I offered a peace sign "I'm sorry! that'll never happen again but, since we're all here, and found each other, I remembered something"

"And you clearly told me a while ago, that you'll wait for me outside right?" Reaper still in sour mood. "Yeah, but hear me out! This is really a terrible feeling but - I just had the courage to follow because I think that's the right thing to do" I explained, I looked around me and saw a teasing face of Miss Auburn, Akame is just plain flat "Oh.. look at you being a good reaper~" Miss Auburn says teasingly "Shut up, and let's just hear her story, because what we need right now our clues." He says, so I explained everything to them.

"Someone drag me here, I don't know who is he, but he had a woven gloves then, I was brought inside of the kitchen just near the living room and I saw a man's figure, I can't really recall his face because it's so blurry but I do remember that i'm really really dirty, I was wearing a dress that time I was drag, and it's not even winter..." I said to them, if I remember it correctly, the weather is nice almost chilly but nonetheless it's not winter, I'm really dirty like I was going away "So, this is not the one you're wearing when you're found?" Akame asks, I nodded and observing them "Oh some really detective faces I got here" I teased, "Hey, now's not the time to butt some jokes, at least we got leads." Reaper explains, "so what else do you remember?" he asks again "Uh, well, when we entered the house, someone from my memory happened... but that's a different story, so... we were at the living room and Miss Auburn and Miss Akame go on without me, it didn't bother me until I saw the cupboards downstairs, the man who dragged me and the man I saw slaps me in the face..." I looked at them really scared because, when he said those words to me, I trembled a lot, and I looked at my hands again trembling "Hey, uh.. Joie, it's okay if you can't tell we can go downstairs and at least look, besides we're only anomalies, but the terrifying thing that might happen once it triggers you're memory, you might get stressed and angry." Auburn explains, but none of that matters to me like... I just feel the urge to tell them, if I can't control I'm positive that the Cleanser here will help me eventually "If that happens, I trust you guys" I said calmly, "He literally says to me when we left off the hospital, that you guys will help me." I said cheerful to them, Auburn and Akame looked at each other and looks at Reaper "Huh... you said that? Look at you being compassionate~" but Akame looks at him furiously, huh.. I really wonder what's with these group, but I don't have the time to think.

So I clasped my hands, it's still trembling but, I have to do this, so I gain some courage and explained it again "He says something that 'he's been here too you know?' and I asked him who was referring to" I looked at them still scared but having more confidence now "And he clearly said that I shouldn't be stupid, that he only did it because I came... like he was stating that I know it too.." Did I do something wrong? This poor memory I have is already annoying, but... I need patience... if I didn't give any patience to this case, I might turn evil and just pour out all my emotions, and that's making me even more scared, I want to stay as calm as possible, but.. I'm still scared of my own self.

"Did, I also made a mistake.. what if? I'm at fault too? Uh.. I don't know it's freaking me out." I said to them, "That's why you shouldn't force yourself.. but i'm proud that you can look forward now and show courage... you've come along way already Joie." Miss Auburn says, I know that those words should be comforting, yet still... something is missing like I really can't explain the feeling I'm getting now "Yes, Joie... at least be proud" Reaper says those words again proud, courage, brave it's just hollow to me.

We're upstairs gathering some stories and clues just to figure what happened to me, they're very determined specially Reaper here, I'm also determined to finish this case, and just be at peace, it's a long process really, then I looked at the room again, now organized and very clean it seems like someone never been there except for that white frill dress, and this story is about finding the clues so I pointed the dress and explained to them what I saw.

"That dress.." there curious face began to look at me and to the one i'm pointing at "I wore that dress" and a huge chill came to me, like how the heck did I even said those words "I stayed in that room..." someone's telling me to cry, but tears shouldn't falling down right now, but a case that must solve, "Joie.. Joie, don't force yourself okay?" Miss Auburn says, with a worry look but I disagreed "No.. this is a case, and we're here to look for clues right?" Reaper just looked at me, and I looked at him "Trust me Reaper, i'm okay... yes I'm scared and you can tell it." I scoffed "I know how perceptive you are, and so am I, so don't worry, i'm not doing this for you.." I said calmly, "But.. hey 1224! Help because what if her aura chang-- she's very calm." says Miss Auburn "don't worry... I think I can control it, I'm a master of hiding my true self.." I said expressionless, this is the real me.

When I entered the room, of course I'm scared but also very determined, they followed me "So like what I did to the hospital.. well except that I touched my body and she just showed me how I died, I'm guessing this thing holds my memory too." I proceeded to touch the dress, and looked at them "If the hand in hand contact is for emergency purposes, just hold it, but this time I'll be the one disappearing not you Reaper." I looked at him but he never showed any emotions, ha I know he's also worried but, I looked at Akame and feel more relief "Wish me luck."

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I was in the same room again still dark, I saw myself fixing up, putting on make-up hiding my dark circles she's trying to hold her emotions, like what I did most of the time, "Damn you really." I said to myself, the door opens there I saw him again the man's figure he's face is still in blur, like my memory just want's him to erase, but I'm really curious who's he, I forced myself to look at him and catch a glimpse of his hair, my memory is still blurry "He also has parted hair like Reaper's, and he wears very casual, well he just dresses normally like appropriate for a dinner party, white button down shirt tucked in with black chinos and a loafer" look how observed I am, "are you ready?" he asks in a calm way, I nodded of course and walked towards him "now, remember to act and don't get suspicious, because if you do." He looks at me but I can't figure what's his expression is, but it just gives me shiver when he talks to me like that "I.. understand, what friends are for?" he fixes my hair "that's a good girl" and they went downstairs, the house is alive and full of people like he's been having a great time, it's very sparkly all of the lights are open, it's a very sophisticated party, seems rich people are having fun, but the look on my face is just pure disgust and just wants to walk away, I never showed any smile at all coming down "Oh Yuma! look at you... so handsome" someone says, He's Yuma? Yuma? his name is Yuma? I've heard it before, but I can't catch a glimpse of it "Hey Yuma... so who's she? I thought you never liked women?" I believe he's laughing, god I hate his guts "Well she came... and I'm glad she's here" I looked at my face acting all lovey-dovey around him, "my god... you disgust me, why'd you have to be like that?" I looked at her, and so I look around but my aura is fixed within her, so I should just follow him.. like I should do "Joie?" a familiar voice came, "Ha..Haru?" it's Haru, and she's here... I can grab her and ask her to help me! but a cold gaze is looking around me, him "Haru, how come you're here?" he asks her, Haru raised her eyebrows "Well, I also work at the hospital, and I thought Joie's on leave?" that's it be suspicious around him I want to grab her hand and force her to help me, I feel him acting nervously, so he grips my hand, and words came out of my mouth "Ye..yes! that is true, I'm on leave.. Yuma is.." i'm fidgeting and "Really for at least a month now? Are you guys.." my eyes widened "Joie... are you okay??" She noticed me, she knows something's up! "Joie, is having a de-stressing from work, and as a Director and a friend of hers, offered my home." Yuma explains, that's even suspicious that you're kidnapping me! Haru's smart I know that, she nods "Well if it's you then, I shouldn't be worry, well does you're family know?" I almost held her hand, but Yuma saw it and purposely swift me away "Chill, Yuma, I will never get you're girlfriend, besides... I know you are fishy already." I can't tell what's he looked like, but I can sense him panicking. I'm his girlfriend? I saw my face trembling from fear, like she's telling Haru that it's not like that, but another word came out of me "Yes... we've been dating for a month now, sorry for not telling you." I explained, hoping she gets the message.

"It's okay, Joie, it's already about time, specially what happened then." She explains, and I look confused about what she meant, does she mean with the Doctor? "Uh.. Haru, can you give us some space first? I will talk to my parents." Haru nodded, and Yuma I believe held me and "I told you to act not suspiciously." Myself looked at him and explained "but I didn't." I said in low-tone like I was a part in some operation "If she knows, what's up, I'll really bash you're head" he said it with very threatening voice "now act, and don't speak anything." he held me firmly like he was really pissed at me. We walk past to the crowds and head to his parents, "Yuma, my child.. oh look what we have here!" It's her Mom, she's also very sophisticated probably like him? but I really can't recognize his face and I cannot tell what's his face is showing.

"This is Joie Satoshi, a college friend, and also my girlfriend." I bowed to her "very pretty" I almost barfed when her mom says it. Me pretty? does she even know what the hell i'm going through, you're son kidnapped me and now forcing me to take a role for some unknown reason, but I'm gonna find it soon.

"I'm glad that you met someone, that you like.. I almost thought, that you show no interest to women." well look, he's very interested in me and.. he even got me! "How are you my dear?" her mom looked at me, and I just looked at my face and smiles, "You're definitely disgusting you know that?" I told myself facing myself while she's forcing a smile "She's shy..." her mom clicks her tongue "She's very pretty.." and she looked at me a disgust on my face, same as his son I guess?

"Where's dad?" he asks her Mother "Well he can't come he's busy you know that? but he'll definitely be glad that you found a woman." she explains, I can never guess what's his face looks like, but he was just with me not saying a word.

When the party ended and all of the guests leave, her Mother stays for sometime, and we're just sitting at the sofa of his living room, he's still holding my hand and never lets it go. "Well, Yuma... Happy Birthday, you had a great birthday, I was surprise even more with... her" she states, ugh I never forced myself to be here it was your son's idea.

"I'll be off now, and.. have some time to come by the main house." She states with a very serious face, what's with her mom? "I'll send you off outside" he says, her mom stood up "there's no need, go have some fun." She explains to her son and left the house, he quickly let go of my hands.

"We're done right?" I said.. with scared tone, he never said any words and just stay there silently, he's giving me an ominous feeling, he walks past towards me, I suddenly stood up "If we're done... I'm just going to my room quietly" but he's getting nearer and nearer, "Stop!" I screamed, he pushed me down the sofa "You know, you messed up right??" his voice is holding so much anger... my bod feel helpless "I didn't I swear" my face suddenly changed, it's terrified, "god-damn self, he's just a puny one, kick his balls!" I said to myself but I remember... this is how I felt getting pinned down, you think you're so strong but he's much more stronger "I told you not to act suspiciously!" he screamed, I saw myself closing my eyes, and trembling "But... she didn't noticed it..." he caressed my face, and about to slap me when I quickly "I held him?" I blurted out these words and looked at him, I saw the look on my face and his face they we're both shocked, and he was forcing to let it down "WHAT THE FUCK?!" he said, the I realize what happened and let's go of his hand.

"I'm screwed."