Chapter 20: Seo Yeon

I couldn't believe how jealous he was being, I had never seen this side of him before in all my years of knowing him. But I had to admit a part of me was curious to see how long it would last since his outburst earlier on that totally took me by surprise. I had a hard time keeping my composure in front of him and holding back my laughter. What could I say, I really liked to tease him. I felt my heart swell when he brought up the kiss but I wanted to see for myself if it was a mistake or something he took seriously and if he was really over Hui-Jee or not.

But I had a feeling, in his jealousy he would make me pay for it; nothing too serious but from the look, he gave me and from his work ethic; Seon-Ho was the type of person who wasn't afraid of doing anything and everything to get what he wanted. And it looked liked what he wanted now was me.

And I was right; no sooner had he left I had servants lining out my door to take away the gifts he got me including my new stationary and sewing set so I knew I would have no choice but to go to him to get it back and probably surrender myself to him to get it all back. But I kept my composure once again to see how Seon-Ho would react to it. After everything we were both going through I couldn't believe this was happening...but there was something between us that had been building up for a while and it looked like we couldn't avoid it anymore. But I couldn't stop smiling to myself either, tracing all the parts of my body he had touched.

I managed to contain my composure for a week and I went out of my way to avoid him, not even bothering to ask for my gift back...and the reaction I got was well worth it. I simply could not contain my laughter every time I saw his face; a mixture of anger and jealousy combined. Although his eyes had changed... they were a lot darker for some reason. He would follow me to every room I went to and try to corner me alone but I always called out to one of the servants before he could succeed. After only 2 day of this he sent a servant to fetch me back to his room but I refused. Then he got angrier but he wouldn't storm out like I expected; he would just...watch me with those same dark but...hungry eyes everywhere I went and anything I did. I even began to feel like he was watching me in my room, but I wasn't surprised to be honest. He was the one acting like a brat for once because he wanted my attention. I know...with everything I was doing behind his back I should be keeping my distance but I...I was intoxicated my the attention he was showing me that I never thought he would... even if he loved someone else I just wanted to bask in it for a shirt time not caring about what his intentions might be, even if it was bad. So I started....acting out a little. I always took off my trousers and jacket when I was in my room alone, I started to undo my hair as well as I got on with my time. I was always either reading or writing or sewing...and I started seeing male clothing to catch him out. And sure enough I would hear him complain quite loudly to the female servants he had that he needed new clothes but he was too lazy to shop.

I was on a complete adrenaline high around him...I had loved him for so long, even more so when I had to live with him of all people. My world was small, with only my brother in it so when he came into my world unexpectedly...he just became everything to me. Everything I could rely on, trust, look up to...but he grew up so damned handsome and...built...that he just became something more...something I wanted a lot more of to the point where I soon started to selfishly take advantage of my opportunities...pleases god just for a short time...even if I wasn't the one he loved...just for a short time lend him to me so I can carry on with my life.