Hey Stranger. Where You Been?
Don: WE need you Claire
Claire: Guys I can't...I need to be here for my mom
Zoe: Since when? You don't even give a shit about your mom
Claire: of course I do what do you mean?
Don: Ok ok Claire. You do what you want...you've been ignoring us for days now so what else is new!
Claire: Guys....Guys wait...c'mon
But they'd left already.
Damn it.
They were pissed and within reason
Ever since my mom's and Mai's diagnosis I haven't been myself.
She spent all day sleeping in and I felt helpless so I just stay home in case she needed something
We just stayed home all day quietly watching TV shows or cooking and I'd gone to the hospital that one time to pick up her drugs
Mai on the other hand wouldn't agree to see me
She'd changed her mind about telling our friends which lead them frustrated and taking it out on me
So yes I couldn't tell them about their best friend having HIV but I don't know why I couldn't tell them about my mom!
Was it because I was ashamed?
I mean they'd definitely understand and be totally supportive but I just felt like the world had been so unfair to her and I felt a great need to protect and care for her.
God damnit
At what expense though?
Loosing my friends?
Celine: Go out baby
Claire: But...what of you need me
Celine: Nah ....we both know I'll be ok
And plus this moping around wouldn't do either one of us any good
Please go have a life
Claire: But....
Celine: No buts...just go
Claire: are you sure??
Celine: I am
I love you Beau, Forever
Claire: I love you mom
I needed to see Mai
This was getting ridiculous
Why wouldn't she see me?
So I called Don and Zoe asking if they'd accompany me Mai's house
They said yes of course
Those fuckers
I loved them though
Claire: hey
Mai: Hi
We just stood at her door staring at each other
I decided to break the ice
Claire: So how have you been?
Mai: Good....good
Claire: May I come in?
Mai: Claire look...Ummm...I don't think it's a good time...
Suzan: Oh hi!
Claire right?
Claire: Ummm yeeaaah hi....what's going on?
Why are you here? Mai what's going on?
Mai: yeah so I called Suzan to come over and keep me company.
Claire: In a towel!? Are you guys playing some kind of naked game? She in a towel? You in a towel? What...what is this?
Suzan: You didn't tell her?
Mai: Suzan I think you should go dress up now?
Claire: yes Suzan go dress up hehehe....what...what, seriously Mai what are you not telling me
Since when is Suzan your friend and most importantly why call her and not me?
Mai: come in
We need to talk
Claire: oh yes we do
I looked around Mai's living room and it was a disaster
It looked like she hadn't cleaned in days
And her hair! Oh my God her eyes looked....like she hadn't slept in days
Mai: my parents left
Claire: ok
Mai: want coffee?
Claire: fuck coffee
First tell me how you're feeling, have you been taking your meds? Where did your parents go to? Wait how long has Suzan been staying here but most importantly since when have you been friends with Suzan? Nobody likes her
Mai: You don't like her, everyone else thinks she's cool
And if you don't sit I won't be answering any of your questions "Detective of Mai's life"
I knew Mai meant that last part as a joke but it hurt
Mai was like a sister to me
I cared about her
So what's with attitude
I wanted to scream at her but no
If I did scream she'd just kick me out and my questions would be unanswered and that'll just drive me nuts
So I just sat down quietly and crossed one foot In front of the other
Mai: After my results came out I told my parents and they took it badly
They left the same day and I haven't heard from them
I'm beginning to think they have abandoned me B
Claire: No that's impossible, hehe your parents love you
Don't be ridiculous
Mai: so why are they rejecting my calls
Anyway I've been having fun
Doing whatever I want
Whenever I want
And with whom ever I want
Claire: Hence Suzan?
Mai: yeah I been "seeing her for awhile"
Claire: specify "awhile"
Mai: four days
Claire: what a "forever"
Mai you don't shit without telling me
First John then the pregnancy and then this?
What's going on with you
Mai: I'M SICK!!! CLAIRE!!! WHAT PART OF THAT DONT YOU FUCKIN UNDERSTAND
Claire: I do....I do understand but I am here for you
Why won't you talk to me
Mai: Do you understand that this....this thing I've got inside of me...it's never going away and....
Claire: you don't know that....
Mai: and....and I'll never be able to have a family of my own
So what happens when you move to university huh or call in love and decide to be a family with your fiancé
What then? Huh? ANSWER ME. WHAT THEN???
Claire: I..I..I..
Mai: you can't can you?
This is useless....just let me be....I wanna die already
Claire: Don't ...don't. Please don't say that Mai please
My heart was breaking I had tears in my eyes
Damn I couldn't see her through the rush of salty tears that ran down my eyes
I wanted to tell her I was here for her
I wanted to shake her so badly she felt how much she meant to me
But most of all I wanted to hug her
Just hug her so she knows she's not alone
She was never gonna be alone
My phone rang
Claire: just excuse one second I'm gonna take this call
Mai: sure
It was Don
Why was Don calling me?
And I thought they agreed on meeting me here
Weird
Claire: Yo bro where are y'all?
Don: Ummm....Claire I don't know what's going on at your house are you there?
Claire: at my house? What? No. No I'm at Mai's
What's going on?
Don: so Zoe and I came by your house to pick you up but as soon as s we got here we saw an ambulance parked outside....oh wait hold on ....omg Claire....it's...it's....
Claire: WHAT? WHAT? WHAT? MY MOM!! Shit Don my mom's inside the house....is she ok? Don.... Don please tell me my mom's ok
Don: Claire the ambulance just took your mom
I think people are saying she tried to kill herself
Mai: Claire? What going on?
Claire: My mom....
My mom tried to kill herself
Oh! MY! GOD!
*Notice*
Hey guys here's a new chapter as promised
I loved hearing from. Few of you
Yayyy don't you just live the dream?
Lord know I did, writing it
Guess what happens next!!!
I'll wait!!