Dad.

Rayze started to find some books and I'm just there sitting trying to connect in the internet! My internet sucks!

I searched his name in social media, gladly I saw him at Instagram. His account was in private so I didn't saw his post. But he had a lot.

Lo.wis.cy: Hey, it's me, The one who got your ID.

I was scratching my nails to each other when he replied right away. Good thing he's online at the moment!

ITSJAREL: Oi! Sure? No scam? Okay-okay.

ITSJAREL: Are you on the way? :)

"Hey," I put my phone upside down to hide it. I look up at Rayze putting her book on the table, together with her Ipad. Her friends join us, making me feel like I'm out of place. I just put a little distance to them to open again my phone.

ITSJAREL: Kyah, I still have a training. :(

My brows furrowed when I saw the message.

Lo.wis.cy: Do you have to inform me that?

My eyes widened when I saw his username! Oh my great God! I thought it was Audric!! Freak!!

ITSJAREL: Awts gege.

ITSJAREL: you have my ID. T^T assuming.

I silently groaned. Oh, yeah that made me looks like an assuming, something. How can I escape this now? It will put me on shame! What a pride I have. It's more than my self confidence so, wow.

: Ow, sorry. It was supposed to be for my friend...

I bit my lip when I realized that I turned the table upside down! I'm a little savage in that part.

: Anyway, I can't go now, I'm sorry.

:we can officially meet at Saturday. Is that fine?

"Yow, Have you eaten?" I look at Rayze, guy friend who talk sitting right just beside me. "You've been on your phone since we get here. Boyfriend?" He smiled after what he said making my eyes widen!

"Uhm, No. I don't have one. And yes, I ate before going here with Rayze." I smiled on him looking down again on my phone when it vibrated.

ITSJAREL: The decision is on me. I might got late tomorrow.

Guilt started to flow inside me. What if he really cant enter his school because he don't have his ID. It's just in two options. Either he got a record or he's absent. This is hard. But I can't cut my pm class right now since we have an exam and it's in major class.

I got hesitant on his decision because I might can't go in the place he want us to meet. I mean, I'm not good at directions, and also my Dad will ground me. Unless Audric will save me. Hoping that he will.

ITSJAREL: You know where Carmona is? The mall there?

I replied 'yes' and waited again for his response. He take a while before replying so I just read my my notes and Rayze gave me a copy of old test on the specific subject that might help us. I just highlight some hint and key points in my mind so the exam won't be that hard for me to answer.

ITSJAREL: Saturday, after lunch. Carps? :))

: Pics :), Sorry again.

ITSJAREL: Small thing. Thanks!

I didn't reply on him after that. We go to the class after we finished reviewing. I was following them from behind, they're laughing on something, I just admire them, especially Rayze, for having a friend.

I also want, but I can't. I just can't have one.

[Where are you?] I lightly smiled on my self looking down at the floor. I sighed before answering Audric in the other line. [It's just that, I really need to pass this major subject I have. Our Proctor really is on fire towards me. Damn her.] I ranted at him and even lowered my voice so that no one will hear it. I just hate that subject. She can drop and broke my whole fine life, for real.

[Hmm, I am hoping that you're not cursing her, HAHA! Anyway. good luck. In your exam.] I thanked him and about to end the call but he said something so I put it again to my ear.

"Come again?"

[Dinner with fam. Tito and Dad, set it. You just have no choice.] He giggles, on what he'd said. There is nothing funny but I guess he just laugh it off because the semester just ended and they might took it hard on us. Oh, No. Just in me.

Audric and other aquaintances achievement was the only thing my Dad sees. Dric will just voice it out so my Dad will notice it, But it still not enough for him. I hope mommy is there in my side to at least make my self esteem grow even just millimeters.

After class I went straight to my condo taking a bath for a moment before changing into white tube a veige denim jacket having some retro design on it and a skirt partnered with my black high cut converse. I just tie my hair in a messy bun before putting some tint and face powder. I waited for Audric at the lobby.

"Just don't mind what he'll say. Okay?" I just ignored him before getting out of the car. Even if he tells me that, my heart can't handle.

The dinner is on our mansion so if my Dad, look me not so presentable I can still change. That's why I just wear simple things. I head straight at the dining. I bowed on them, lightly kissing at Audric's mom, cheek.

"You look beautiful, Cy." I smiled on her giving her a thankful looks. I greeted also tito Dan, before heading to my Dad to give him a bowed. I sat beside Audric helping me with my chair.

"What took you so long?" I looked up when Audric bumped my arm lightly. Dad was looking at me so I should be the one who will answer.

"Traffic." I simply said before sipping on my water just to avert his attention on me. We started eating while the elders are still talking about something in the company, politics and businesses.

"Can we see the grades, the both of you?" I bit My lip opening my phone, slipping it to the table until it reaches dad. Audric and I were in different university so, Expected that we have different grading system.

"So far it's good. How about, Cy?" I held my utensil so tight when dad, gave my phone with such force giving me a hint. Here we go again...

"3.5? You only Got one kwatro, Louize?!" I sighed putting my hands under the table. I just listen on his scolds, because I know I won't win the arguement. I never did, even just once. He won't let someone lose him, he will do all the possible way even it can dirt his hand, for him the crown and throne is the only precious in life. If you're unarmed you lose. that's how cruel the reality.

"I'm still in deans list, Dad." I said in such a nervous voice. I'm glad, Audric's fam was here or else dad probably hitting me at this moment.

"That's a very nice grade, tito. Her course is not that ideal. You still can be thankful about that." Dric help me out. I felt his hand squeezing mine under the table, saying that everything will be fine. I was biting my lip all the time waiting for this discussion to over.

"You are Louize Zaludes! You just can't be in superior! You should be on top! What would I say with my business partners? That you're just that while their kids on top?! You're going to put my name on shame!" I freeze on my seat. I don't know what to answer anymore.I don't even know if I should be thankful that this one is just a mild.

"HAHAHA! Let the kid go, Lauwrick. She's still in third year, It can be change in the next following school years and training." I look at Audric's mom giving me an understanding looks, saying that I'm doing such great job.

"Look at Audric. He never missed an A plus in his card! Be inspired by him, not just following him around! I'm trying my best to stop my tears from falling. I told you so. He never see mine. He always see others achievement, and how they were greater than me. This is not the first time, I just cant get into it. I hate being shouted at, especially when theres other people around me.

Audric excuse us dragging me to my room. I remained standing in front of the door looking at my feet. I let my tears from falling, Audric is sitting on the sofa, listening to my sobs, I feel my chest throbbing so I made a fist on it. He opened my walk in closet pushing me inside.

"Cry it all. I'll be here on the other side." I didn't bother to look at him and just locked the door inside. I sit on the floor even though there's have a couch in the middle of the room.

"I don't even want the situation, I am right now." I said in between sobs. Regretting everything. I shouldn't have granted a life.

:c