I will kill you god

I woke up the next morning they give me an apartment, so I don't have to care about expensive, my all finance will handle by the government and I get 1 billion dollars after 6 months or if I stay alive, I don't know how to cook so I use to pack food, I eat my food it was good I can say that for sure

I saw a knife over the table I hold that knife, slowly I take close to my hand, my mind got blank I want to die and kill myself. maybe I want a normal life, want old good days back, I don't want to be alone, but when I look back ever since my mom died I am all alone, maybe its a miracle, I still have to stay alive, but happen if someone stays by my side he can treat me the way I should be

oh look at the time I should wake up myself from depression and anxiety before it kills me

then I take shower I was relaxing when hot water touches my skin and tiredness flow away with water someone anyone please kill me I feel so bad my body feels so weak I want to die. oh, I forgot Noone can hear me. there is no God who can protect me from me. I wish that I could escape this hell life. when my life ends?. I am too weak to stay alive and too strong for suicide. maybe I should just go to an agency now before my mind kill me

then I get to know there were also 4 members more and one of us can be our leader. those 4 join at the same time so their training already starts and some of them already complete in 2 years and some will continue with me for 3 months more, it was an underground facility there were other 7 or 8 teams more who are very trained soldiers. like me, if they die nobody will care and we have the independence to leave when our contract over

this facility is a secret agency and it is funded by government and private company

we have to kill who are threatening to our nation and people who rotting this nation, nobody in public knows about this facility and this agency gives security at personal order or you can say you can buy Kidman legally if Government allow

this all information was written in the book and all the rules too

now the teacher who is retired soldiers thought us weapons, survival tricks, even cooking, behaviour, mental training, communication skill, doctor skill, chemistry, hacking, combat training they told us to do mastered any skill and learn the basics of other

I mastered:- chemistry, weapons, cooking and combat training

I don't have to care about another thing

we have 1 one lily who mastered doctors skill

and 2 max who handle any kind of conversation and good at handle people and he is nice to everyone and kind of gentleman, with the handsome face he can make every girl fall for him

3 one is Alex who is a great hacker and mentally strong his mental processing power is stronger than the rest of us

4 one Jamie who is physically strong and fearless and fast as a train and he is a kind of bad boy with a kind heart