Stop Thinking!

I yawned and opened my eyes. I realized that I had actually slept. I really thought that thinking about all this mess would keep me awake for days.

Well, if I did sleep, why did I wake up!? Now, this is the day which is gonna decide my fate like none other.

At least I should have a choice now, shouldn’t I? This is so ridiculous. How can I even believe that what he is saying is true? God, why didn’t I think about this before? What if he is just making stories of our engagement, and what if we are not really engaged? What proof does he have?

My head started spinning at my own thoughts. God, if he wants it, he is gonna have it. Let it be the way it is, I think all other ways he’s gonna try will be worse.