My name is Samkelisiwe Nzama and I live in a place that is not as safe as yours. Am only seventeen and I have seen trouble to last me for a life time. My dad let’s just say he works at local school and my mom a nearby firm. Where I live you dare not shine to. I do not leave the house.

Now I sit here alone and am scared. I am not sure if am depressed. I mean am not sad but am not exactly happy either. I can laugh, joke and smile but sometimes when am alone at night I forget how to feel. The journey of Samkelisiwe Nzama was not meant for human eye. I was the unnoticed, I was the unnoticeable soul. The more I laughed was the more time I spent with my eyes closed in this journey. But the dark cloud will finally disappear and I will walk towards reality in the soft light of dusk.

With this I welcome you to The Journey Of Samkelisiwe Nzama. My days are full of victory for I win every day. I am sure I would find it funny if an ant came looking for me. THIS STORY IS DEEP AND DOMESTIC [WARNING]THE CONTENT OF THIS STORY MAY NOT BE SUITABLE FOR SENSTIVE READERS.

The Journey Of Samkelisiwe Nzama

Samkelisiwe Nzama is a young lady, very short in a way. Allow me to say a "DIVA” a female version of a hustler. Enough about the outer description of me, let's talk about my inner, let's talk about my soul. Don't forget my heart. Am hurting but my heart is not bleeding there is no blood at all. It's beating ONE TWO ONE TWO ONE TWO. I swear if it gets to THREE, I will be removed from the book of life. 


I remember during the 2020 midnights watching a show I won't mention the name. One of the presenters there mentioned a name "isichitho". I was told I have "isichitho" in my lower stomach. Let me remind you of intambo "the red and white" one. Well, being in the model C school I didn't care to know what it meant. When I saw it on TV, I mean the meaning was translated in English. I could understand it. My mind took me back to the past months of January. Makhosi mentioned that to me. She told me I have it "ilana". 


Strange things kept on happening daily and daily well as girls we go through “periods”. 


“WARNING THE CONTENT OF THIS PART MAY NOT BE SUITABLE FOR SENSITIVE READERS!!” 


I was sitting in the dining room with my little sister. Period Pains began I felt like screaming it was super sore, I couldn't bare the pain any more. Being the older child at home I had to dish up and when I was done. I went straight to the bedroom to fetch my gown thinking that I would feel much warmer and better. 


I sat down checked my leopard skin trouser that I was wearing. I saw blood, I felt wet. I thought EISH periods. I saw something red; I saw it, I did see it. Blood my brain told me its Blood. 


Well, it was not too much so I carried on and watched my show. But I saw blood., I felt it. I finished watching my show, I went straight to bed to sleep. I literally had forgotten about periods. I slept the night off but the periods pain was so bad at the time I ignored them. I told myself I would wake up super early and figure myself out. 


I woke up the next morning and I felt like fainting I couldn't believe what I saw. I mean there was No more Blood no more period Pains nothing! I was so clean one could tell I just had a bath. But last night I saw blood I did see it. I mean with the Journey of Samkelisiwe Nzama anything is possible! Tell me was it just my thoughts or. BUT I SAW BLOOD LAST NIGHT. 


Cherish your ability to carry a child. There are many women who wish they could, but they cannot. Should I say in the future, my voicemail should just say, no I can't answer your phone I have kids, just text me like a normal person.
