Chapter 5: Companion

I woke up to someone shaking me. I woke up and immediately wiped away the tears that had been dripping from my eyes.

It was just a dream! I thought it was really happening.

"Hey, are you okay?" A familiar voice asked me.

I looked at the place where I am right now and I was in the cafeteria and I looked at my phone and it was already 5:30 pm. Shocks!

"Hey, what are you okay with? He asked worriedly.

"Y-yes, I'm fine," I answered and after that I got up and took my belongings to go to the parking lot.

I was already walking and I still felt that he was following me so I turned my gaze on him and asked.

"Why are you following me?" I curiously asked.

"Come with me I know a place where you'll feel better,"

Why is it that every time I feel like this I always see you?

"Where?" I asked him.

"Just, trust me," he slapped his chest once and seemed to be saying that you would trust me.

"Just follow me," He gestured to me in his car and I just followed him.

"Fine," I said then after that I opened my car and waited for him to come first.

I was driving when the thought came out to my mind. Everytime I feel alone he always shows up somewhere.

I just came to my senses when I heard my phone ring so I opened it just to see the message of the man in front of me.

Sean Louie Martinez •

Focus, Madame.

I just rolled my eyes after reading what he chatted on me. The strength can ruin this man's mood but everytime when I am with him, I felt so comfortable.

After a long drive we reached a very beautiful and very long bridge in this area. I wasn't expecting such a beautiful place we were going to. It's like I'm in another country. We stopped our car on the side of the road and got off at the same time. There aren’t many cars here now passing by because it’s late at night and it looks like it’s a rare roadway.

I was so amazed by looking at the place. I could see the stars in the sky, the moon, even the tall trees on our side.

"Is it beautiful?" Sean asked me.

"Yup,"

"This is the place I often go when I want to feel better," He added.

"I shout everything in here, then I just stare at the stars and moon in the sky and then I feel better right away," he said while holding on to the handrails and looking up at the moon.

"Shout that to get rid of it," he said to me again which caught my eye and immediately stared at him.

"Which one?" I asked him.

"Everything," He simply answered.

Suddenly I remembered my dream earlier, I thought it was really true, I thought I felt like I had been waiting for a long time, but it wasn't. Suddenly tears welled up in my eyes but I immediately looked up at the moon so that it would not continue.

"It's hard because when you're full, maybe later you'll suddenly explode because you're collecting everything,"

"W-why is it so difficult?" My voice broke.

"That's part of life,"

"Shout everything, think of yourself alone and no one can hear you,"

"W-why do I have to feel that my own family doesn't care? Why is it hard for them to make me feel that I'm also their child. It's hard, eh. The d-cheating I've always been alone. you let me feel like this .. have mercy on me even a little .. even a little .. "I shouted while crying.

I got on my knees crying and there I went all out. It was so painful. I feel like I’m being stabbed over and over again. Why is it that the ones I get my strength from are also the ones that weaken me so much. I always hide my feelings from them and I always lie with it, alone. But this time, I have a companion.

"Handkerchief, because you didn't bring one," he said laughing while offering me his handkechief.

I reached for it and immediately used it to wipe away my tears that were just dripping. I took a deep breath first before standing up and I felt all relieved.

"It'll end too. Don't let that end you," He said while smilling at me.

"Thank you for saying that," I said still emotionally.

"Often when we are hurt we just want to run away from all the pain, the weight, but suddenly I thought why don't we just let it face so it's all over,"

It was a realization to me. Instead of running away from it, I would rather face it until it was all over.

It was late when I got home. They were asleep while I was just arriving. When will I experience that when I come home late, someone will be angry with me and worry?

As it lasts I feel more

my heart is hardening. I become numb to everything but when it comes to them I suddenly become weak.

They are my strength and they will always be my weakness.