Chapter 11: Clues Part Three
I held his arm, because he was about to hit my face and I just remembered he's furious and at the same time clueless on what's happening, even myself was shocked when I held his arm "WHAT THE FUCK?!" he was trying to break free from my grip, then I realized "Oh no... I'm screwed." but I really want to defend myself at that time specially for a lost memory, what If I'm just helpless at that time but I don't have the strength to fight because every time I see him and my whole existence 'I'm that scared.' and I don't want that anymore, specially this time... it's crucial for me to pass over.
But if I let go of this hand, he will just do what he wants to because in his eyes I'm just a helpless human being, that's been unfortunately captured by his hands, but I'm here to find clues, but the more I see myself suffering the more I wanted to help my old self.
'You pity her?' it's that voice again, I definitely pity myself, because in my own eyes before I just wanted this to end.
'Haaaa, how sad? admit it you're just to selfish to admit it.'
'accept me now.'
I let go of his arm, and it marked. He looked at it at first and looked at me very angrily "You're dead right now!" he grabbed my hair and brought me upstairs. I saw myself never shed any tears like I know that this will happen eventually, like I know for a fact that in order to survive this mess, I have to follow him, and not get on his nerves because... maybe he will get rid of me, and let me go.
"I tried to stay calm with you but every time you show me that face, it just makes me furious! Remember this Joie, you made me do it! It's your fault!" and I just can't look at it... because what he did to me is so messed up, no he never touched me, but he just want to hurt me "He died because of you!" he was making his way to my neck and attempting to choke me to death "This is how I also did it to him" he's strong force is all I felt, I don't know his facial expressions are, I want to push him away, but if I do it more... I might screw up and gave all my anger towards him, but I wanted to do it, my arms are also attempting to choke him.
"Why are you doing this?!" I screamed, I cannot feel anything but I just want him to suffer too like just make him feel what he's actually doing to me "Argh!" he let's go of me, and I saw myself gasping for air... and I saw myself crying "I'm..." I looked at myself, getting even more angrier "sorry.." I can't believe I said those words... I'm dumbfounded, and even more angrier, I just feel angry "Why are you doing this to yourself Joie!!! You're not who you are!!" I explained, I saw him sitting and his also trembling, I can't understand it, you murdered me and now you're trying to manipulate me by showing this emotions that you regret? I can't even believe my actions,
"Yuma, please forgive me... I'm sorry, i..." now you're crying? you're crying right now?! what the hell is wrong with you Joie! you're pitying this man, who made you suffer? "I.. promised..." but despite those pity words I gave to him, I can sense myself that I'm also afraid to say those words, and I was just.. fighting in order to survive, but in a wrong way. "I'll never do it again, Yuma." He looked at me. "Then... what if I told you a story, for old time's sake?" my face changes and immediately nodded "You can tell me everything" I said, and I just looked at it confuse and dumbfounded. "I fell for him, but I liked you too, because you look very desperate right now, you wanted to be accepted like myself"
What's he talking about and who's he? It makes me more curious about this guy, "He never liked me anyways, so you can like me now." What the actual hell Joie?! He laughed "No bitch, you'll never get me, don't play words with me.. I'm not dumb, and I know what you're trying to say.." I look very nervous "You're trying to console me, because you wanted to survive, but you'll never survive... checkmate on that." I looked at myself she's at loss.
"Then... why did you still keep me alive?!" I screamed "Oh, now that's the reaction I wanted to get, that desperateness you're trying to show, it gives me pleasure, but I don't like you, now be thankful because I kept you here... and still alive"
"If you want me to kill so badly just do it already! You know my story already! So why-!" a loud slap came across my face "This is making me happy, I've been wanting to do this all my life! But too bad he's here unexpectedly because he wouldn't shut up about you" Is he jealous of me? "Like I said! I don't even know who're you referring to! I don't get this jealousy you're showing!" He was more furious than before and slap me again "SHUT UP YOU KNOW WHO I'M TALKING ABOUT!"
I held my face because my lips are almost bleeding from his slap "You deserve that slap!" and he instantly left the room, and I'm all alone again "Why? I never do anything besides, if you're person of interest is that guy? I never even heard him for 5 years, he was gone.." A guy from 5 years ago?, who is he? a huge white flash almost came to me and almost saw someone's face it looks like..
"Joie!" I was on the bedroom floor, and Reaper hold's my wrist, he was almost carrying me "You've been unconscious for sometime now" Auburn's face came and help me get up. "That feels like forever, like I'm watching my own movie" I explained "Now is not the time for jokes" Akame while helping me too stand up "I almost cleansed you, you're aura is dangerous, what did you see there?" she asks "A lot to take to." I said "Reaper 1224 here almost held you're hand and do 'that' thing again!" Oh the hand in hand contact "but good thing we pulled you away from the dress and you fell here unconsciously" referring to the bedroom floor "I think, the person who murdered me lives here, he's very rich and powerful." I said to them but Reaper stands up quick and looks around "Someone's here already, I know it, they may not see us but... I think, the person lives here is very intuitive like you Joie." Reaper explains, "I'm going to look around the area, and see if the one you're referring to lives really here, so the three of you leave and wait for me... at the afterlife society" Our eyes widened "Hey, I'm ready to face him, in fact I want to know what he looks like" I said to him, he just looked at me and scoffed "Trust me, you're not ready..." but.. I think I am... "and if you're ready, it'll be just the two of us to solve but right now.. Joie... that person... is aware." What? "Aware of?" I ask "When you're in you're own memory, you can do anything and I think, you did something you're not supposed to do" he says, and I'm almost lost of words "So... what's better to do is, these two will brought you to the ministry of the afterlife, why do I feel scared all of a sudden and the way they hold me right now both Auburn and Akame "I.. think I can explain" I said like I'm being brought to jail "This is for the better.." Auburn explains, and I just remembered I was being ascended by a force.
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When Joie touched her old clothes, we were just guarded around her "If something happens, remember to ascend her quickly and let's not explain anything." I sense that Joie will be doing something she's unaware of besides, seeing her state before will just makes her more become more curious and angry, specially she tries her best right now to solve the case, I looked at Aubie and Miki "let's just be prepared, Joie, is a very curious spirit, but once she becomes more aware of the situation.." Aubie nods "Yes, I've seen it, she really held her emotions back then, but part of her is just angry and not stable and that's what I'm afraid of."
Like what Aubie says she's something more, she's not capable of and to be honest we're scared right now good thing Miki was brought in here "Miki, if you're gonna exorcise her, do it in the Ministry with the boss." She nods "How about you? What'll you do?" Miki asks "Keshi, is it tr-"
"Miki, save it for later, you know how important business is right now, We can't let those petty things get ahead on us, you're the codex kid." Aubie explains, but I just looked at her making sure that now's not the time for that.
We suddenly saw Joie, freaking out and shows rage "Oh no, her aura changes what should we do?"
"be on you're guard, if it grows more, we hold her again" Joie, what did you see? I know this is a lot for you, but hang in there we can solve this. You'll be at peace, like what you always says, why do I feel hurt when she'll leave, like I'm not ready to send her away? No... I shouldn't feel that way, I've been sending spirits for quite some time now, and being in the after life society and working as a reaper, every day feels like 100 years has passed already.
And she's just another spirit that needs to be cleared, because that old man (God) is testing her, I don't know what her judgement is still. But I have to finish this.