Sam+Nate

Nates pov

What are you supposed to do? how are you supposed to react? How do you stay by their side? How do act normal? How are you supposed to do all this when your in love with your best friend. Especially a best friend who is always dating someone. There's a lot of questions I have and no answers to go with them.

I haven't even gotten close to telling him how I feel about him. I don't even know if I can do it. I don't know how long I can keep my feelings in but I don't know what I'm going to do.

I'm at school right now me and sam are sat outside eating our lunch on a bench. Until his girlfriend Leah comes bouncing over. She wraps her arms around his neck from the back.

Leah "guess who"

His face brightens just a little and he smiles

Sam "Hi Leah" he says turning around in her arms. He leans up and catches her lips with his. She moans into the kiss. She opens her eyes during the kiss and stares right into mine. I roll my eyes. I get up and walk away. I gag. I'm not watching those two make out especially when I feel like it should be me making out with him.

I turn the corner into the building as I hear Sam shout my name. Not right now dude. I carry ok walking and then I hear the bell. Thank god and I don't have this class with same but I do with my other best friend. His names Brody. I walk in class and see him sat in his normal seat. I walk over to him and sit down. Brody looks at me and smiles I manage to force out a small one.

Brody "what is it. Is Sam making out with his girl in front of you again"

I roll my eyes "ye she came bouncing right up to us while we were speaking ignorant bitch. Why does he always date annoying people"

Brody "do you mean why's he always dating people who aren't you"

"Semantics"

Brody laughs but then frowns "I'm sorry dude"

"Nah it's fine he will be at mine in about a week crying because they broke up anyway"

Brody "I know and that's what's sad. Your always there for him but he doesn't even notice your problems"

"Aren't you also supposed to be his friend"

Brody "ye but he's a complete fool. Why is he dating all those people when the one for him is right in front of him"

"I know I know but I can't do anything about it"

Brody "um you can confess"

"And then what he turns me down and then we don't even have a friendship never mind a relationship no thank you"

Brody "ye but you can't keep listening to him cry when he breaks up with someone it's destroying you too"

"I can sure as hell try at least I have him by my side"

Brody sighs and we just listen to the teacher for the rest of the class. I know he's right but I'm also partially right. I can't lose him even if it means I never have him the way I want too.

Brody "I'll see you later" he says after class is finished.

I nod and walk out of class. I walk down the corridor for a while when I feel someone push me and then their lips on mine. I open my eyes and see Leah and then I notice sam behind her watching with tears. I shove her of me. What the fuck is wrong with her.

"Sam!"

He shakes his head and runs of.

"What the fuck is wrong with you" I say grabbing her by the neck and shoving her against the locker she lets out a cry.

Brody "Nate. Nate! What are you doing!"

I turn and see brody running towards me.

Brody "let go of her"

I roll my eyes and drop her. She falls to the floor and grabs her neck.

"Don't fucking come near me or same again"

She laughs "I doubt he even wants you near him"

I freeze she's right he saw her kiss me but he didn't even see everything I didn't know she was going to do that.

I start to get mad and she must notice because she runs of.

Brody "what we're you doing that for"

"She fucking shoved me I got he locker and kisses me when I noticed what was happening and I got over the shock of being pushed against a locker I opened my eyes and saw Sam staring at me but then realised Leah was kissing me. I shoved her of but he ran and wouldn't even listen to me"

Brody "great. What a bitch. Why would she do that. Was it intentionally to separate you and Sam"

"I don't know but I need to find Sam"

Brody "I'll come with"

I nod and me and brody end up looking around the inside of the school and Then finally outside. We find him sat on the bleachers with his head in his hands.

"Sam!"

He looks up and he's about to walk away but I run over to him and grab his arm.

"Wait please. Just hear me out"

He pulls his arm out of my grasp.

Sam "no now leave me alone"

"No I can't let me explain"

I say about to grab his hand but he punches me square in the jaw. "No!" He says as he does. Sending me back on my ass.

He looks like he regretted it straight away but I don't care. He's about to say something but i interrupt

"No. I don't care not anymore. I don't even know why you care what happened you always breaking up with people and with new ones after why was this one special. Oh wait you though all of the were special at one point. Until something happened and then you were at mine again like clockwork crying on my shoulders, telling me everything. How you thought they were the one. I always cared and was there for you. Not like you ever cared for me anyway so why do I even try. Not like you ever sat down and asked me if everything was ok with me. Asked me if I ever had anything to talk about. No because it never mattered to you. So I don't want to hear about yours anymore. I don't care about your stupid relationships and how you've broken up you can go and cry on someone else now. After everything I've listened to from you and you can't even listen to me this once"

I say getting up I literally just poured my whole heart out well not everything but close enough. Sam looks sad but I really don't care right

now. Sam is about to say something

Sam "na…"

"No don't bother"

I say when I start walking down the bleachers. I don't care for today I'm not finishing school today so I just head of home instead. My parents are out for the week anyway so they won't find out.

I walk home which takes 15 minutes I finally get in the door and close it. I head upstairs to my room slamming the door behind me. I can't stop the tears and I collapses against the door.

I've been crying against the door for 10 minutes when I decide to get up I head to the bathroom taking some clothes with me. I look in the mirror I can already see the bruise starting to form on my face. I touch it slightly and wince.

I throw of my clothes and put on more I walk back into my room. I climb in bed and wrap myself up in the blanket and I cry myself to sleep.

Sam pov

I'm stood here speechless. Nate just walked of after everything he said I turn around and notice brody who's glaring at me.

Everything nate just said was true. I've cried on him multiple times and told him all my problems and he just listened but I never asked if he was ok. If he had a good day. If he had any thing he needed to talk about how could I not notice something was wrong. I should've let him explain. I shouldn't have punched him like that I've never hit him before.

Brody "your a fucking idiot"

"don't you start with me. You have no right"

Brody "excuse me I have every right I'm the one who has listened to nate over the years not you"

What "what why didn't he come to me"

Brody "because your the problem even if you ever asked him he would've never said"

What im the what "I'm the problem what the hell does that mean"

Brody "I'm only gonna tell you because I know you feel the same but have been stupid about it. He's been I love with you for years. And you dare different people all the time and then go crying to him when you break up how do you think he feels"

He's what now. In love with me. How did I not notice. How could I be so stupid. I've been trying to forget him by dating others and then I come to like them a little and then end up crying because then we break up after I feel like I can forget about my feeling for Nate.

Brody "and Leah forcibly kissed him he was in shock from being hit of the locker he didn't know what was going on at first until he saw you and realised what was going on. Did you really think he was that type of friend"

"I should've just listened to him and not been so stupid I should've just told him my feelings and seen what happened. I'm gonna talk to him thanks for telling me"

Brody "I didn't do it for you. I may be your friend but he needed me more"

"I know I get it"

I do I should've been there I should've noticed. I should've been a better friend and asked if he needed to talk and if everything was ok even if it was at least I would've shown that I cared like I do.

Im out the school building and on the way to nates. 15 minutes later I arrive at his I knock on his door. No answer I knock again no answer. I do this for a few minutes and I still don't get an answer. I start to get worried I hope he's ok. I grab the spare key from under the mat.

I unlock the door and I lock it back behind me putting the key on the kitchen isle. I look in the living room he's not there. Then maybe his room. I make my way upstairs. I get to his door and knock on no answer. I walk in and see him wrapped up in his quilt. And asleep snoring.

I walk in quietly closing the door behind me. I make my way to his bed and I climb on trying not to make much movement. I sit against the head board. 2 minutes go by and he turns over and groans I expect him to wake up but he just wraps his arms around me.

I don't know how long goes by or when I fell asleep but I wake up to movement on the bed.

I look around and find Nate sat up looking at me.

Nate "if your here to shout or cry about leah I don't care or want to know"

"No no. I'm not I'm sorry I should've just tried hearing you out."

"I didn't…"

"I know brody told me. I knew you wouldn't do something like that I think I was more pissed that you were kissing someone" I say the last part in a whisper and by accident.

I look up and Nate is staring wide eyes at me

Nate "w what"

"I know it's weird after all the people I've dated but I love you more than a friend and more than you could ever know. It wasn't that Leah and you were kissing although I know it wasn't that but it was the problem that you were kissing someone who wasn't me. And I know I have no right after all the people I've kissed and dated. But I was just trying to get over you. I should've noticed your feelings. I should've…"

I'm forced to stop talking when I feel lips on mine. He moves onto my lap and I kiss him back. I place my hands on his cheeks and I hear him hiss and feel him flinch. I drop my hands and pull back.

"I'm sorry i never should've hit you. You don't deserve that. I don't deserve you. I know I don't but please give me a chance. Let me prove to you that I love you and that I only want y…"

He leans forward again capturing my lips with his I don't touch his face again this time I place my hands on his hips. We both pull back breathless.

Nate "will you just stop rambling. I forgive you I'm also sorry about everything I said. I did care about what you were going through and If it meant stating by your side I would've carried on listening"

"There's no need for that I caused all those feelings I should've asked if you needed to talk about anything or if something was ok your mind but I didn't I should've been more aware. But I will from now on so please be mine"

His eyes widen but his face lightens up with the biggest smile I have ever seen from him.

Nate "Yes. Of course"

Thank god I let out a sigh of relief.

"Thank you"

Nate nods but yawns. I lay him down along with me. His head on my chest and he places his leg over mine.

Nate "I love you" he whispers

"I love you too" I say giving him a kiss on the forehead.

We both fall asleep in each other's arms. Our first night together as lovers.