Chapter 124: Seo Yeon

"You're joking right? About getting me pregnant? Already?" I had to make sure he felt the same thing as I did. "Why would I joke about something I never had the opportunity to fantasise about before? Of course I wasn't joking" I still couldn't face him but I felt the seriousness in his tone...and honestly a part of me was feeling a little scared the deeper I got. "So you want a family with me? Already?" I tried to contain myself but there was absolutely no point in hiding anything from him, as he started holding me tighter and tracing his nose on my back and body, feeling his dark side come out slowly once again "Of course I want a family with you, and you're going to give me one" he said it so smoothly without hesitation. I tried to get up but he wasn't having it. He started embracing me more and more until I was completely trapped in his arms and his hands locked my arms together so I couldn't move. "How can you say all of this so easily?" I demanded, trying to catch him out. Bur before I knew it he had me on the floor and held my arms up above my head so I couldn't move, looking at me as seriously as I had ever seen him "does it look like I'm joking? Let me get this straight right now Seo-Yeon; the moment you kissed me back you committed the irreversible act by surrendering yourself to me. Now you are mine and I am yours, and we can never belong or give ourselves to anyone else in this lifetime. Do not even think of leaving my side; wherever you go I will find you and tie you to myself for the rest of our lives no matter what it will cost me" he declared all of that in such a way that I felt it in my soul. I looked at him for a second before kissing him deeply in response. He almost started again before I asked him "one last question...when did you fall for me?" I asked curiously. He seemed...to cool down when I asked him. I cupped his face as he pushed me onto my side and held me from behind but he held my face into his hand and out his lips to my ears "when I started having a hard time with my father and your brother together...I used to watch you from your room door in the middle of the night. Don't you remember? When I told you to leave me alone and you didn't? you...you continued to care for me when you thought I didn't notice. When my father had me training all hours of the night, I know you would sneak in and rub the balm on my hands so heal my blistered wounds and lay the extra blanket on me in winter. I knew you were lighting incense sticks outside my room and sending me herbal tea with the servants to help me sleep better" he was holding me tighter with each sentence, still going on but I knew he heard my crying, stunned that he knew everything all along "and you used to have extra meals sent to my room, making the servants tell me it was my father's allowance which he never did before. And you did all of this long after you regained your memories. So I started to watch you...when you embroidered that love token you left behind that I draped around my sword when you left. And I began to watch you even more...when I would watch you come out from bathing...to when you would start dressing and undressing yourself..." his hands began to wander with more strength than ever "and you have no idea how curious I have been about you since then. You, Seo Yeon, have completely trapped me in your love. Only you...didn't abandon me. Only you love me, so now you must take responsibility for what your love has turned me into; the good and the bad. I am entirely yours and I am nothing without you. So you cannot leave me...unless you want the both of us dead, burnt to ashes on the same logs". I turned around and looked at him, fully realising that I was looking at my soulmate; my only lover and the only man I would take as my husband, but he was already asleep, still holing onto me with maybe only a fraction of his strength but it was still enough. I loved him and trusted that he would stick to every word he spoke...but I also began to tremble in fear; for I had long made plans of my own whilst I still lived with him in his father's mansion...plans I could not put off. I knew deep down inside that him and my brother would eventually understand...but judging from today I knew Seon-Ho would not integrate himself as much as possible...and he punish me for however long he deemed fit until he got what he wanted...in his new found favourite way...I already figured out that I was let off easy today when he fell asleep just now. If he was still awake...

I laid awake in my bed; my mind wondered back to time before the gibang fiasco; I was starting to get fed up at work with these psychotic girls following me around everywhere...so I made the decision to quit work and just live a little with my man much to his delight. In fact he threw me over his shoulder and ran around his new office in the palace and ran around like an excited little boy for almost an hour. In fact he grabbed me and practically hauled me out of the door so fast I almost flew to my work places to resign. We were both in hysterics by how happy he was as we rose together on his horse on full speed...although actually doing it was going to be a lot difficult than I let him know. Unfortunately he ran into someone he knew from work when we arrived so I was on my own for a little while...and couldn't wait for much longer as their meeting was taking a lot longer than I had expected. I just wanted to get this over and done with while I could. All 3 places where in close proximity o each other so it was easier for me to run around. The library gave me no trouble but of course, Chun-Ae and Da-In we waiting for me just around the corner, taunting and teasing me...until they ran smack into my man and suddenly got very quiet. But he was in too far of a good mood to mess with them himself so he called his friends over so they could 'all get acquainted with each other while he walked me over to the ranch and the bookstore first as they were the easiest. The tuition place however was another story.

I had worked for a sweet old man who tutored myself when I was living with the Nam's. He was fair and kind and we got on really well; he would tutor me and in exchange I ha dot cook for him since he was widowed and his servants left him when his wife died. He had his own collection of tutors and scholars but he passed away only a few years ago. His only son now took over...and he was a complete asshole. In fact...he was the guy who forced me to the tea shop. My man was busy with his men and the women still, making sure they were eating their words...and it was tough seeing him ever since with the bruises that lasted quite a while. He still tried to flirt with me which I hadn't told my man about...I didn't want him to do something stupid and risk his new promotion. And when I tried to resign he really wasn't happy about it at all. In fact he tried to corner me and started shouting like a crazed man that I wasn't allowed to live his side. He tried touching me and when I screamed...Seon-Ho barged in, his face full of rage. He took one look at the guy who cowered in fear when he recognised him, still traumatised from his last beating. My man pulled me away from him as he proceeded to cut off the hands that dared to touch me with one swift movement from his sword in silence. He was still alive and gasping for breath for a while as he managed t ask me why I always turned him down. "Isn't it obvious? I know you're the one who set Hyo-Sonn on me as soon as you found out that you're cousin showed an interest in me. You thought she could claim he rlove to herself but your plan backfired. I'm the one whose fed up of working like this with these crazy people who try to pull me down everyday. I'm done" I replied as I walked away whilst my man was only getting angrier at what he had heard. I waited outside for him as I heard a lot of shouting and screaming...and then silence. I looked over at my crazy man and I buried myself in him, wishing we could stay like this forever. It was both of our first times that night but he definitely knew what he was doing and he definitely left me wanting more.