CHAPTER 10

Mum what is it " I asked her I really want to know the answers to whatever I should know.

"Sam" that's all she said and it all clicked Sam.Sam must have all the answers about everything I wanna know right now .I want to know it all, it always pains me when I don't know something.

"Xandra take a deep breath and relax ,in out , I started immitating my mum's way of breathing .

"I know alot of thoughts are rushing in your head but I want you to take it easy ." My mama said softly.

I stood so I can get my answers but my mum stopped me and it annoyed me . She hold my hand tightly so I cannot walk.

"CAN YOU FUCKING STOP TOUCHING ME" I yelled so loud but she didn't flinch. One thing that I hate is some people know you can't hurt them because you love them.

"What I'll do to you ,you will regret" I whispered and am sure she was shaken off by it.

"Please don't hurt mum" I heard a little voice and that's when it snapped in me that we don't leave alone I now have a little sister whose terrified of me now ,I hate that. I think I woke her up with my shouting.

"Amanda nothing bad gonna happen okay"Mama said .

"Sissy and sorry I woke you up its a misunderstanding"I now got my voice.

"It's okay" she said but unconvinced it was something small.

"Why don't you two hangout so that you can have a sisterly bond right" mama said I think she catched that Amanda is not convinced .

"Amanda would you like to keep your other names or can we change it"  mama asked her.

"Definitely I want to be named Amanda Xandra Relin" I was happy she wants my name oh my fucking Lord my sister is my namesake.

"Oh Amanda you keep surprising me, so Xandra you know where you will change her birth certificate just book an afternoon appointment" mama said .I hope this day will be great.

"Let's go get ready" I said lifting her up and taking her to our room I think we'll be sharing for a while cause she kinda like it.

"So what will I be wearing my old clothes today but we going shopping today"

"Yay I'll be wearing Sissy clothes"

Amanda is a whole mood.

"Lets get you to shower" I told her

"No am a big girl" she whined

"Big enough to reach this dollar" I asked her raising a dollar she tried to jump but couldn't get to it. It was kinda funny watching her struggle .

"This isn't fair at all" she whined again.

"Life is never fair darling "

I carried her to the bathtub and undressed her I filled the bath while she was choosing her shampoo .

"Now baby let's make sure you are clean" I washed her hair first then her body . She kept whining Everytime and I kept on laughing.  When I was done I wrapped her hair with a towel and her body with another.

I carried her to the dressing room. I really haven't changed my dressing taste since I was young and it's kinda akward because most people do change alot of things when they grow.

I gave my sister a black pants with a black hoodie. I really don't have shoes that could fit her so i just told her to wear the ones she had . As she wore her shoes I went to the shower cleaned myself up . I went to my closet and chose the exact same clothes like Amanda.

I took my black vans wore it I brushed my hair and I was done.

"Amanda" I shouted her name loud enough for her to hear it . Am not that much of a screamer.. Oh no that came out wrong I don't shout alot so this was a new thing.

"Here I am Sissy" she said enthusiastic. She was skipping in the room." Okay okay ,slow down little tiger " I told her . I have called her up here so that I can make her hair it has not been straighten out. I took her to the closet because at the end their is a mirror and a hair straightener .

She sat at the stool. She looked scared.

"Am going to straighten your hair it won't be painful." I tried to reassure her.

"Are you sure it seems pretty painful to me" she said.

I did her hair and she whined alot.

At first it was frustrating but then it turned to funny for she was making alot of funny faces. I was teasing her and it reached a point I recorded it all.

It was crazy.

"Amy let's go" I said .

"Amy??" She asked it took me back I did not realize I had shortened her name. Is it a nickname now?Does she love it or hate it? Do I seem like a weirdo now? Those were the questions in my mind right now. I mumbled a little"Sorry" before moving towards the closet door.

She came running quickly" For a genius you are pretty stupid" She said.

No one has ever called me stupid what a smartass .

"What" I asked her. " I love the name"

She paused then said it's just that no one has ever given me a nickname and it caught me off guard." She smiled.

"Okay let's not keep the car waiting lets race to the car. "I said then started running am not fast in running but at least am faster than her. I kinda slowed down so that she can pass me .

The moment she reached the car she started shouting she's won and I felt happy just seeing her happy.

"You let me win didn't you?" Amy asked eyeing me. She gave me this hard glare.

"Okay okay I did" I admitted.She seemed pretty sad . "Am sorry okay,what can I do to make you feel better" she smiled immediately and said "ICE CREAM"

I knew she was up to something next time I will read her mind before asking her something.

"Okay I will buy for you" I said.

"Eres fabuloso" she said 'you are fabulous'

"Sabes Espanol" I asked 'you know Spanish'

"Si" She said . "When did you learn it "

I asked her.

"When I was four" she said then added" what about you " I looked at her smiled then said " when I was seven , let's get in the car" she seemed confused in a second " I totally forgot we were outside"she said then entered the car I did not want the driver to join us because it's girls day and he ain't a she . You get me right.

"So that we'll be our secret language, right." She said happily.

"Yeah Amy it will be our secret language"

"When will we take our breakfast" she asked sweetly . We were going bin and cream to take our breakfast but I didn't tell her. It wasn't a surprise I just don't want to tell her. Does it even make sense? "We will be there in a minute and you will have your breakfast"

I drove for like ten minutes till we reached the restaurant.

I opened the door then went to her door and opened it . Now let's go.

"It's bin and cream " she said happily.

"Yeah baby it is" we went in there and took the last table. I saw the waiter approaching us "Hello, welcome to bin and cream, what will you eat" she asked. I looked at Amy waiting for her to say her order" I will have two sausages, two chocolate pancakes and a cup of cocoa " she said . " Is that all Amy" I asked her. I wanted her to feel comfortable with everything. She nodded " Make it two " I said . While we were waiting for our food we engaged in different conversation and it was good listening to her talk about herself we really had a lot in common.

I didn't realize the waiter had brought the food. The pancakes were amazing. I loved them . When were done i paid then we went back to the car I drove to the mall for we will be doing some shopping for my girl.

"Should we start in a shoe store " I asked her. She looks like a shoe person and I also read her mind so I know she likes them.

"Yay" she said.  The Mall did not have a lot of people for it's a school day and it's also early.

GUYS AM GOING BACK TO SCHOOL SO GOODBYEE I'LL MISS YALL THIS IS A BLONG BREAK BUT ILL BE BACK SOON I LOVE YOU GUYS