Gold Room part IV

Hero Teacher is outside of the Gold Room. he is looking at the sky. he feels cold. Hero Teacher knows that this is his last time here. he wants to experience some peace. he is so afraid of going back to the real world.

Hero Teacher puts a cigar on his mouth. he closes his eyes as he thinks about the past. he can remember those days of darkness, those days of salvation. Hero Teacher knows so well that the past can't change nor time can't run backwards.

Beau walks behind him. he calls him. Hero Teacher turns around to see his friend. Hero Teacher doesn't know what to do. Beau gives him a hug. Hero Teacher cries on the arms of his friend.

"did you lie to your girlfriend? I mean, I had been trying to ask for long. I didn't have the opportunity to ask. was it because your past? don't worry she won't judge you."

said Hunter feeling worry.

"you know why, I wanted to erase that part of my life. I wanted to forget about those times, times of darkness."

said Beau with an emotionless expression.

"I don't. I don't want to forget even if it hurts to remember. because it was then when you came to my rescue. I owned my whole existence to you. you are like a God to me. it is hard for me to even think, what would be of me without you on it? the answer is simple, my life would be nothing."

said Hunter with teary eyes.

Beau didn't know what to say. whatever he did to win Hunter's respect & royalty. at the time Beau doesn't remember. Beau was lost on those times, even more lost of what he is now.

Hunter knows so well Beau, he didn't help expecting anything. all that Hunter can think about right now, is to pay off his debt. his time is running out. he has to make sure to find someone, someone who can finish the job he can't.

Beau knows that something is wrong with Hunter. he seems too quiet, he seems too serious, he seems different from his old self. there is something that he has been hiding for a long time. Beau wants to know.

"I am going to die soon. sorry, I didn't know how else to say it. I can't come back. this is going to be my last time in here. I will try to help however I can with the time I have left."

said Hunter with deep sorrow on his face.

"fuck man, I don't know what to say. if I sound angry for not warning me before, it will be idiotic of me knowing my personality. if I sound concerned, it will be hypocrite knowing my personality. I have no words."

said Beau feeling confused.

"it is okay, you had always been like that. it is on your DNA. actually I am glad, I can finally tell you how fucking scare I am. I am terrified by the idea of dying. damn, I wish we could go back to our old days."

said Hunter trying to contain his deep sorrow.

Hunter looks at the sky once more. he feels melancholy to think this is the last time. the last time he spends on the game. the last time with friends. he will miss it. he has some months left to live. he is worry about Beau's future.

what will happen to him? what will be of his future? there is so little he can do. none of the guys on this world has a clear future. the line on which they walk is blurred. the line is practically a walk to suicide. jet there is hope on most of them, hope to survive.

Beau doesn't want to say goodbye to an old friend. if this is the last time they will see each other, then he wishes for the night to be longer. he wishes for this time to not end. who can say goodbye to a friend? a friend who feels like a brother.

"I am also afraid of dying. I mean. I know, I am actually dead. I fear dying again. I don't want to die inside of this world. becoming proteins for the Gods isn't on my to do list. well if I make it, see you in another life bro."

said Beau avoiding eye contact.

"it is fun to talk with you. what about some beers. I don't want our goodbye to be painfully boring. I want us to remember our last time on the same world, as a nice end for a chapter in our lives. like they say everything has to end. here ends our friendship."

said Hunter swallowing his deep sorrow.

"okay, look at you talking like some macho man. bro, I remember when you used to hide behind of me. you are no scare little boy. it was a damn fucking pleasure, it indeed was a pleasure being your friend."

said Beau with teary eyes.

"to be honest, I always thought that you are a heartless son of bitch. don't get me wrong. I love you like a brother, but you can be cold & bitchy. maybe is the love, you can't fool me. I know you are like crazy in love of her. she seems like a nice lady."

said Hunter feeling some joy & peace.

Beau blushes thinking about his girlfriend. Beau wanted to ask about Hunter's love life. he didn't because knowing Hunter, well it may hurt him to remember. he doesn't have enough time to live nor to love. he is going to feel hurt.

Beau leaves for a moment. he went to get some beers. Hunter stays in there alone. he is appreciating the beauty of the night. he wishes to be brave enough to be standing till the last day. he is feeling the tormenting weight of time.

Self-Bet walks outside, to the garden in which Hunter is right now. Hunter thinks she is lost or looking for Beau. in reality Self-Bet wanted to talk with Hunter. there was something to talk about. both of them are the most important people to Beau.

Self-Bet could tell that Hunter was experiencing some problems. she wanted to talk to him sooner. she didn't for respect to Beau. she just felt now the need to. she wants to talk before Beau comes back.

"can I help you with something?"

said Hunter with a huge smile.

Self-Bet looks at him for some time before talking. she starts to talk about random stuff avoiding the main point. she looks at Hunter's empty eyes. she can see his apathy for the world. even so he tries to pretend to be fine.

"you don't seem to be right. there is something on your heart... you don't have to worry about Beau. I will care for him, I will protect him once you are gone. I am sorry if I sound disrespectful towards you, I, I know you are dying. I know how much he worries you."

said Leah with a gentle smile.

Hunter is out of words. he was thinking about many things. he had many things worrying him about death. it is a relief to know Beau has someone so nice at his side, someone to care for him after he is gone.

"thanks, thank you so much. you have no idea how glad am I, I am so glad to know that you are going to be there at his side. I, you are giving me so much hope. I am finally having a feeling of peace, now I know he doesn't need of me anymore."

said Hunter with teary eyes.

Hunter starts to cry silently. he covers his face with his arm. he turns around to not been seen. he wants to cry alone. he can't stop crying feeling relief. Beau is lucky, he finally found the right gal. he needed a break from his grumpiness.

"is good to know that Beau has good people, who cares for him. it makes me happy to know he is loved by others as much as I love him. is good to know that I am not the only one who sees his worth."

said Leah follow by a sweet smile.

Hunter stops crying. his eyes are read. he cleans his face with his t-shirt. he stands up. he breaths in, he breaths out. once he is finally fine he looks at her. he wants to smile, but he doesn't have the energy.

there are things that she doesn't know about their past. there are things that Beau should tell her about the past. but it isn't Hunter's place to tell her, nor to ask Beau to tell her about those things. that is something Beau should tell her by his own will.

"you know? I had live a whole life with no care for my own life. I always believed that deep inside of me, all I wanted was to die.... but no, now I am freaking out. I am breaking from inside. every day that I wake up, is a day closer to my death. is it going to be painful? please don't tell him. he is going to feel guilty."

said Hunter feeling emotional.

Leah leaves. Hunter cleans the tears from his face. he breaths in, he breaths out. he is now feeling more relaxed. he feels a deep satisfaction. he no longer feels that deep hole on his chest. maybe he needed to talk. he never talked to someone else, to someone who isn't Beau.

"that heartless bastard is taking too long. how hard can be to find some beers?"

Hunter didn't saw Beau approaching with six beers on each hand. Beau felt offended by his friend's comment. he even growled furiously.

"hey, you fucking idiot. those are no words to describe a bro, also you know I hate when carrots talk behind my back."

Hunter is looking at his friend with a huge smile. he hugs Beau. he takes some beers. he wants to ask why he took too long. he sees the anger on Beau's face.

"please, no. stop with the carrot insults. okay I am sorry. I didn't mean it."

"you better be serious or I will make you mashed carrots. so are ya drinking or not. I ain't returning the damn beers."

"yeah, I really need a beer or two."

"what are ya waiting for, start drinking at once. also how fucking dare you to called me heartless, me? the most selfless person on this world can't be heartless. say that shit again, I dare you to call me heartless, you puny little asshole."

"you are drunk already... you were drinking before coming, I dare you to deny it."

inside of the Gold Room; Cabra-Head is on a table. he is looking at every person. he wants to find the weaknesses and the strength of those on the party. he needs to know more about them, he needs to know before making a choice.

what choice you may ask? well he needs to take a side. if he wants to live longer on this damn world. he can't stay neutral forever on the middle of a battlefield. on this world there is always a side to take. or a death to accept.

he needs to be ready. Cabra-Head stands up. he decided to walk away from the party. he can find a better time to make allies or to get shot from behind. now what is important is to leave the party without making enemies.

Cabra-Head is a serious character of a man. he may behave like a free spirit or irresponsible fool in front of others. in reality he may be the smartest man on the room. he is just using a mask to walk unnoticed by others. only a fool will drag attention towards himself. talking about fools, he finds himself in front of Dog-Boy.