The Journey Of Samkelisiwe Nzama

Adults are obsolete children and the hell with them…….”

Her daughters were kind of dirty but she washed mine and even ironed it. Her daughter’s ones were actually the opposite of mine. But on our way to school that morning something kept questioning my heart "Why was yours washed” “Why was yours washed " but I had to let go.

So, I had some clothes there by her house. I mean the mother of my" friend ". I remember we were at school and that afternoon she came to school; I don't know what she was there for. I walked with her daughter out of the school wall and we saw her approaching us. I smiled at her and she gave me back a fake smile. She then called her daughter and I followed because we were both walking together.

She told me to step back and wants to talk to her daughter alone, so I must stand were I am. My heart was very sore I wondered what is it that she would want to talk in private. Firstly, she washed my matric jersey with what I did not know. Now, she talks privately with my best friend, I mean her daughter. I stood there and she looked at me with very "cold hearted eyes” and turned back to her daughter. I stood there alone with my hands folded and waited for them to finish.

They talked for too long I then decided to leave. They were so deep in what they were talking about that they didn't even notice me while leaving. So, I had to walk alone because I waited for so long for them to finish talking that most of the people at school were gone already. So, I walked alone with a heavy heart. I was in tears on my way to catch a taxi back home. I mean she was supposed to be my mother as her daughter was my best friend.

Days went by and I Samkelisiwe Nzama noticed nothing. This time around the school we had to attend was far from the house they lived at. So, me being at home for the weekend and not at her house I had to wake up early so that I’m not late for class. When I got where they live, I rushed to my friend’s house to fetch her so that we can go together and she was already gone.

I did not know what to do. I had no money with me to get me to the other school. I then called my mom and told her. She told me to ask my best friend mother to give me money, she'll then pay her since we lived very far away from her house. I had some money in my pocket but not enough to get me to the other school. I told my best friend mother what my mom said.

She told me she had no money and time was moving. Class was about to start, but she gave me more than enough money. I said thanks and I rushed to get a taxi again to get to the other school this time. I made sure that I only spend a small amount as I can. I starved myself at school because I knew she was going to demand her money back!

I told my friend I was fine and am full already I eat too much for breakfast. But deep down I was hungry. I had some money with me which was mine but I didn't want to spend it. I wanted to give it to her with her change from the money she gave me. School came out we went back home. When I stepped my feet’s in the door. She asked me about her money. "Where is my money?!". I then gave her a third of what she gave me and I was full already. She just made my stomach full.

I went to my best friend bedroom sat there thinking of how I will give her back the money, as home was two taxi's away and am sleeping at her house tonight.

She came in the bedroom "Samu where is the money, I want it. I want to use it". I told her that I'll call my mom to send it. It was R50 the money she gave me. I gave her R30 already. But she wanted the full amount. I called my mom but she didn't pick up, I felt like fainting. An hour later she came back again "Bathong Samu where is the money?" coming back for the fifth time now.

I had to make a plan cause my mom was not picking up. My heart was so painful I felt like crying I then called a girl I knew nearby, I went to her house and borrowed R20 from her mom. She then gave me; I ran back to my best friend’s house and gave her mom her R20. She didn't ask where I got it. She wanted her money because she said she had to use it for something else.

I was so relieved. She then asked us to cook and I helped out. One of her elder daughter’s came in and asked whose money was on the table. I mean the money that she gave me and I had to repay.

The elder daughter took the money and told her mom she was hungry so she's gone use it to buy herself something to eat while we were cooking. The mother was like "Okey my dear take it". My heart nearly stopped I cried but without out showing any tears.

She told me she was going to use the money on something important. She told me it's urgent. And when I think of what I did just to get it back! And to find out that she was just pressuring me for nothing. Why did she demand it so much if she wasn't going to use it?!

It was than clear to me that she was very selfish, she was not kind hearted at all. I kept on asking myself why she treated me this way. I mean my mother was very good to her daughter. My mother loved her daughter more anything. She treated her like her own, they even shared a star sign. And I shared a star sign also with the mother.

But that women hated me so much. That women hated me so much I did not like the road I was walking on but I could not start paving another one. I loved my friend so much. I mean she was my companion. A sister from another mother, giving up was never gone be easy.

I was the artist of my life and gave the paint brush to the mother of my friend as she was an adult in my world. I have never seen that the purpose of life was to be happy in her house, well around her soul and blood.

Her sweat would suffocate me, my organs will faint right away. But I knew that often difficult roads lead to beautiful destinations. But I guess she watered the tress that were planted near the road of my destination.

As said every situation in life is temporary. So, when life is good make sure you enjoy and receive it fully. And when life is not good, remember that it will not last forever and better days are on their way.

As for me Samkelisiwe Zama, the journey lasted forever. Despite everything. I was gutted in all sides of my life. I had to prepare today for a better yesterday.