please don't talk with me

my training start and I get to learn so many things but I am still depressed and wanted to die. I hope that I could die in my mission. I am still alone and I am going to die anyway so I keep my distance from everyone. if I stay with them maybe they will also die because of my bad luck

my first day of training finished

I sit with my partners in the cafeteria

lily:- food is so delicious

I:- ------

lily what is your favourite food

i:- I could eat anything

lily:- I asked something specific, so tell me who is your crush

i:- I don't like people

lily:- everyone has the same dream what is your normal dream and what is your evil dream

i:- well I just want to die and you irritate me so just shut up already

max:- did something happen to you. if something hurt you. you can tell me anything. I will help you in any way possible. don't be so sad it not good for your health. after all, we are a friend

i:- I don't need friends even if I tell you. you can't understand. it good for you to not talk with me

Alex:- look we are your friend and we help you no matter what you say

i:- what do you know about pain bastard

Jamie:- you crossed your limits we are trying to help you and you treat us like that

I:- I finished my food and don't try to get close to me, I never asked for a friend

then she moves to her apartment

Jamie:- what kind of attitude is that. you just end up alone and die like this bastard

lily:- don't be so hard on her

Alex:- I think her past is very dark and her mind kill her, if we want to help her we should collect information and for now, we should try to talk with her gentle maybe she not trust us

Jamie:- I don't care about that gloomy bastard she just dies alone

max:- I will try to help her in any way possible. we are in the same team we should help each other if we want to survive

when I reached home I think in my mind while sitting on the bed in depression he was right I am alone anyway and I will die like this and with pain in my heart never go away. someone anyone god or human please help me. I take a deep breath. like anyone comes and helps me I don't know how to heal myself

that is how three months are completed. she didn't talk and open up with anyone in the team she just meets with max and lily they try to know what happens but after trying everything they didn't know anything about her so they can't help her. they were true friends of her and didn't give up on her. everyone try their best to help her and some didn't show but they care about her and don't what their friend in pain ( all boy see her as sister and max and lily are in a romantic relationship. they try to help her because they love her as a little sister because Jamie is already married and Alex love the only computer but he will marry after years of contact with his girlfriend)

secret information about why they join the agency

1lily:- she was the daughter of General and want to serve for country any way possible and she doesn't want to risk her life and wanted to come true her father wishes. the wish was to serve the country something above doctors. well she will quit after 6 months and then open her clinic

Alex:- he is a criminal. he was betrayed by his friends and thank this agency for his talent use for the country because he is so talented and the world knows him but not a real identity. the name is the king of cyber he hacked 28% of dark web data and robbed 6 billion and he will quit in 7 months and then join as a permanent hacker for agency max:- intelligent student with handsome face rich family and his mother killed by his father so he wants to kill him secretly and his father enjoying life in another country, agency allow him and he is a successful businessman with 3 billion net worth. he will quit in 5 months

Jamie:- for financial support and before he becomes the father he wants to do something adventurous and help this nation he will quit in 3 months. and he is also from a rich family. he tough but soft-hearted and kind