Trauma-

I gave him a smile waving my hand. He ruffles my hair lightly before waving his hand too. Am I look like a kid to him? He's giving me such care. I know that he's looking at me from the back, I want to glance but never mind, I might force my self to stay here to watch his training.

"Louize?!" I closed my eyes hardly in surprised, faking a smile before looking back at my Dad. "So you're going out on your own lately? If my flight didn't got delayed no one will give me a report about this!" I trembles when his voice raised than usual. I held my elbow looking down at my feet. I was standing here in the middle of stairs.

"It's just that... I need to return someone's belongings." There's no point for me not to tell the truth. I'm sure that one of his body guard tailed me a while ago. If I said a falsfy we might got into cruelty. I'm scared, Audric is not around, no one can save me from him.

"A whole day?!" I pursed my lips trying my best to stand straight. I feel my knees trembling, I might got collapsed here and break down when he shouted at me again for another time.

"It's in Ermita dad. I went there after a rest in my class, its almost three hours drive, you can't blame me for just being home at this hour. Excuse me." I bowed at him before running to my room upstairs. I double locked it before locking myself in my walk in closet, hugging my knees. Predicting what will happened next.

"Cyer! Were not done talking yet! Open this!" I cover my ears when he stamped on the door. "I said open this! Who is the guy with you?! Your body guard said its not the first time that you're with that guy!" I shouted sorry again just to ease his anger. I was closed in crying but I'm stopping my self. Or else he won't have mercy. He hates it when I cry, when he hear my sobs and fear.

In him, I should always be perfect. No one should break me. I have no right to cry in front of people or else they'll ruined everything I have and worst me myself. I was completely opposite of what he was thinking of me, of what he wants me to be.

"Lets talk this out. Open this." I shooked my head as if he can see me, I continue whispering 'forgive me' 'I'm sorry' 'It wont happened again' Like a coward kid afraid of monsters. I heard the keys outside probably a maid trying to opened the door. "Open this fucking door, Louize, You wont be happy if I forcely get in there." My tears started to pool. I turn off the light before hiding at my cabinet. I tried to reached Audric but he's not answering.

"Open this or I'll break this?!" I bit my lip when he continuously stamps the door. "This is the last time Louize. Or else that guy of yours will live in hell, He's going to be your shortfall!" I caught off guard after hearing those. He's not doing anything wrong, why would he be involved in the plate? My hands is shaking while opening the door of my closet. I can feel the anger flowing in him from the other side of the door.

"Louize Cyer!! You child of bitch, Open this!" I stepped back again when he tried to pushed the door. I stifle my sobs when I heard someone talking to him. "Talk to her or else!" I waited for minutes before I heard a knock. I hesitated but still opened it. Audric in his casual attire enters. I lay in my bed covering my body using the comforter.

"I just want to take off the chain on my neck. But I was scared enough to break it." I said under the comforter, crying out my lungs. I felt his embrace from outside whispering sorry.

"He'll be out of town for month, he probably tell his guards to watch you." I pursed my lips hugging my knees. That's not new anymore. I just need to be more careful if I'll go out on my own. The scenario a while ago is just a normal happenings, He even hit me back then and... now, I don't know anymore. i don't know why up until now, I'm still not into this scene in my life. This happened almost every day. Why?

I excuse my self to him, so I can wash my self, I stayed under the water for minutes, I still want to stay but, nah... I don't want hurt my self again. I wore my knitted beige sweater and a pair of white shorts parter with my black sneakers. I refused to answer Audric on where will I go.

"Hey? I want to join, come on?" He aggressively ruffles his hair getting pissed now. "Just tell me, so I can easily find you if somethings happend." I bit my lip fixing my cap. I also put some extra clothes in my bag before going outside quietly. I breath loosely like the stone in my chest take off when I heard the gate closed, sign that Dad already leave.

"I'm going to my Mom." I answered his question earlier. It was a half meant answer, I will just drop off in someone's house before going to the hospital. I just want to assure if they're fine.

"Sure. I'll talk to the guards." I nod on him before going to the kitchen so I can refill first my hydroflask. When he gave me a sign that its now okay I went straight to my other car. Audric help me to open the gate. "Just, take care." He caressed my cheek as I nod. He gave me a wave before closing the gate.

I sighed looking at the red light. My life is a dark empty barrel. You can't move, you can't breath and all. I was so complicated, that's why I also don't want a friend. No one stays after knowing my background. They always looking at me the wrong way after knowing that I'm a senator's Daughter.

I get out of the car walking close to the kid squatting at the gutter. I watch her carefully caressed the kitten's head. I smiled on my self sitting inches away from her. She's still wearing her club shirt, probably came here straight from their practice.

"Isn't she lonely?" I asked the kid, I chuckles on her when she look at me in shock. "I mean the kitten." I glance at her when she didn't answer. I raised a brow smiling, so she wont scared of me.

"Ahh, I guess she's not. I always visit her and even gave him food everyday and night." She said having a big wide smile on her lips. She pour a water in a small container so the pet can drink. "She have me, now. I just can't take her home, Mom will blurt out, she might got an asthma." A small smile plastered on my lips. I hope I have like her too.

The kitten and I were just the same but she had someone who can look after her, while me? Audric is there yes, but he had his own life. He can't be with me all the time. If I just have someone who I can rely and incline onto.

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