Chapter 5

Rafaela and I were standing outside of a fancy restaurant watching Jane and Ricky having lunch, their table was in the middle of the restaurant and far from the window so I couldn't see them properly.

"Let's get closer" I stepped out of the car and started to walk towards the entrance, Rafaela held my arm and made me stop.

"What do you mean closer? If we got in there, they will instantly see us, their table is facing the door."

"So?" I shrugged of her hand and started walking again.

I don't know why I was insisting on getting closer, I just had to be close to Jane. It's hard seeing her and not to be able to talk to her.

Before Rafaela could stop me again, I was already walking through the entrance, yet clearly, I wasn't thinking straight but when I saw Jane and how she looked exactly like before, I felt the sudden urge to just talk to her and be near her.

And, of course Rafaela was right. The moment I stepped my foot on the restaurant, Jane saw me. But as I said earlier, I couldn't see them from far.

In the past few days, I was just thinking about myself, I want to see her but I never thought will she want to see me?

And I guess in these few seconds, I kind of got my answer, because when I was getting closer now, I saw that Jane and Ricky were obviously madly in love with each other. How their bodies were leaning forward to each other, the eyes and how they were filled with nothing but utmost lust for the other and their smiles just showed how happy they were.

I froze.

I didn't know what to do, I didn't know what to expect. I thought I forgot how heartbreak felt like, but I think it feels just like this.

Of course, I should have expected this. They are engaged for god's sake! What the hell was I doing here? A pathetic loser who can't move on from their ex and following her around.

Rafaela pulled me out of my thoughts.

"Dave? Dave I am talking to you. Dave."

"Yes, yes Raf. What?"

"What do you mean what? You are standing still in the middle of the hall and Jane has been calling you for minutes"

I couldn't just go up to her and start talking about my love for her when she was this happy with someone else, she will see me as pathetic and would never take me seriously.

Without thinking, I held Rafaela's hand, intertwined our fingers and walked to their table.

"What a coincidence! Hey Jane."

"What a small world, Hey Davidoo"

She called me by the nickname she made for me, we were once joking about my name. How it didn't go with any cute nicknames and what she should call me. Once we were babysitting a child of her friend and the baby kept calling me Davidoo, and the name kind of stuck after that.

She got up from her chair and embraced me in a hug, Ricky stood up in the same time to greet Rafaela.

Rafaela and Jane were looking at each other waiting for me to fully introduce them to each other.

"Oh, sorry babe. This is Jane" I said to Rafaela.

She didn't reply at first, she kept looking at my eyes trying to search the meaning of the babe calling thing. Jane offered her hand to Rafaela and said nice to meet you.

"And Jane, this is Raf my girlfriend."

"Rafaaelaa, I knew you looked familiar. Weren't you guys best friends in high school? I know we didn't meet before but David used to mention you in nearly every high school story. I saw you in pictures. You are the same Rafaela, right?"

"Ah, yes."

"I didn't think you guys would get together"

"Neither did I." Rafaela said and literally was shooting daggers at me.

"I am sorry, this is Ricky. My fiancé."

"We actually met, sweetie. They came by to visit you two days ago." Ricky said.

Stupid Ricky.

I talked right after he said to try and justify the visit. "Oh yes, we knew you were in town and thought to pay a visit."

"Would you care to join us for lunch?" Jane said.

I look at Rafaela with apologetic eyes and answer Jane. "Yes, that sounds great. The more the merrier!"

Rafaela didn't sit right away, I know that she won't be okay with this. But I had to talk to Jane in any way and this seemed like the only way possible. I will explain everything to Raf later and I know she won't be mad at me. She never is.

I paid close attention to the kind of relationship between Jane and Ricky, I wanted every little detail that can assure me and make me feel like I still had a chance, but as far as the time went, there weren't any.

"So, what brings you guys here?" I asked

"Well, we were preparing for the wedding, we plan on having a destination wedding and the planning for is very overwhelming. So we took a few days off and came here to relax a bit." Jane said, her hand was in Ricky's hand and they both smiled when she said the wedding. "What about you?" and looked at Rafaela.

Rafaela stayed silent and just gave me a look, I figured she won't talk as she doesn't want to participate in this.

"We just got together a few months back and we like to take a vacation every now and then to keep the spark going." I moved my chair closer to Raf's and gave her a cheek kiss and smiled at her.

I had to pretend everything's perfect so Jane won't suspect me coming all over here to her. My plan changed so quickly but after seeing them, I just had to improvise.

"Oh, that's great. When we first got together, Ricky and I we were all over each other, we didn't need to keep the spark going, it was going smoothly and never stopped. But, it's good you guys are trying."

Was she trying to make me jealous?

I can't believe this!

This is more than I can take.

I don't know why I thought I can handle this, I can't watch the love of my life happy with another person.

I excused myself saying I am going to the restroom.

I went out of the restaurant and I wasn't planning to get back.